I did trust him even though I tried pushing it back and refused to accept it. And perhaps it was a mistake, but he made it hard not to. He made it hard not to care. He made it hard to keep distance.. To stay away. And it all ended with me giving in. Once again.. ~ Everyone walked around the room, making some last preparations for the great spell.. I was just there to act impulsively and join in when Christian least expected it. Amelia knew, and Calliope knew. Well, Amelia still thought that I wanted to just help out, and Calliope knew my real motive. I mean, both of them knowing was enough.. Christian couldn't possibly get angry with me for doing my own choices for myself. However, I still chose not to tell him because I knew he was going to try and stop me. I didn't see him differently after what Calliope told me. I still didn't think she was right with the whole thing about him seeing me as something more than just a lost girl that he needed information from. Perhaps once the Adam guy was killed after this spell, the deal was gonna break. Vampires were like that. Once they had what they wanted they disappeared. And I suppose that's why I wanted distance with him. I think I was more angry with myself for allowing a night like that.. A night with him. And even more angry that I was actually still left breathless with how good it was. I glanced at him from across the room. He had his arms crossed over his chest and was listening what his brother was telling him.. I was still lost with the thought of that night.. Perhaps because I just seem to want more. He glanced back at me, still nodding his head to Dimitri, and I instantly looked away. God, how could I think that?! It was already enough that I was trusting the enemy.. At least what I was taught that they were.. Yes it was insanely good, but I could control myself. I mean, before Calliope walked in my room, he was the one that kissed me. And it was a moment, just like the one on the roof, but it didn't mean anything.. Did it? I exhaled slightly, leaning back on the head of the couch. I just had to talk it through with him. It is that damn simple. "Ready?" I heard Calliope's voice and it was enough to jump start my heart again as I instantly stood up. Too suddenly perhaps because I felt slightly dizzy as I walked towards them. Christian gave me an odd look, because what he knew was that I was not included in the spell at all. And I wasn't. I just wanted to join in and see if something was going to happen again. If it did, it meant that the chances of Amelia being someone from my father's blood line were bigger, and of course of him actually sending her there because he knew where I was.. If it didn't, then it was a technical mistake the other night.. Calliope and Amelia were holding the necklace between their both hands as Christian and Dimitri joined and formed a small circle. I stood on the side, having Amelia right beside me. She gave me a small nod as they were getting ready to start the spell.. The candles were lighted and everything.. Perhaps I just had to wait and see what happens. "Mora Vantis Quo Incandis, per Vasa Quo Errum Signos" The girls closed their eyes and started the spell as I looked at Christian. Him and Dimitri were just there to give energy. I was there to join in after a second. Once I saw Christian closed his eyes, probably as the spell already started working, I glanced at Calliope seeing her nod slightly. I put my hand right over Amelia's, where both of them were holding the necklace. "Mora Vantis Quo Incandis, per Vasa Quo Errum Signos" And so there was that same effect. That sudden control over my senses, making me feel like every little drop of energy was being sucked out of me.. It was not a feeling where your senses went numb. It was something else.. Something way greater and stronger. It wasn't like that other night.. It was harsher, demanding more and more energy.. It seemed like I was thrown floating in some endless space, and every single sense went mute. I felt my heart skip a beat, and right after that, there was this cold air just wash over me.. My senses were coming alive in a certainly odd way. I could no longer hear Amelia and Calliope saying the spell.. His voices muted and faded and.. I heard something else.. Something that had me confused and completely pushed off track. It was a baby's cry. Faded at first, but with each second, it only got louder. I could feel my muscles tensing, but I couldn't pay attention to reality.. Was this reality? Before me, a sudden brightness showed and a picture seemed to be reflected before me.. A woman holding a baby was sitting on a bed and smiling down. The rest of the room was a blur except for a very familiar figure beside her. A familiar figure and a not so changed face. My father. I seemed like I was watching some twisted reality happen, but I couldn't reach out for it. It's like I was there, but it wasn't.. It wasn't real. It was as if it was someone's past.. His past. My dad's hair was different, and the woman holding the baby wasn't my mom. It seemed like I was observing from the side, completely lost on what was happening. On the baby's blanket, there was a name but I only saw the first two letters. 'Am-'. I wanted to get closer, to hear what they were saying, but I didn't have to. The voice got louder. "I already told you.." My heart seemed to fasten up.. That was my dad's voice.. It was him. But why was I seeing this? Why was it echoing in my head like a past memory? What the hell was going on? He looked down at the baby, then back at the woman. She seemed awfully tired and exhausted. "You gotta leave now, Jessica. It's the only way I'll know that you and our daughter will be safe." I found myself frowning, and my lips parted in order to say something, but nothing came out. It's like the spell still held me in place and was showing me these visions in my head. But no matter how blurred the image seemed, the woman was definitely not my mother. Jessica..? And why did he say his daughter? Who was that baby? I could feel like the air was colder and colder with each second, piercing through my lungs. "Do what you have to, alright? Just get away. I promise I'll find you and Amelia when the war is over." Jessica nodded her head at him and seemed eager to stand up from the edge of the bed.