your lover betrays you
As soon as we entered the foyer Chase growled in my ear, “I'm sleeping next to you tonight. And I don’t promise anything.”
“we both know you're gonna pass out as soon as you hit a comfy spot.” I replied
“not if you keep me up”
“I won’t don’t worry. I'm not going to take advantage of you in a tequila mind.”
“mila!” he yelled out to her and she stumbled towards him.
“she won’t take advantage of me mila, tell her to.” He whined to her, she looked back at me and him in shock
“how could you not, look at that face val. Look at it” she dramatically said, and Chase made his best wide eyed cute face.
“ugh please just fuck and get it over with” Anderson yelled
“yeah! My man” Chase agreed
I just shook my head and went into the kitchen to prepare their coffee spoons. After hitting the bed chase went to sleep as I had predicted. Everyone was off to bed. I sat in the same bedroom next to chase’s adorable sleepy face. He smiled while sleeping but knowing him he’s probably thinking about his killings and nothing cute like puppies. I snapped a picture of him and smiled at my phone.
After brushing in the connected bathroom, I changed into Mila’s loose t-shirt and shorts. I texted the guard outside and got an all clear then texted a few people here and there who owed us money, just casually sending death threats and a deadline, added those deadlines to my shared calendar with dad. I played slow songs on a low volume and passed out.
Chase woke me up by snaking an arm around my stomach and burring his face in my shoulder.
“good morning” he whispered in my ear and I swear it woke something else up in me.
I looked back at him and he looked fresh as a daisy, the fuck.
“why do you look so happy” I said my throat feeling scratchy
“I'm a morning person” he replied, “and tomorrow I get to see you in action, so I'm extra happy.”
Oh I wish I was getting some action. I smiled at him, “yeah I'm excited for that too”
“I'll give the update about her over lunch, you can come to mine for that” he said casually
“you mean enter enemy territory, hmm okay sure.” I sarcastically replied with a smirk and he looked at me with a playful smile
“I promise not to bite, unless you beg” he said
“oh I don’t beg”
“for me you will” with every word we were inching towards each other, my heart beating like crazy. Just fuck me already Chase. The words were in my mind.
“what would you do if I asked you to fuck me right now.” I said leaning in closer. Maybe it was all the alcohol that was in my vicinity last night or the primitive need to just fuck. I needed him today to know me before he get to know the other side of me. To know me completely. To know my mind and body. To know when to stop me. I needed a release from the thoughts about him that consumed me to focus on what we had to do.
“I won't” he replied and my face fell before I could control it.
“why” I asked as he leaned away from me and stared.
“you want me to fuck you because you want me to know you before I know the psychoanalytical part of you but I want exactly the opposite.”
“you want to know my instinct before my soul?” I said in words only we would understand, he nodded and couldn’t look away.
“and I want you to beg for it” he said and laughed after I threw a playful glare his way.
I got up and put my head on his chest, for the first time I could hear his heart beating. Fast just like mine.
"What the fuck" Vince yelled.
After a silent hungover breakfast Vince and Payton went into a room to talk.
"Why are you yelling bro" Payton said calmly
"What do you mean why am I yelling are you daft" he yelled louder
"Bro, like calm down I did nothing wrong" she replied, still calm. Wow.
We were currently in Mila’s foyer crouched down with our ears pressed to one of the attached bedroom’s door, only mila and I participating in this Chase and Anderson wanted to give them privacy. Eye roll. Payton and Vince were having a whole ass fight about Eric. She was dancing or more like twerking on him for a few songs, my poor gay best friend and Vince couldn't do anything to him cause he knows Eric is my friend and he can't start a war. I swear these gang to gang rules are so strict. Unless someone has been killed you can't retaliate.
Vince was very close though.
"I think we better give them privacy" Chase said for the 3rd time standing next to me.
Mila and I both shushed him