Chapter 37
After leaving the Greer family, I felt like I couldn't breathe.
I sat in the car for a long time, looking at the scene in front of me, remembering how my mother used to bring me here to play when she was alive.
Now I'm the only one left.
What Arabella did today was just trying to trick some money out of me. She knew for sure that I would care about my mother's things.
And Chase—what right does he have to expect me to whisper in Levi's ear? How can he be so shameless as to ask me to help him?
Back then, my mother used the Ember family's manpower, resources, and money to help him start his company and supported his smooth rise to success. Once he got rich, he forgot who he was and brought another woman to hurt us.
I will never forget this for the rest of my life.
I don't know how I drove home. I was in a daze the whole way, and I have no idea if I broke any traffic rules.
I feel so sad, so exhausted.
I just want to hide alone in a corner.
After getting home, Indigo asked me a few questions, and I brushed him off with some random answers.
I grabbed two bottles from Levi's wine cabinet and went to my secret hideout.
No one will find me here. I can cry my heart out alone.
Levi's wine is really strong. One sip and my throat was burning. I coughed a few times, then mixed with tears, took another sip...
I kept drinking one gulp after another while talking to myself...
I feel so lonely. All these years, I've worked hard to make myself better, tried hard to escape the misfortune of my family background, but why have those nightmares suddenly come back?
They remind me that I don't have a mother anymore, that I'm an orphan with no one to love me.
I remember when Aiden first found me, he cried seeing how pitiful I was. He asked me why I didn't go to him.
But my grandfather passed away early, too. Without any sense of security, I didn't know who I could rely on.
Aiden said he was good friends with my grandfather, and both emotionally and logically, he had to protect me. He paid for my education, supported me in choosing what I liked, and even saw my feelings for Levi.
Later, he made the decision to have Levi marry me. At the time, everyone thought Levi would marry a well-matched heiress from another family.
The past is vivid in my mind. Suddenly, I feel that my so-called sense of security isn't secure at all. Feelings are incredibly fragile.
Like my mother and father. Like how, as soon as Jessa came back, Levi could disregard my feelings and be with her.
"Blair, you're such a failure..."
I lifted the bottle and poured it down my throat. Alcohol really is a good thing—it can numb you temporarily, make you feel warm.
Gradually, my consciousness started to blur. When Levi came, I thought I was dreaming.
He held me on the sofa and touched my forehead.
"Are you okay?"
I smiled at him. "Yeah, I must be dreaming, right?"
This is my secret hideout. Levi doesn't even know about it, so I must be dreaming. At this time, he should be at the office.
"You've had too much to drink. I'll have them make some soup."
I grabbed him. "Don't go. I haven't had too much. Since it's all a dream anyway, can't you just stay with me for a while?"
I got bold with the alcohol. It's just a dream anyway. Levi doesn't lose anything, and it doesn't waste his time.
He looked at me and sat back down.
"That's right. So obedient. Good boy. I promise I won't hit you."
Levi took out a handkerchief from his pocket and wiped the wine from my mouth.
"Thank you. I didn't expect you to be so thoughtful. Dreams are so much better—not like how you usually have that cold face all the time."
His eyes darkened, and he looked down.
I poked his chest. "What, you're unhappy after just a couple of comments? You say so much to me all the time, and I never get mad at you."
"Levi, you just take advantage of the fact that I like you and bully me..."
As I said this, my nose tingled, and tears burst out. Thinking of all the little things Levi has done to me, I felt so wronged.
I love him wholeheartedly, but he's always like a block of ice that won't warm up.
"I haven't."
"Yes, you have!"
I crawled forward and leaned on his shoulder.
"You even brought Jessa home. She's your unforgettable girl, and I'm just your secret wife. Who even knows who Blair is..."
"Haha, you probably don't want to admit I'm your wife either..."
I hugged Levi's neck, resting my chin on his shoulder. "Levi, do you know? I've liked you for so long, so long. I think I fell for you the first time I saw you... hehe..."
I thought it was all a dream, so I rambled on. Actually, these are all my true feelings. I've never had a chance to tell him, and I never planned to reveal the secret in my heart.
"They bullied me again. I have nothing left, but they still won't leave me alone..."
"Ugh, mmm..."
My stomach churned. I felt nauseous. I covered my mouth, turned around, and fell off the sofa...
Levi instinctively tried to catch me, but my head had already hit the table hard.
"That hurts..."
My eyes were unfocused. Why does it hurt so much even in a dream?
Levi picked me up. My head rested on his arm. I stared blankly at the only small window, where there seemed to be sunlight outside.
"Levi, this really is a beautiful dream. If only it could stop here, how nice that would be..."
I tugged at his arm. "You should go. I need to wake up. It wouldn't be good if Celestia came home from school and saw me like this."
"I had her go to the Morgan mansion first."
A smile appeared on my lips. "Hey, even if she doesn't come home, you'll still go home. You'd probably be disgusted seeing Blair drunk."
I covered my face with both hands. "The Levi outside my dream doesn't like me at all."
I couldn't control my tears at all. I cried and cried until I was exhausted. Everything went dark. I couldn't find Levi anymore, couldn't even sense myself.
Levi picked me up. On the way, the autumn wind brushed against my cheeks. I felt very comfortable, with a strange sense of security.
"Mr. Morgan, has Mrs. Morgan had too much to drink?"
Indigo followed alongside, worried.
I closed my eyes and smiled. "Indigo, you're in my dream, too. This is fun..."
"Mrs. Morgan, I'll go make you some soup."
"Go buy some glucose instead."
Levi sounded helpless. I was too drunk.
"No need, no need. It's just a dream. You don't need to really take care of me. I'll be fine when I wake up." I thought they were taking my dream too seriously.
Indigo's sigh made me laugh. They all seemed so concerned about me.
"Blair, you really had a good dream."
I silently marveled to myself. In all these years, I've never had such a wonderful dream. It makes me happy in an unreal way, yet I accept the warmth it brings me.
"Levi, you have to come to my dreams more often from now on..."