Chapter 39 On Your Knees
Rafe’s POV
I made my way down the dimly lit hallway toward the dorm room, my mind spinning with different thoughts all at once like a broken wheel as Kai’s words kept replaying in my head over and over again.
You have three days to give me what I need about Shawn, or I will burn your entire future to the ground.
The ultimatum sat in my chest like a lead weight, but worse…I couldn’t tell anyone about this. Not Derek, and definitely not Shawn. If even a whisper of my junior-year doping scandal got out, my career would be over before it truly began.
Just like that.
“Fuck!”
The word ripped out of me as I rubbed my face with both hands, trying to shake the nausea that had been sitting in my stomach since I left Kai’s apartment.
How the hell was I supposed to choose? Betray Shawn by feeding Kai confidential information about him… or watch my whole life collapse?
After what felt like a long journey, I finally reached the dorm room, my hands shaking as they gripped the doorknob to open. I just wanted to collapse on my bed, close my eyes, and pretend none of this was happening for a few hours.
The moment I pushed the door open and stepped inside, a strong hand grabbed the front of my hoodie and slammed me back against the wall.
“What the—!”
I gasped, my heart leaping into my throat.
Shawn.
He pinned me to the wall with his body, one massive hand beside my head. “Where the hell have you been?” He demanded, nothing funny about the tone of his voice. “I’ve been waiting for you all evening because you clearly disappeared after practice…and didn’t answer any of my texts.”
“I…I…uhmmm…”
I opened my mouth, to tell Shawn the entire truth about the kind of mess I was already involved too deeply in, but the words wouldn’t come. I couldn’t drag him into my mess.
“I… I was with Derek,” I lied, forcing the words out. “The new rookie who’s just been admitted here, remember? He’s my childhood friend so we’ve been catching up since he arrived. Lost track of time.”
For a moment, Shawn stood there. A flicker of jealousy crossed his face, sharp and immediate.
“Derek?” he repeated, pulling closer until his chest pressed against mine. “You’ve been with your best friend all evening instead of coming back to me? And I’ve been here missing you like crazy, Rafe…”
His voice dropped to a low, dangerous whisper, possessive and edged with hurt. “I thought we were past the bullshit. I thought you wanted this as much as I do.”
“I do,” I said quickly, my hands coming up to grip his waist. “It’s not like that, baby. Derek’s been my friend since we were kids, so we were just talking about old times…that’s—“
Before I could finish my words, Shawn leaned in, pressing his lips against mine without warning. His mouth claimed every inch of my tongue like he needed to remind both of us who I belonged to.
I kissed him back just as fiercely, my fingers fisting into his hair as I tried to let myself forget Kai’s ultimatum, even for just a few minutes. Shawn broke the kiss only to trail his lips down my neck, biting and sucking hard enough to leave marks.
His hands roamed possessively over my body, sliding under my shirt to grip my bare skin.
“You’re mine now,” he murmured against my throat, his voice already thick with lust as he sucked a fresh mark just below my jaw. “Don’t forget that.”
The possessive words sent a chill through me instantly, mixing with the guilt and fear still churning in my chest. I could feel my cock already throbbing painfully between us, desperately begging for more.
“Then prove it,” I shoot back, tilting my head back against the wall. “Get on your fucking knees and show me how much this cock belongs to you. Suck me like you own every fucking inch of me, Shawn…make this rookie moan your name until I forget anyone else ever touched me.”
Shawn obliged immediately, dropping to his knees right in front of me, his hands already working open my belt and zipper with impatient motions.
“Careful what you wish for, baby,” he growled, his hot breath ghosting over my leaking cock through my trousers. “Because I’m about to ruin you for anyone else.”
My trousers and boxers were shoved down in one rough motion, my cock springing free, already half-hard from the intensity of his kiss. Shawn looked up at me, his eyes already dark with lust.
“Let me remind you.”
I didn’t get a chance to react as he took me into his mouth—hot, wet, and devastatingly skilled. I gasped, my head falling back against the wall with a dull thud.
“Shawn…fuck—”
He sucked began to suck me in slow, devastating motions, throat relaxing as he took me to the hilt. The moan that tore out of me was loud and shameless as my hands flew to his hair, fingers tightening as he began to move — slow, deliberate bobs of his head that quickly turned hungry.
“Oh god… Shawn…” I moaned, my hips jerking forward without meaning to. “That feels…ahh… so good…”
He hummed around me, the vibration shooting straight through my cock. His tongue swirled around the head on every suck, then he took me deep again, swallowing until his nose pressed against my pelvis.
Wet, obscene sounds filled the entire dorm room, echoing loudly, so that I feared someone might barge in on us.
“Fuck…nngh…Shawn, don’t stop—” My voice cracked into a whimper. “Please… just like that…”
He pulled away slightly to look up at me through his lashes, those deep piercing blue eyes gleaming with satisfaction as he watched me fall apart. As if that snapped something inside him, he began to suck faster, one, hand stroking what his mouth couldn’t reach while the other gripped my thigh, pinning me in place.
I was far too gone now.
All of Kai’s threat, the secret, the guilt — it all dissolved under the relentless heat of Shawn’s mouth on my cock. All I could do was moan shamelessly, my hips jerking as the pleasure began to build higher and higher.
“Shawn…ahh…fuck, I’m so close—”
He didn’t pull away, instead, he took me even deeper, determined to push me over the edge completely.