MARGOT's POV
I tried to calm myself despite what I found out because I didn't want to hurt my son. While driving I did nothing but cry. My eyes were dimming and I could hardly see the road even it was mid-day.
I never thought I would hear that from Jace in front of his friends. By the time I fulfilled my obligation as a wife I knew in myself that I had no shortcomings in taking care of him. I let him do so he could balance right with wrong with what he was doing and so he could compare me to Brianna. But in the end, it was even more painful. Because he blamed me and our relationship that his mistress left him.
I have known about them for a long time. Since in the restaurant when I was with Maggie and we saw them that he introduced her as a client. Maggie and I had already seen them kiss but I told Maggie not to scandalize. Jace is still my son’s dad and I don’t want to do anything bad.
I investigated her and I found out she was Jace’s ex that he ran away from the wedding. I talked to Brianna three days before our wedding and I told her I already knew about them. She told me she loved Jace and she couldn’t afford to leave. When she found out that he was getting married, she planned to separate but when Jace was there, she lost all her courage. She also doesn’t want to ask Jace to chose because she knows Jace doesn’t want to be away from his son and she knows Jace will choose me with his son more than her.
She begged me to just stay away and let Jace go. Because Jace couldn't be the one to back off because of Umami. Jace doesn't want to be embarrassed again because he did it before so even against his will he will stand by our marriage and she said that Jace also has plans to separate from me when Umami is born.
But I said that her opinion was not important to me. If Jace says that the marriage will continue, there is nothing she can do. We will marry whoever she doesn't want and whoever she wants. She wasn't the one I talked to at the wedding so her opinion didn't count. And I said, that once we got married I wouldn’t let Jace have time with her. I would tighten Jace and pull him away from her.
She talked to me and knelt in front of me so I could let them. She won’t mess around and won’t take Jace from me. She wouldn’t let Jace annul me as long as I just let them. She accepts to be Jace's mistress until she has the courage to leave.
As a woman, I know the feeling of being in love. I have loved Jace ever since and I have been looking for and waiting for him for a long time. Even though he did not remember me I did not stop loving. So when we met again I did not hesitate to give myself to him. So I understand Brianna.
I fought fairly, as a woman, as a wife, and as the future mother of his child. I know they were talking at the restaurant when Brianna had a date with that messy look guy. Maybe they didn't just talk. I also know that he kissed her on the day of our wedding but because I didn’t want him to think badly I took the lipstick as mine.
When he sneaked on the wedding night, I knew Brianna was the one he went to. Every time he leaves at night which is sometimes morning to go home I know they are together. And yesterday I also knew that it wasn’t Zeus who called but Brianna.
I know, everything about them. But because I love him I endured. What matters to me is that he is with my son. Maggie and I have a broken family and I don't want my son to experience that his family is not complete. As long as Jace doesn’t physically hurt me, as long as he doesn’t make me look like he doesn’t need me I can endure. He may be fooling me but the important thing is that he comes home to me and he raises our son. He takes care of me and shows concern.
Other than having a mistress he is a good husband to me. He cares and makes you happy. Even though Umami is still in my womb, he makes me feel that he loves my child. I knew he would be a good father because even if he had someone else he is a good husband to me.
Actually, I invited Brianna so Jace could see her. When the priest asked if anyone wanted to object I waited for her to say that she objected but she did not say a word. When the priest asked Jace if he accepted me I waited for him to say no because he wasn’t sure.
I asked Jace if I should say yes. If he said no, I would back down myself. But he told me to say yes to Umami. So I had the courage to continue the wedding because none of them wanted to fight for their love. And that’s what I hold on to that one day Jace will love me wholeheartedly.
But how can he love me completely? If he hadn't loved me at all. I was the only one who assumed he liked me. I just concluded that he likes me. I am the only one who loves and appreciates. He just felt sorry for me.
Before Maggie and Blaze got into a fight, Maggie told me that Jace wasn't serious about me. Every time Maggie and I were together she made me look like I had no value to Jace. But I chose to follow my heart because Jace made me feel different until Umami came.
But I was wrong.
I could endure and fight to the end. I have nothing to do with what happened to Brianna. I also don’t know what they talked about with Maggie. I can compete with her in the way I knew I would never lose my husband.
But it's different when you hear it right from his mouth. And the pain they said those in front of his friends. If he only said that to me, I would accept it and forgive him. I can be hurt but not that much. We could have talked more properly. If it wasn't for saving our marriage, we would have been friends even for Umami.
But it’s demeaning that in front of her friends he said face to face that he was wrong to marry me. It wasn't just being my wife that was trampled on, it wasn't just being a woman that was hurt but being human itself.
It's embarrassing and degrading that I did everything but he didn't notice or appreciate it and in front of his friends he could say that it was wrong to marry me. It was as if he was telling his friends that I was useless and that what I was doing didn't matter. He does not see me as Margot his wife but only as Margot the mother of his child.
He and I are the only ones in our relationship but he said something else in front of his friend.
I wiped away my tears because I still didn’t want to stop flowing. I could feel Umami's pain inside. Now I think I'm going to give birth because my stomach hurts so much. It looks like something has flowed down my thigh as well. I think my water bag broke. I wanted to stop the car when I heard a horn.
Shit! There's a bus coming to me. I turned the car around but my stomach ached so I stepped on the gas. It was too late when I realized that I had crashed into the bus with a stomach ache the last thing I remembered before I fainted.