SUZIE
“Hey hey… shhhh… it's alright! Everything is going to be fine.” Monty whispered to my ear as he cradled me in his arms.
“Dad won't let you live if he finds you. You can just run away. Why are you even here?” I tried to ask, but the hiccups almost made it impossible for me to speak.
Monty pinched my chin lightly and guided my face up, so I could gaze into his eyes that were filled with tears. It was the very first time I was seeing him cry. The cold hearted man I had known for all my life, was all mushy and teary. It was a sight to admire but at the same time, I was concerned about him and everything.
“I thought I would do that. I thought I hated you when you told me that it was all an act. That you never loved me. But the truth is, I couldn't hate you, no matter how hard I tried. I tried so hard to hate you. But then, I heard you cry when I left the dead fetus with you. And that's when all that built up hatred was gone.” He whispered as the tears rolled down his cheeks.
He cupped my face with both of his hands and pecked my lips gently. “I know what I am about to do. Your soul isn't the only one with the burden of destruction on it. My soul is tinted with blood too. I was the reason why boss didn't believe his wife.” My throat tightened as I listened to him.
I was shaking. I didn't know what got into me. Or maybe, I was wrong all along. Maybe I did fall in love with him but back then, I was too arrogant to accept the truth that my heart was screaming at me. “For years, I had protected you but not anymore. I can't do this anymore. I can't keep carrying that burden. Especially not after I had found out that she lost her ability to carry children because of the lies we told to her husband.” He was stuttering the whole time as he tried to explain his reasons.
“Why would you confess to me and then tell me that you are about to go on a suicide mission? Why would you do that to me? Isn't everything enough? Without you, I'd be lonely again.” I cried and buried my face in the crock of his neck.
He didn't push me away and I was glad about it. Instead, he wrapped his arms around me tightly then kissed my forehead. “That's why, I want to leave you with my child. A reason, for you to keep on going with your life. I wanted you to hate me. But I didn't want to leave you all on your own. So I… I decided to come back. I'm sorry.” That apology of his made my heart tremble with fear. I never thought I would feel that way for the man who was constantly torturing me.
“I don't want you gone. Please…” I begged. He finally made me look up at him again.
“Someone has to bear the burden and the consequences. So the other one can live.” He whispered softly against my lips then kissed me again. In that kiss, he finally poured all of his love. Reminding me of all of h
is promises.