Sakshi:
I slept on the balcony and I felt asharp pain on my shoulder. I opened my eyes and saw Randhir infront of me. I was scared of him remembering the last night torture.
"Get ready fast. You have to prepare break fast for me," Randhir said.
I tried to stand but unable to stand with the pain. My whole body ached very badly. But I have no one to hear my pain or to help me. Randhir, the one who loved me a lot is giving me this pain which is unbearable to me. I wiped my tears and tried to stand again.
"How much time do you need to stand up? I don't have all the day to wait for you," Randhir yelled at me.
"I ..I..am...unable...to...st....stan...stand..."
Randhir lifted me in his arms and dropped me in the washroom.
"Take a quick shower and come fast. You have only five minutes or you can't imagine what would I do to you," Randhir said. I took the shower as fast as I can and came out.
I took the embroidered sari which is on the shelf as I am a new bride.
"Do you want to attract anyone? I know that you love to attract people, but I won't allow you to do so because you are my wife now," said Randhir.
His words brought tears to me as I understood how cheap my character is to Randhir. However, I didn't dare to argue with him because if I open my mouth, the only answer I would receive is a slap from him to shut my mouth. Randhir threw a full length dress at my face which has full sleeves.
"Wear it. I know that you have grown up in money and that's the reason you became blind about relationships. So, from now you are going to lead a life which has no comforts. That will make you realize what you are and kills your pride," Randhir said.
I took the dress from his hands and went to change it.
Won't he forgive me ever? I don't know how long should I bear all this. His every word, his every act is killing me. I should change him. I should bring back my old Randhir in him who loves me a lot. But is it possible? Can I ever get that love back?
I wiped my tears and got ready. Randhir came to the room and saw me.
"Go and prepare the breakfast. You have no one to help here. You will be doing all the works in this house."
I was going to the kitchen and Randhir caught my wrist tightly at the place where he injured earlier and pulled me towards him. I screamed with pain. He caught my hairs.
"Look, When I say something you should answer me. I hate silence. Do you understand?"
"Okay. Please, leave me. It's hurting," I said.
"It's meant to hurt, my dear. I married you to torture you every second. I promise you that I will make tears your permanent companion. Now go and complete the work."
I nodded and walked calmly from there. I stood in the hall and Randhir came there.
"Why are you standing here like a statue without starting your work?"
"Where is the kitchen?" I said.
Randhir showed the way to the kitchen. I was in shock seeing the kitchen. It's totally a mess. I looked at him.
" Clean it, my beloved wife. Remember I want my whole house to be very clean and neat. Now clean it and prepare the breakfast. By the evening before I return, clean the entire house. If you don't complete the work I said by that time, you will die in my hands in the evening."
"I will do everything as you said."
I went to the kitchen and sighed seeing the dishes uncleaned. I washed everything and made the food for Randhir. He tasted it and threw it on the floor.
"Don't you know to do atleast one thing properly? I never saw a girl like you who doesn't know anything except to attract boys with her looks."
I clenched hearing his last words. Nowadays saying such words became common for him. I didn't understand how could he say such words that easily to a girl especially to his wife. However I know his attitude of respecting the women, and that's the quality which I liked in him the most when we were in love. He respects everyone except me. Because he thinks I don't deserve respect.
He went off to the office throwing the plate. I felt hungry as I didn't have anything from yesterday. I went and tasted the food.
The food tasted good. It means intentionally Randhir fired at me. After all, he doesn't need a reason to hurt me. He hurts me whenever he wants without any reason.
I remembered his words to clean the entire house. I had the breakfast fastly and started working. Until the evening, I worked continuously and cleaned everything. I felt tired and laid on the bed to rest. I don't know when I slept. I woke hearing a rude voice calling my name. I opened her eyes and saw Randhir.
He caught my hair making me to stand ul. I shouted with pain but of no use.
"How dare you to sleep without my permission? You should do everything only with my permission either it's sleeping or eating.
Get ready for the wedding party. We are leaving to the party now. Wear something which suits a new bride. Remember, you should behave there as my wife keeping up my respect. If you don't, you know well what I will do."
I nodded and got ready. He took me to the party by placing his hand over my waist. His nails pierced into my skin making me unable to bear. But I can't even shout or scream as we are in the party. He pulled me more closer and whispered in her ears.
"I gave you this pain to make you remember how to behave in the party. Don't show your old behaviour here."
I nodded controlling the tears. He made these tears my companion forever as he said. Whatever I do or don't, he would torture me to enjoy my tears. How could someone enjoy the tears of their beloved, if they truly love them? Are they blinded by their hatred or love is powerless before their hatred?