Chapter 18: I Still Love You

Chapter 18: I Still Love You
“Personal matters... those are all personal matters. And we talked about this before” He spoke in a much lower voice.
“What sort of husband keeps too much of personal matters from his wife? We don’t even sleep together. Who do you sleep with? What kind of shitty life are you hiding from me? Jalan? You said you want a fresh start umm? I bet you’re not really sure of what you’re demanding from me” She lashed out with hot temper.
Jalan turned himself to face her “Do you have any idea what kind of business I do?”
“You never told me. All this money... You never told me where it comes from. You only call it business”
“I do drugs”
“No... I don’t believe that. You just don’t want to explain”
“See? It will be hard for you to accept me if you find out about my horrible past. You will… Leave me” He croaked in a shaky voice that made Anna’s heart to instantly feel stung. He looked so tanned and vulnerable at the moment and coupled with the redness in his eyes, he looked somehow scared.
Does she matter that much to him? She kept quiet and slowly crawled her fingers into his hand. Her heart feels heavy like its going to fall out now that she sees the man she loves having a mental breakdown “Its time... Jalan. Free yourself from that horrible past” She sealed more of the space between them and put her hands on each side of his face “Hey...Look at me”
He brought the redness in his baby brown eyes to meet with her eyes. “I wish I can do that... But I am not that much of a courageous man Anna” Her name came out so heavy on his lips “The past will tear us apart. I won’t be taking that risk now even though I can’t keep it away from you forever. Your memory will eventually come back to you soon”
“As long as you do not turn out to be the killer of my parents, I can forgive your past. I just want you to be a normal husband. You loved me when you married me don’t you?”
“I still love you now”
“Then show me your love. Jalan. I can’t keep on surviving like this. I don’t even have the guts to cheat on you outside”
Jalan caught hold of her waist and pulled her closer “Actually, that just leads to a question bothering me for a long time. I learned that you keep on meeting with this one pizza guy and you got drunk with him last two to three weeks back at a bar and you two… kissed. My men saw that... you can’t try to deny it but I just want to know who initiated that kiss…”
Anna felt a little panic and blood flow crawling under her skin “Errmm... That was... an accident. W-we were both drunk and... it was him who... s-started it. I... I... made a mistake hanging out with him that day” Her voice stammered “We were... s-supposed to be friends... nothing going on between us”

“Hmmm... And you like it huh? I bet the kiss was so good to the point that you had no idea when my men took photos of you”
“I was drunk. You should understand those kind of situations. Besides, who knows what you do behind my back... over there in that Vanuatu” She threw the accusations to him.
“I don’t have any mistress or woman. I’m not interested in any other woman. I want you alone”
“Are you serious? You’ve always avoided me. This is the first time you’re actually telling me you want me. Its been like more than eight months since you last slept in my room. You can’t tell me you didn’t cheat on me in those eight to nine months. You’re not like a monk or something for me to believe that”
“I did... once. I was also drunk like you when it all happened”
Anna felt like smacking those mouth of his. Is he intentionally rubbing it on her face to get back on her for kissing Robin? It was an accident, and Robin had apologized. How sure is she that Jalan has not hit on different women... not even one? “Whatever. Let’s just say we both made a mistake. And it won’t ever happen again. Right?”
He shook his head lightly to signify a ‘Yes’.
She suddenly feels like a little maniac now that she sat very close to him and he has one of his hand around her waist. Maybe she could try doing something to punish him for cheating on her. Maybe she should make him crave for her tonight.
“Ouch... My heart” She quickly dropped her hand on her left chest and lightly stroke it while Jalan panicked and hold her close to his body “Are you feeling pain? Are you sick?” His eyes traveled to the spot where she was holding.
Anna stifled a small evil chuckle in such a way that Jalan wouldn’t see it. “Help me... Something stings me around here” She rolled up her shirt to expose her two plump and natural endowments secured under a purple bra “I think its not inside my heart but on the surface”
She watched Jalan’s eyes staring at her right there _ where she wants his attention and she slowly pulled his hand and placed it right where she falsely claimed to feel the stinging “Here... I feel the stinging here” A little sly whisper came through her lips and then she quivered when his hand cupped her softly.
“You’re trying to seduce me isn’t it?” She heard him asked and she brought her gaze to him with an “Umhmmm... Yeah... so now I got busted”
A little crease was revealed at both edges of his mouth and she could tell he was trying to hold back a laugh “That was very much unnecessary you know” He rolled down her shirt but she quickly grabbed his collar before he could turn himself away. She felt his body stiffened in her grip before she moved in and softly kissed his bottom lip. His breath was strong and flowing heavily and she giggled with a much more menacing thoughts on her mind. She felt his lips parting for her and his hand traveled up to her chest and stroke her right there. Heat was emanating from his body while she lowered her hand down to his chest and below but he at once, let out a groan and shove her hand away.
Suddenly, she break away from the kiss and looked him in the eye “How good was that? Am I not better than the last dessert you had?” She whispered with a chuckle before she pulled out of his hold to stand upright “I think I need to pee”
She saw a frustrated look on his face before he turned and started staring at his bookshelf “Yeah... Well... Do what you want” He blurted out the words at once.
Anna swung her hips in her leggings as she felt his eyes falling on her behind before she walked out of his room and allowed him to feel the frustrations she felt for so long while she was waiting for his return.