Chapter 62 Over
A single tear rolled down my cheek. I couldn’t believe it. I stayed where I stood as more thoughts came rushing through my mind.
Carlos still didn’t notice I was standing there. How would he? He’s so busy talking about me that my presence doesn’t matter to him anymore. I’ve gotten him what he had been wanting. He got the Ore code now.
As I thought about it, I started to wonder if he lied about everything. Not just the accident, the Ore code, but his love for me.
He doesn’t actually love me like he said he does because if he did, I don’t think it would be so easy for him to say this.
I can’t believe I was so stupid. I actually thought that he loved me. Carlos played me and it’s all my fault because I let him.
I fucking did.
I wanted to walk up to him, slap him across the face, and make it clear that he messed up and that I will never forgive him, but I know doing that would be a waste of time. He clearly doesn’t care and even if I did tell him, what’s gonna change? My heart will still be broken, I will still be a mess and he will still get away with the things that he’s done.
I turned around and started walking away. My heart is racing heavily and my eyes are welling up with tears. I still can’t believe it. I can’t believe I fell in love with a man who was using me.
I guess people were right about him. He has no heart.
I didn’t walk too far until he noticed me. "Nala, wait," He said.
For some reason, I waited. I know I shouldn’t but I did and I don’t even know why.
When he walked up to me, his eyes melted at the sight of tears on my face. He reached over to wipe it but I quickly pulled back from him. “No!" I said.
His face twisted. He looked confused for a second but then realization dawned on him "You heard?"
"What do you think?" I crossed my arms above my chest.
He sighed heartily. “It’s not what it seems like."
"It is what it seems like," I said, I wasn’t going to be fooled by his words. A single tear rolled down my cheek. I didn’t want to cry but the thought of being betrayed is so hard to endure that I can’t help it.
I turned to leave again but he grabbed my hand, pulling me back to him. "Nala, please wait."
I quickly tugged away. "Don’t you dare touch me," I yelled. "You don’t get to do that anymore."
He stood back, looking slightly shocked but at the same time worried. I didn’t want to say anything but I just couldn’t hold it back. My heart is in so much pain.
"Why did you have to hurt me like this?" I asked, my voice suddenly breaking. "You could have just told me what you wanted. You could have just continued being the mean man that you are but you didn’t. You made me fall in love with you. You made me think that a man like you can be in love with a woman like me." I said. I was hardly holding it together. My heart was in so much pain and with each word I said, my heart sank.
I added more. "You made me believe in a love that never truly existed."
Carlos didn’t say anything. Of course, he didn’t. He has no words. After everything that he did, I am sure that there was no way he could possibly justify his actions or make amends for the way he treated me.
"I knew it. You have no words to justify your actions. It was all a plan after all. You didn’t want me. You never did. You just wanted to use me and there you have it. You did, so congratulations on your achievement."
"Nala, it’s not like that," He said quietly.
"Oh really? Then what is it like because I don’t seem to understand you. You told me that you loved me. You told me you care about me and I believed you." I said, crying. I don’t even know why I’m asking him this. It doesn’t make sense anymore, especially because he actually doesn’t care.
"Nala, please let’s not talk about this right now, it’s dangerous." He reached closer but I stepped back immediately.
"What is dangerous? My family!" I yelled.
He goes silent once again.
"You’re trying to turn me against my family. They are good people and nothing like you. You said that they want me to get the Ore code but they’ve always known where it was. They knew everything and the only person who didn’t was you. You are the one using me for the Ore code and you planned all of this, didn’t you?"
He doesn’t respond. This time, his silence made me upset.
"God, what is wrong with you, Carlos? Why did you do this? Why did you do all of this? You painted my family as the enemy when you are the enemy." I crumbled to the floor, sobbing. I couldn’t contain the pain and anger.
I had thought I found the right person but clearly I didn’t. He hurt me more than anyone.
Carlos kneeled next to me. He whispered, "I’m sorry."
His words felt like a dig. It didn’t make me feel better, it only made me upset. I pushed him away as I stood up.
"I hate you." I lied. I had to say that to convince myself that even after everything he’s done to me, I hate him, not love him.
I started walking away from him and suddenly I felt a sharp pain in my stomach. I looked down only to see blood all over my shirt. Someone had shot me.
The pain increased as I lost more blood. I crumbled on the floor, the last thing I saw was Carlos rushing to me.