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ERIS' POV:-
My heart was drumming erratically inside my chest as I heard his concern. I blinked at him as the guilty look appeared on my face. “Why are you making this face?” Alpha Lucian asked me in a confused tone. I cursed under my breath as I knew that he had caught me.
“Because I have been throwing up a lot for the past week or so. I can't digest even simple food. Sometimes, I even throw up after drinking water.” With narrowed eyes, I finally told him that he had been right.
He had been asking me if I was okay. And I always told him that I was perfectly fine. And I was able to hide my puking problem up until I just passed out. The look on Alpha Lucian's face made me shiver in fear. I knew he was mad. And I knew that he was not going to forgive me that easily.
His face contoured won't anger almost instantly as he heard what had really happened to me. “You have been throwing up so much that you ended up in the hospital, that you for the past few days, maybe a week or so. Yet you didn't care to inform me?” Alpha Lucian was literally growling at me angrily. For some reason, his anger and him screaming at me, triggered something inside of me. I was not afraid of him because I knew he would never hurt me. But I was extremely sad that I had started crying.
I was sobbing quietly at first but then I couldn't control myself. “Hey, Eris! Are you crying?” Alpha Lucian asked me in a low tone. As if his anger had suddenly subsided and he was taken aback as he watched me crying. He stood up from his chair and tried to hug me.
I didn't even know why I was suddenly so furious at him. I pushed him away from me. “Why are you screaming at me? You are being mean toward me.” I whimpered between my sobs. I was wiping my tears but they just wouldn't stop pouring. As if someone turned on a faucet behind my eyes.
It angered me more when he chuckled at me. He tried to wrap his arms around me but I pushed him away again. “Don't touch me. Don't come near me. You are so mean.” I whimpered in between my sobs. Alpha Lucian laid down beside me on the bed and caged me in his arms.
I wanted to push him away again but his scent… his intoxicating scent reached my nostrils. I buried my face in the crock of his neck and inhaled as deeply as I could, filling my lungs with his intoxicating scent.
His scent helped me calm down. And I was no longer sad. I felt a lot better. The mood swings didn't make any sense. I never had gone through the heat. My womb was messed up by Alpha Maximus way before my age when I was supposed to get my heart for the first time.
Alpha Lucian pulled away from me after a few minutes. “Now we are all calmed and relaxed. What just happened to you a minute ago?” Alpha Lucian whispered softly in my ear. He placed a soft kiss on my forehead. His lips lingered on my forehead and I sighed. To be honest, I had no idea what was happening to me. I was all moody and behaving like a spoiled brat with him a minute ago.
I never behaved that way ever before. Well, I never had anyone who would be ready to spoil me. Aside from the fact that to him I was a strong woman, he still liked to pamper me and spoil me whenever he got the chance. Breathing heavily, I wrapped my arms around his torso without caring for the IVs that were attached to my hand.
I pushed myself more into his body, as if I wanted to crawl into his skin and be part of him. “What is going on, Eris? Baby, are you feeling alright? I am starting to worry about you. You never have mood swings like this before.” Alpha Lucian's concerned voice rang in my ear.
I was suddenly sad again. I buried my face in his chest and started sobbing. I was about to apologize to him for everything I did. And answer his question that I had no idea what was happening to me.
“Her mood swings, her behavior, her heart! There is nothing to worry about, Alpha. She is perfectly fine. In fact, it's good news.” Harald whispered as he walked into the room we were in. Alpha Lucian tried to pull away from me. But I was suddenly so scared to let him go. I tightened my hold around him.
Alpha Lucian also tightened his hold around me and pulled me closer to his chest, if there was any way of me getting closer to him anymore. “What do you mean? What good news?” Alpha Lucian asked Harald in a confused tone. My heart was drumming erratically against my rib cage.
I was scared half to death. That's why I didn't want to let him go. I was never afraid of death. But then he came into my life, and I started to like living my life. And I wanted to live. I wanted to live with him for a little longer. I was so scared that I failed to hear what Harald was actually saying.
I closed my eyes tightly and tried to focus on Alpha Lucian's heartbeat. It always calmed me down. I knew it would calm me down in that situation as well.
“Congratulations, Alpha. Beta Eris is pregnant.” That's when I was able to hear him right. I opened my eyes and turned my face to look at Harald. My heart nearly stopped inside my chest.
“What did you just say?” I asked in a surprised tone. I couldn't believe my ears.
“You are pregnant, Beta Eris. The puking, dehydration, not wanting to eat anything, and the mood swings, are all the signs of your pregnancy. And the tests just confirmed that you are pregnant.” Harald replied to my question in a low tone.
I licked my lips as I was suddenly feeling emotional. “But how is that even possible? Don't prank me this way. It's the cruellest if it's a prank. I can't have babies because my womb was destroyed way before I could ever get my heat.” With tears in my eyes, I asked Harald the question that was squeezing my heart.
For days, my womb was literally burning and bleeding for days. And when they decided to take me to the hospital, my womb had completely melted inside my belly. That's what the healers told me when I woke up. And it was proven right through years. When no one ever wore condoms when they were fucking me. Because everyone knew that my womb was gone and I couldn't conceive. What could be better for perverts but to have a prostitute who couldn't make babies. For them, I was a free prostitute they could use as they pleased.
I burned my face in Alpha Lucian's chest again. My heart ached the moment someone told me that I was pregnant. “Someone without a soul could be this cruel to prank a pure hearted woman this way. But you can read the test results, Beta. You Are pregnant.” Harald whispered in a low tone. He stepped toward the bed and handed my results to Alpha Lucian.
I was breathing heavily as Alpha Lucian was reading my test results. He looked at me with a huge smile on his face. “He is not joking, baby. You are pregnant. See it for yourself.” Alpha Lucian whispered softly as he sat up on the bed. I ended up sitting on his lap. I took the file from him and started reading it. I read it again and again and again. But the word pregnant didn't disappear from the results.
I slapped my face a few times then read the results again. It seemed like I was not in a dream. It was reality. I covered my mouth with both of my hands and started sobbing quietly in Alpha Lucian's arms. “Please, give us some privacy.” Alpha Lucian whispered to Harald.
Harald nodded his head and walked away, closing the door of the room we were in. Alpha Lucian turned me around until I was facing him. I leaned against his chest and let my tears pour. I was not sad, they were not the tears of pain. I was feeling utterly happy. They were my happy tears.
“Hey! You know I can't see tears in your eyes. Talk to me. I know there is something bothering you.” Alpha Lucian whispered softly in my ear as he pulled me to his chest and started stroking my hair gently. Who the hell knew, he could be this gentle with someone like me.
I placed a soft kiss on his cheek because I was grateful for being with him. “I was a sensitive girl. Growing up, the only love I had ever received was from Samael. Or I thought it was love. My grandma was the only one in my family who really cared about my existence.” I started telling him the feelings behind the story I had told him a few months ago.
“I always thought when I find my Mae, I will ask him to give me lots of babies. Because I wanted a family who would love me. Because before that, I never really had a family.” I couldn't control my sobs by then . Alpha Lucian grabbed the glass from the side table and offered me some water. I took a sip since I was only allowed to take a sip or two because of the IVs.
That one sip was able to help me calm down a little. I looked up until I meet his golden gaze. “The day I found out that I could never conceive, everything inside me shattered that day. Samael knew how badly I wanted to have children. But he didn't even console me.” Tears were flowing freely from my eyes as I told him about that hard time.
Back then, I was all alone in the whole world. No one even tried to wipe my tears back then. “Do you know, I was so done with my life and my fate, I tried to kill myself almost every single day. Samael had to stay at the dungeon just to make sure I wouldn't harm myself. I wasn't even allowed to shower without his presence in the bathroom. Because I once banged my head against the faucet until I passed out.” Alpha Lucian was quietly listening to everything I was telling him.
His hold around my waist tightened up. He pulled my face toward his neck and placed a soft kiss on my forehead just to make me feel better. And then I started feeling something wet on my face.
When I looked back at him, I found him crying as he might have felt my pain. “You are the bravest woman I have ever seen in my life. If only I could erase everything dark and painful from your past, baby.” Alpha Lucian whispered softly in my ear as he started peppering wet kisses all over my face.
I giggled as I heard him. I didn't know if it was because of the mood swings or because of the kind words he spoke to me. I cupped his face with both of my hands and pecked his lips.
It shocked him for a second. “I am glad you came to take revenge over the Coltsons. You didn't just free me that night, but just now, you have given me a new hope. You have given me a baby. I can have the family I so badly always wanted. So thank you, Alpha. Thank you so much for being in my life.” I whimpered softly while staring into his eyes. He smiled gently as he heard me. He kissed my forehead again and pulled me to his chest.