Chapter 4
The room itself was magnificent with a massive,four-poster bedthat was made for two big men,and maybe a girl,too.They led meto a chair,and settled me gently in its lush cushions.My drinkstill gripped in one hand,both men kissed my free fingers,then moved to the bed.
It was all surreal,and I felt strange,not to mention the alcohol was taking full effect.Through lowered eyelids,I watched as Charlie and Justin kissed,his light to Justin’s slender dark,making a lovely combination.
They were so tender with each other,as long time lovers became after many years together,I assumed.I could feel the love between them,and the underlying lust.The haze of alcohol wasn’t so heavy that I couldn’t appreciate the wealth of affection between these men.I was honored to share in such an intimate moment.
Slowly,they stripped each other bare,lingering touches and caresses proclaiming the desire they felt for each other.Justin lowered himself to his knees before Charlie.With his hand as a guide on his head,Charlie moved Justin in position and tapped his mouth with that broad,thick cock.
In spite of my misgivings,I salivated at the sight of them,thinking that nothing I’d ever dreamed of or seen in porn videos or read in erotica could ever match this.I watched as Justin took Charlie’s cock all the way down his throat and swallowed.His eyes worshipped Charlie from where he knelt.Justin pulled off and then took Charlie’s cock all the way back down again.
Over and over he did this,drawing sexy groans from Charlie as he brought the man close,then backed off too many times to count.Soon,Charlie had enough.He placed both hands on Justin’s head and forced him to take his cock as hard and fast as he could,fucking his lover’s throat without mercy.
When Charlie came,his face was a fierce grimace,stark in its passion.I felt moisture in my loins but refused to do anything about it.Not yet.
Charlie pulled Justin to his feet,and they kissed,a passionate taking that was urgent,yet loving.Charlie fisted Justin’s cock,which was hard and leaking.With both hands on his throbbing rod,Charlie pumped his lover in a fast,firm rhythm,Justin’s hips jerking in time and soon he came too,moaning into Charlie’s mouth when release overtook him.
Spent,both men leaned against each other,cocks wet and half-hard,still slick with seed.My mouth watered.I wanted tolick them both clean,memorize their flavor,and worship at their feet.But maybe that was the alcohol talking.And now,my insecurities started to creep back in.
These men had picked up on the need I’d tried hard to hide from anyone but myself.The fact that it was possible for me to have my fantasy in real life was all of a sudden too much.The reality of it…I wasn’t ready.
Suddenly,I sat upright in my chair,horrified at myself.What the fuck was I doing in this bedroom,with two men I barely knew,never mind the fact that I’d already had a tryst with oneof them,and just been witness to the most sensual lovemaking I’d ever seen?
I was out of my mind,and too tipsy to think straight.I set my glass clumsily aside,and stood on unsteady feet.Charlie and Justin were still making out,but I had to go.Right now.It was too much.
I left their room as fast as my rubbery legs could take me.I thought I heard a voice calling my name,but I couldn’t stay.It was time to go.I stumbled down the staircase and made my way out the front door.
Trevor was at the limo,leaning against the door.He looked up at my haste and addressed me with concern.“Everything okay,Ms.Cross?”
Trying to keep my wits about me,I replied,“I’d like to go home,Trevor.Please?”He ushered me into the back seat without another word and once settled,I gave him my address.
It was time to put an end to all this wishing and hoping.Who wasI kidding?I was just an average chick who,when faced with the reality of my desires,couldn’t handle it.I needed to get a life.
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Work the rest of the week was mundane.I took care of my usual clients,but I was in a daze.My experience with Charlie and Justin—no more fantasies here,at least I could admit that to myself—the reality of my desires for men like them,and especially those two men,had shaken me to the core.
When I’d arrived home that night,I’d deleted all the gay porn on my computer,and stashed all my male on male erotica on an external drive which I’d locked away in the back of my closet.
I felt dirty and ashamed.It was one thing to fantasize and think myself mildly kinky.It was another to find out that I really was into sex with two men.And to put myself in an unfamiliar situation with men I barely knew?Unconscionable.So I focused on work and tried to find a way to cope.
I finished giving Mrs.Rodriguez her monthly trim,then sent her on her way.I looked at the clock.It was almost six in the evening on a Saturday,and I knew that the salon would be closing in half an hour.I cleaned my station as usual,hoping that I wouldn’t have another client so close to quitting time,when I heard a throat clear behind me.
I looked over my shoulder and gasped.It was Justin and Charlie.They were as beautiful as ever,light and dark,the perfect foil for each other.I turned back to what I was doing,gathering my thoughts and trying to calm my pulse.
Finally,I took a deep breath and turned to face them.“You guys here for a haircut?”
Justin answered,“Actually,we were wondering if we could takeyou out to dinner.Kind of an apology,let’s start from the beginning,olive branch kind of meal.Would that be okay?”
As much as I wanted to,I couldn’t.“I don’t think that’s a good idea,guys.I appreciate your concern,and apology accepted,but there’s no need to…”I ran a hand through my hair and threw a comb in a tray.“Look,I’ve got to go.”To hell with it.I pushed between the men and headed for the lockerroom where I kept my personal belongings,not caring that I was leaving early.I just wanted to go home and curl up under the covers.
I grabbed my hand bag and headed out of the building,intent on the railway station a few blocks away.I heard footsteps behindme,but it was crowded on the sidewalk,so it could have been anyone.
“Angie,wait!”I knew that voice.I stopped and turned against the tide of people intent on catching the train.I moved out of the way of the surging mass and waited for Charlie to catch up with me.Justin wasn’t too far behind.
“What do you want,Charlie?”I asked,tired from a long day and the thoughts that had been running around in my head all week.
“Can we talk,the three of us?”Justin had joined us and was slightly out of breath.
“What about?”I asked,arms crossed below my breasts.
“You think there’s something wrong with you,right?That whatyou feel,what you desire is,maybe,unnatural or perverted.AmI getting warm?”
I couldn’t look him in the eye,so I stared out into the street.
“Angie,look at me,”Charlie coaxed,reaching out a hand to turn my chin so I would face him,head on.
I took a deep breath and stared him in the eye.“I’ve had these…feelings,these fantasies,for years.It was all fun andkinky and my own private thing,and then,you and Justin came along to make things real.I just don’t know how to take that.Am I crazy?”I wrapped my arms around myself to try to still the trembling that wracked my body.
“Why don’t we talk about it over coffee?”Justin suggested.“Someplace neutral,wherever you’d be comfortable.Would that work?”
I considered it for a minute.Maybe it was worth the effort.I mean,who else was I going to talk to about something like this?Slowly,I nodded.“Okay.There’s a coffee place a couple blocks from here.”
“Java Joe’s?”Justin asked.
“That’s the one,”I replied.
“Great,”Charles said.“Why don’t we head over there now?”
I looked at both men,then wordlessly led the way to the cafe.