Chapter 19

Cassia’s pov

Hadrian stood like a mountain before me, his heated eyes not leaving mine,what’s he thinking about?, why is he glaring?, what’s he doing to do?he walked closer to me, completely stupefying my sense of reasoning, as I stared frozen at him, his surprising aura clogs, the closer he was, the higher the pace of my heart, till he was just a step away.

“Cassia” he said, his voices hoarse and demanding, his eyes took a quick stroll to the man seated beside me, he brow bumped together in a scowl,his eyes burning with hatred, for a moment I could sense his wolf clutching for release, just then he pulls my hands, pulling me to my feet, his hands tightened against my wrist, so much it hurts, “ Hadrian” I called out, but he gave no reply, his eyes were still fixed on Diego, it wasn’t just a look between two mutual people it was that of enemies.

The sudden sense fault and guilt deluded me, who is he?, who was I talking to?, why does Hadrian look at him that way?, Hadrian pulls me into the castle, not leaving my hands till we were back inside the room, his hands forks his hair once more as he paced back and forth, I have no idea if he was angered or sad anymore but either way I was the reason, “ I am sorry” I said, in an audible whispers, he pauses then looks at me.

“Come here” he opens his hands pulling me in for a hug, just like I have wanted for a while now I let eyes pour it’s content, till there was none left, “ my position as alpha is under trial, if I agree to get married to you” he said, and just like that it stroke me hard, his sacrifice, that’s what he’s hiding from me?, engulfed by the overwhelming feeling of guilt my heart stutters, “oh Hadrian” his hands hold me back holding me from pulling away.

“You didn’t have to”

I tried pulling out again but he didn't budge, “ I am sorry for the way I acted I didn’t_” he sush me immediately, gently placing kissing on my hair, “ it doesn’t mean anything cassia Diego is just a mere wolf, I will win in any physical battle, and his father knows that so well” the mention of a familiar name made me stagger, diego wasn’t a guard or soldier he wasn’t a friend of Hadrian either he was his rival, and he knew fully well before approaching me, how stupid of me.

my heart thuds even faster, so that’s who he is?, guilt finds its way back to my heart maybe just maybe things would be better if I was just out of his life, if I didn’t bring my ill luck along, or made him feel like he was responsible for taking care of me, maybe just maybe everything would be as it always were

“ No one gets to talk about you, not even them” he said, my mind whirled around his words, “ what did they say about me?” I asked, “ nothing” he replies almost immediately, arousing suspicion, “ the curse?”, my suspicion were on its peak, as he broke our hug, he doesn’t say anything, I knew everyone knew about the curse, no one just knows cassia without the knowledge of my misfortunes, so why wouldn’t he just say it.

“ it’s all my fault, I knew Ariel was right, maybe I don’t deserve it” .

“ don’t say that, we complete each other, we serve each other” he walks toward me holding me by my chin, gently syncing his lips with mine, he mesmerizes me once more, it’s been so long felt the closer, so much rush of emotion, the urge to contend with my wolf each time he is this close to me, the foreign feeling always burning down my cheek, I would do anything to feel this way forever.

“We complete each other” he whispered between our kiss, his voices dances in my mind, playing a card for my intrusive thought, I hear alisia voices in my head, immediately bringing the feeling of disgust and irritation, what if she was right?, what if he wants to use me and probably get rid of me?Does he really love me?Hadrian pulls me by my chin again leaning for a kiss but I pull away immediately, confusion settles in his face as he says, “ what is it?”.

, and they don’t know what it feels like” he said, holding my to his thighs, looking at his eyes, “ we were made for each other,same fault “ he said,

“ Is it true that being mated to me breaks your curse?” I asked, he slams his eyes shut, then bugs them at me “ where did you hear that from?” he asked, his reaction told me all I needed to know, it was true, and Alicia could be lying about a lot of things but this very detail was correct, pulling away from him, I close my lid with my fingers enough tears for the day, no more tears, but it hurts so much it’s hard to control, “cassia not again” he pulls me back to his body submerging me in his scent, “ is it true?” I said,he exhaled deeply, “ yes cassia and I only found out when I saw you I wasn’t aware from the start”.

A huge part of me hoped he said it was all a lie, that he wanted me here because he liked me, and all for the sole purpose of love,not whatever reasons it may be , but once again I feel used and rejected, it all comes crashing everything comes crashing all at once, what if all this were just a facade? , what if I break his curse and he leaves me, he no longer wants to keep me around and she wins, she finally gets him to herself, what if he behaves like everyone out there seeing me as a girl with no better use than to serve and be told what to do?.

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“Cassia ” he tries pulling my hands but all it does it was infuriated me, so I took to my heels one more time with no specific place in my mind, I just needed to unleash everything, my mind for hazy I wanted to scream so bad but it feels like I had lost my voice, my legs felt an irresistible itch to run, just like I always do when I feel pressured, I run till I feel only the sound of my heart beat, maybe I will find myself in an attire universe a place where no one knows me, so where’s I could reside on without being stigmatized, a place where I could only be seen as cassia and nothing more.

Taking to my feet, I run as fast as my legs could carry me, while trying to control the tears spilling down my eyes and mucuses blocking my nostrils, looking behind me was Hadrian, he was catching up real fast, if he continues in his pace he won’t let me go, but I don’t stop there, I kept running down the hallway till he finally gets a hold of me, “ let me go Hadrian, you are just like the rest of them!” I scream pushing him away, I wasn’t expecting him to be so easy but he lets me go.

Staring at him, I could tell how badly he was hurt by what I just said, but it doesn’t matter to me anymore, I will be ending this now.