Chapter 12

I jumped out of bed when I heard a knock from the door of my room. I realized to myself that it was just a dream and I just held my breath. I immediately got up and walked towards the door to open it.Martha appeared in front of me with food placed on a silver tray. She greeted me and tried to smile while we looked at each other.But even if she didn't say it, I could see the sadness in her eyes. I could also see in her eyes that she was crying. I took her to my room and she put the food on my small table.

"Martha, do you have a problem?" I asked her.

“Problem? I have no problem,"she said but obviously she was lying.

"It's obvious in your eyes even if you don't say it. If you want someone to talk to, I'm here to listen to you," I said to her with a smile.

"I'm fine, Crema. Thank you,"she tried to smile and went out the door.

I took a breath and suddenly I remembered Daisy from her. Daisy was happy and chatty in front of us. She was telling stories and sharing with us the good things that happened throughout her day. But sometimes I would see her thinking deeply and sometimes even crying. But she just laughs at me and jokes about everything. I miss her so much that I can't help but remember her especially since she and Martha are the same height.

After I ate I took a shower and got dressed. I fixed myself because I thought of going out of my room first and walking around inside the castle. I looked at my whole body for a while. I put on lipstick and combed my hair.

When I left my room, I walked down the corridor to the wide room of the castle. I met many wolves.They bowed and greeted me as if they were treating me as their Luna. I passed a room and I heard a familiar voice of a man and a woman. I slowly peeked inside and saw Aries and Martha talking. I saw Martha crying while she and Aries were talking. I heard her admit her feelings for Aries.

"Aries, I've loved you for a long time," Martha said emotionally.

"But I don't really love you, Martha. I don't want to force you because it will only hurt you more. Please forget whatever you feel for me," Aries begged her.

I felt so sorry for Martha from what I heard. I have no right to be mad with Aries because I know he just doesn't want to rely on Martha.He just doesn't want to depend on something that he can't give.

"Why, Aries? Do you like someone yet? Are you in love with someone else?" Martha asked him.

I swallowed my saliva when I heard it because I remembered Aries' confession to me when we were in the forest. Should I feel guilty because I know I'm the reason why Aries can't love Martha?

I want to hug and sympathize with Martha at those times. But I have to walk away first because I don't want them to know that I heard all their conversations, especially Aries. She should forget her feelings for me because I can never love a werewolf.A creature that killed my parents and none other than their Alpha. I quickly walked through the Corridor and thought of heading to the Tower. I also wanted to breathe in the cold air on a cold night. It was quiet around and everyone was resting. I knew Alpha Dior was also resting.

When I arrived at the Tower, I looked down and looked into the distance. I felt the cold air touching my skin. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes while thinking about Coach's Nieves and Daisy.

"I hope they are in good condition," I said to myself.

I heard footsteps behind me so I turned around immediately. I saw Martha and she immediately turned her back on me.But I stopped her so she stopped.

"Martha," I uttered.

"Like I said,you can tell me whatever your problem is. I'm ready to listen to you to make you feel better," I calmly told her.

She turned to me and quickly came closer. She immediately hugged me tightly and that's when the emotions she had been suppressing poured out. I felt pity for her because I'm a woman like her.But I can't control and dictate Aries.

I caressed her back to calm her down. I just let her cry until she released the burden in her heart.It was more than a minute before she let go of the hug.

"Have you ever loved a man, Crema?" he asked me.

I was not prepared for her question.I don't know why the man I hate suddenly entered my mind. But I turned my mind to my first childhood crush, Bryle. He was my classmate then but that was all.

After all, I have never really loved a man. I have never cried and been hurt like what happened to Martha and I am proud of that.

"Not yet. I'm not the type of woman who will chase after a man. I'm not the type of woman who falls in love easily, Martha. I'm also picky so in my whole life I've never had a boyfriend," I answered.

"Boyfriend?"she asked curiously. 

"Boyfriend as in Boyfriend, The man you love or have a relationship with," I explained.

"Like Mate?"she asked innocently.

"Yes! That's it," I answered with a smile.

I forgot that wolves prefer finding a mate instead of a boyfriend or Girlfriend.Martha confessed to me everything about her feelings for Aries.Unbeknownst to her, I heard everything she said to that man.

"You know all the girls here dream of Alpha Dior. I guess I'm the only one different from them because I only dream of a simple man.But why is that? Why can't he love me?"she asked emotionally.

"Maybe because we can't dictate a person's heart who they will love," I answered.

"But isn't love learned?Why doesn't he even give himself a chance to try?”she asked.

"That depends," I answered.

I think I'm running out of things to answer her.I heard her breathing deeply and we looked at each other.She looked at me with a serious look as if she wanted to ask me something else.I let her ask me one more question At least I could make her feel better. But I swallowed my saliva at her next question she asked me.