We leave the hotel and get into his car, a navy blue Dodge Dart, and yes he did open the door for me, then we’re off for a night of dinner and dancing. I look out the window at all the different stores and restaurants and everything looks much different at night. “It’s so beautiful.” I whisper as I keep watching and trying not to miss anything. “Yes you definitely are beautiful.” I hear him say before I feel his hand on my thigh gently rubbing back and forth but not in a sexual way though, it had more of a calming effect. God I really love this man. I look at him and smile as we turn a corner and he pulls into a parking spot. The place is nice and quaint with a romantic atmosphere. As we get out of the car, he wraps an arm around my waist and we walk into the building where he talks to the hostess who I notice can’t seem to keep from ogling my man and I just smile. I mean who can blame her for looking when the specimen is Jameson Reaper. I don’t mind women looking at him because I’m not insecure. He’s mine and we love each other so I’m not worried plus he doesn’t entertain their advances especially the ones that are so bold as to ask if he’s seeing anyone while I’m around. It has been one day with him and I’ve already had to deal with that but I let him handle it and he handled the situations very well with dignity and class. That’s my man and I’m proud to be his woman.
She leads us to a quiet table by the window and hands us menus asking for our drink orders. I order a glass of red wine and he orders the same then we just begin to talk about anything and everything while we try to decide what to eat.
“Baby are you excited to be going back to work next week?” He takes a sip of his wine as he looks into my eyes.
“I was until I came out here to see you. Now I may never want to leave.” He smiles and I smile back while sipping my wine.
“You know that I would love to have you with me baby but only if that is what you want. Would that make you happy?” I thought about that for a second and the waitress appeared asking if we were ready or needed more time though she mostly focused on him. I decided to go ahead and speak up.
“Yes we’re ready. I will have the broccoli and cheese stuffed baked chicken wrapped in bacon with loaded mashed potatoes and he’ll have the same with a chef salad and corn on the side for both please. Thank you.” He just looked at me and smiled then handed her the menus and said “Thank you” before turning his attention back to me. Before she walked off I said, “It’s his eyes. I know the hazel color is attractive especially when the light hits them and they change color but try not to stare at my fiance because he hates it and so do I.” She just nodded and walked off saying she’ll have our food brought out as soon as possible. I took a sip of my wine knowing he was staring at me.
“What?” I ask innocently with a sly grin. I know exactly what I did but so what, I was tired of them staring at him like he’s an exotic animal at the zoo.
“You don’t play innocent with me because we both know exactly what you did. And I’m your fiance now? When did that happen?” He smiles at me so I know that he isn’t mad but he also has a curious look in his eyes.
“You became my fiance when they wouldn’t stop staring at you and talking like I’m not here. I was getting tired of being treated like I can’t get a handsome man like you or something. Uppity bitches.” I took a big swallow of my wine that almost finished off the glass then looked out of the window at the people and cars passing. Suddenly I feel him grab both of my hands and kiss each of my palms then the backs and sighs.
“Baby why didn’t you tell me that you felt that way? You are my Queen and the most beautiful woman in the world. Don’t ever let others make you feel like you’re less than that because you are so much more than you know inside and out.”
“I’m so sorry baby. I hope I didn’t ruin our night. I’ve been dealing with this all my life basically so I don’t know why I even let them bother me. Normally I wouldn’t even care about things like this but with you everything feels different and I can’t explain it but it is very different. I miss you more than I’ve ever missed anyone and you can just be gone for a few minutes. I’m not used to feeling this way. ”
“It’s our love baby. I feel the same way about you but we’ll be alright. If things keep going great and it turns out that we are really meant to be together then distance will no longer be a problem because one of us will move to where the other lives or move to a mutual place of our choice and live together.” He takes a sip of his wine before saying the next part but looks me directly in my eyes. “Hopefully even marriage and children will be a discussion during that time period. I’d love to have two children and get married one day in the future.” At that statement I know he could see the sadness come over my features as I take a sip of my own wine and signal for the waiter to pour me another glass, then at the last minute I just tell her to leave the bottle. I take another sip and then look up at him and see the worry on his face. This is going to be difficult to say and our day was going so well. Clearing my throat and taking another sip of my wine I begin talking.
“Baby all of that sounds wonderful and I am really hoping that this turns out to be a happily ever after for both of us but there is something that I should tell you so that you know everything. I don’t want this to come up again later and have you angry at me for not telling you sooner. Plus it would be better to do it now before anyone’s feelings go any deeper than they already are now.” I watch him to see how he’s taking what I’ve said and so far he doesn’t seem like he’s going to run away, so I keep going.
“I have a condition called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome or PCOS for short and it has caused me to have certain problems and one can be infertility or difficulty trying to conceive or carry to term. The surgeries I had were because of cysts that they found. They removed them and fixed what they could but the scarring will possibly be a problem with trying to get pregnant. I don’t want you to waste your time on a woman that possibly can’t give you what you want.” I drink more of my wine, not able to meet his eyes and then the waitress walks over with our food and sets the plates down in front of us telling us “I hope you enjoy your meal” before asking if we need anything else and then leaving when we say that we’re okay for now. When I finally do look up he’s looking straight at me with those gorgeous eyes of his and my heart beats faster waiting to hear what he’s going to say next. Will he tell me that we should end it now or is he going to wait until dinner is over to let me know that he’s leaving me? He says nothing for what seems like forever then he grabs my hands and bows his head and begins to say grace over our food and right when I think he’s finished he says an extra prayer asking God to allow us to have children if that’s his will and my heart swells even more with love for this man. My heart is screaming that he is definitely the one. We both say “Amen” and then we start to eat and he says nothing else my entire visit about children.
We ate our food and talked about life, work, the weather, and anything else that came to mind and when we were done he paid the bill and then said he was taking me dancing. I was kind of worried because I’m not a clubbing kind of woman but he ended up taking me to a place down the street that had a dance floor and played all kinds of music. It was a bar type of place but more upscale. I absolutely enjoyed myself and I believe he did too. We didn’t dance when we first arrived. He ordered us some drinks and we talked and laughed then he asked me to dance when a slow song came on and it was really nice. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I put mine around his neck and we slow danced just letting the music take over our bodies. He felt so good up against me and it didn’t feel sexual. It felt like I was a puzzle and he was the missing piece that completed me. Every inch of our bodies just melded together like we were one and it felt amazing.