Everything felt okay
Everything felt okay
VIOLET’S POINT OF VIEW
“Hey…”Jason’s voice cut gently through the silence, not sharp, not sudden… just enough to pull my attention back to him and I looked up at him, my brows knitting slightly because there was something different in the way he said it this time, something softer… more careful, like he was choosing his words before even speaking them.
“I’m not trying to scare you or anything,” he continued, pushing himself fully off the wall now, his hands slipping into his pockets as he held my gaze,
“and I’m definitely not trying to be that guy that tells you what to do…”He paused briefly, like he was making sure I was really listening, and I was.
“…... I'm telling you this as a friend.....I just want you to be careful.”It settled in my chest a little heavier this time, not because of how he said it, but because of how many times I had heard it in just one morning.I didn’t interrupt him though......I let him continue.
“The truth is…” he added, exhaling softly, his expression shifting into something more honest now, less guarded,
“yeah, I didn’t want you to date him at first… I won’t even lie about that.”That earned the smallest reaction from me, just a slight lift of my brow, but I stayed quiet.
“But I’m not going to interfere,” he went on, his voice steady, like he had already made peace with that decision,
“that’s your relationship, not mine, and whatever you two have… that’s between you.”Something about that made my shoulders relax just a little.
“I see the way you guys are in school,” he added, glancing away for a second before looking back at me again, “and I get it… I do.”I swallowed lightly, my fingers absentmindedly playing with the edge of my sleeve as I listened.
“I’ve just been hearing some things,” he continued more quietly now,
“nothing I can prove, nothing I can even fully explain… but enough to make me say this.”
There it was again,That same weight.
But this time… it didn’t settle as easily because a part of me didn’t want it to.
Still… I didn’t shut him down because I knew he wasn’t saying it to hurt me.
“…but I trust you,” he added quickly, like he didn’t want his words to come off the wrong way,
“you’re smart, Violet… you know what you’re doing, and if you like him, and he likes you, then… that’s okay.”I let out a small breath I didn’t realize I’d been holding.
“Okay,” I said softly, and this time I meant it.
Not the warning part.Just… the moment but then his expression shifted again.Not serious,Not heavy.....Just… different.
“And besides…” he added, a faint, almost awkward smile forming at the corner of his lips,
“I think I’ve got my own situation now.”That caught me off guard.....Completely and I blinked at him.
“…what?”That tiny shift was all it took for the atmosphere to change.
The weight that had been sitting between us loosened just enough to let something lighter slip in.Something easier.He rubbed the back of his neck, looking oddly less confident all of a sudden, which… was new.
“I think…” he started, then stopped, then let out a small laugh under his breath,
“I think I might be falling for someone.”My eyes widened instantly.
“Jason.......who??”That came out faster than I expected, and louder too, because suddenly everything else,the warnings, the tension, the careful talk completely disappeared.This was something I understood.He huffed a quiet laugh at my reaction, shaking his head slightly.
“You’re not going to let this go, are you?”
“No,” I said immediately, stepping closer without even thinking, my curiosity already fully awake now,
“absolutely not, you started this, you’re finishing it.”
He looked at me for a second longer, like he was debating whether or not to say it, and then finally…..
“…Chloe.”For a second....mI just stared at him.And then.....
“WAIT......CHLOE??”I practically squealed, my hands flying up in excitement before I could even control it, and his face immediately scrunched in embarrassment.
“Keep your voice down.....”
“No way,” I cut in, already grinning,
“you like Chloe?? Since when?? How?? Why didn’t you tell me??”
“Because you were also busy with your love life and I knew you'd react like this,” he muttered, but there was a small smile on his face now too.
“Oh my God,” I laughed, shaking my head in disbelief,
“Jason… that’s actually......wow.”
“Good wow or bad wow?” he asked, narrowing his eyes slightly.
“Good wow,” I said quickly, still smiling,
“very good wow.”That seemed to relax him a little.
“Yeah… I think so too,” he admitted quietly.
For a moment, everything felt… normal again.Light and Easy,Like nothing complicated existed outside that room.
We talked a little more after that, teasing, laughing, shifting completely away from the earlier tension until it naturally faded into something softer, something unspoken but understood.
After some minutes he left making the room felt quieter after the door closed behind him. To be sincere I can't recall when last we had a fun conversation like this.
Not empty.Just… still and I stood there for a second, letting everything settle, before finally reaching for my phone where I had dropped it earlier.I turned it on and the screen lit up instantly and then......I froze.
“…oh my God.”Notifications were So many and Missed calls and Messages too.
I saw Dylan's message first and opened it quickly, my heart picking up speed as the messages flooded in one after the other. Seems he's plugged his phone.
"Hey Mon Cherie"
"Just got home"
"How are you feeling now?,does it still hurts??"
"I miss you"
"Seems like you've not turned your phone on"
"Please call me when you see my messages" I read and immediately bit my lips and fell on the bed with a loud thud.
"He's so cute"I muttered and immediately dialed his number and believe me when I say he picked up at the first beep.
"Mon Cherie"His voice came up and I blushed as if he could see me.
"Good morning my love"I said shyly and heard a shuffling sound......as if he was standing up from the bed.
"Geez I was starting to get married, why didn't you turn on your phone immediately?"
"Urmmm......I was talking to My mom and then...... something else came up that's why I didn't turn it on sooner "
"Oh okay......I missed you "He said and I bit my lip.
"Hey.......Does it still hurts???"He asked and I immediately shook my head like he could see me.
"Yes......but the pain has reduced"
"I'm so sorry and thank you for giving it to me"He said and I hummed.
"I hope your mom didn't scold you "He said and I immediately shook my head.
"No she didn't,she was just a bit worried she couldn't get to me "I said and heard him exhaled in relief.
"I'm glad......i miss you"He said again and I smiled widely .......we continued talking while I kept on grinning and grinning and then finally he said that his friends are here and he'll talk to me later before hanging up and believe me I looked really funny now because of how red my face is. I decided to go to my friends group chat and immediately I clicked the message tons of messages began dropping.
Mira: WHERE ARE YOU VIOLET??
CHLOE :She’s not picking up…....
Thessa: Violet if you’re alive reply NOW
MIRA: I swear if you ran away with that boy....I gasped softly, my hand flying to my mouth.
“Oh my God, I’m so sorry.......”I typed quickly.
Me: GUYS I’M HEREThe response was immediate.
MIRA: OH?? LOOK WHO DECIDED TO SHOW UP
CHLOE: FINALLY
THESSA: ALIVE CONFIRMED.
I let out a small laugh, shaking my head as I typed.
Me: I’m so sorry my phone died yesterday.
MIRA: Don’t care. Explain.
I bit my lip, smiling to myself slightly,My fingers hovered over the screen for just a second and then......I typed.
Me: Guys… you won’t believe what happened.There was a pause.
Then....
Mira: Start talking.
My heart skipped Just once because suddenly… everything from last night came rushing back all at once.The rain,The room.
Him,The way he looked at me,The way everything felt.
My fingers hovered over the screen for a second longer than necessary, my heart beating just a little faster like even typing it out made it more real than it already was, and I could already feel them on the other side of the chat… waiting, staring, ready to jump on whatever I said next.
Me: Dylan and I…....The typing bubble exploded almost immediately.
Thessa: DON’T YOU DARE PAUSE THERE
Mira: VIOLET.
Amanda: Finish that sentence right now.
I bit my lip, a small smile pulling at the corner of my mouth because I knew exactly what I was doing to them… and maybe, just maybe, I liked it a little.But still…....
This wasn’t something I could just throw out carelessly.Not because I was ashamed,Not because I regretted it.Just because it meant something.A lot more than I even fully understood yet.I exhaled softly, my fingers moving again, slower this time but steady.
Me: We stayed at an inn because of the rain…....There was a brief pause.Then.....
Thessa: Okay???
Mira: AND???
Chloe: Girl don’t describe the weather to me right now.
I laughed under my breath, shaking my head slightly as I tucked one leg under me on the bed, my heart still doing that soft, unfamiliar thing in my chest.
Me: And… we shared a room because it was just one room left.That did it.
Thessa: NO WAY
Mira: YOU’RE LYING
Chloe: One room???
I could practically hear their voices in my head, overlapping, getting louder, more dramatic by the second, and I pressed my lips together trying not to laugh too hard.
The kind of silence that meant they were screaming somewhere behind their screens.
And then.....
Thessa: VIOLET.
Mira: …
Lily: …
I swallowed lightly, my fingers tightening slightly around my phone before I typed again.
Me: We did it.
For a second......Nothing,No messages,No typing bubbles.Just… nothing and then.....Everything.
Mira:"Did what????
Chloe: WHAT?????,VIOLET ARE YOU SERIOUS RIGHT NOW
Thessa: YOU DID NOT
Amanda :YOU DID
Mira: OH MY GOD SHE DID
I let out a breath that turned into a soft laugh, my free hand coming up to cover my mouth as heat rushed to my face all over again, like saying it out loud....even through a screen made it hit differently.
Me: Guys…
Mira: NO NO NO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING
Chloe: FROM THE BEGINNING
Mira: DETAILS. NOW.
I shook my head, smiling helplessly at the screen because of course… of course they weren’t going to let it go that easily.
“God…” I muttered under my breath, running a hand lightly through my hair as I leaned back against the headboard.Where was I even supposed to start?.
I exhaled slowly, my smile softening into something quieter as I began typing again.
Me: It wasn’t planned… it just… happened.
Mira: IT ALWAYS “JUST HAPPENS”
Amanda: Was it at least romantic??
My chest tightened slightly, but not in a bad way… just in that same soft, overwhelming way I had been feeling since morning.
Me: Yes.Very
I stared at that one word for a moment before adding more.
Me: He was gentle… like really gentle… he kept asking if I was okay, if I was sure… he didn’t rush anything.
The typing slowed on their end,Not gone.Just… softer.....Reading and Taking it in.
Amanda: …okay that’s actually really sweet.
Mira: Wait I didn’t expect that
Chloe: Are you okay though?? Like… really okay??I smiled faintly at that, my fingers brushing lightly over the screen as I typed again.
Me: I’m okay......it just hurts a bit.
My lips curved slightly without me noticing.
Me: It didn’t feel wrong…
Chloe: You like him that much huh
I didn’t answer immediately,Not because I didn’t know but because saying it felt… bigger than everything else I had already said.
My mind drifted for just a second.....Back to him.The way he looked at me this morning.
The way he held me like I might break.
The way he said I love you like it actually meant something.
My chest tightened again,Soft and Deep.
I looked back down at my phone and typed.
Me: Yeah… I do.
Just a quiet understanding that settled into the chat in a way I didn’t expect.
Chloe: Just… don’t get hurt okay
There it was again.....That same warning but Different words still yet Same meaning.
I let out a small breath, my smile fading just slightly not completely, just enough to feel it.
Why did everyone keep saying that,Why did it feel like they knew something I didn’t?
I shook my head lightly, pushing the thought away before it could grow into something bigger,Not now......I didn’t want to ruin this.Not when everything still felt… good.
Me: I’ll be fine.
I sent it and this time… I chose to believe it.
The conversation slowly shifted after that, back into teasing, into laughter, into them asking ridiculous questions I refused to answer, into Mira being dramatic, into Chloe pretending to be the “responsible one” while still being just as curious, and Thessa trying to balance both sides like she always did and for a while…It just felt normal.
Like nothing complicated existed beyond my room, my phone, and the soft echo of everything that had happened.
Eventually, the messages slowed and I dropped my phone beside me, leaning back fully onto my bed, staring up at the ceiling as a quiet breath left me.
Everything still felt… different but not in a way that scared me.In a way that made me feel like something had shifted.
Like I had stepped into something new without even realizing when it happened.My fingers moved absently against the sheets as my thoughts drifted again....Back to him.
The way he smiled this morning,The way he looked at me like I mattered.Like I was something worth being careful with and My lips curved softly.
“…my love,” I murmured under my breath, the name still feeling new, still feeling a little shy on my tongue and yet…Right.
I turned slightly onto my side, pulling the blanket closer around me even though I wasn’t cold, just… holding onto something.
A moment I wasn’t ready to let go of yet.
And as my eyes slowly drifted shut for just a second.....Everything felt…..Okay.