Chapter XLIX-4

And I never thought I would have the kind of necessity for his yells, for his advises, for his protection.. But I needed all of that more than ever. I had no tears, yes, but no one had a clue just how much I missed him. "I won't be able to live if something ever happens to you.." She whispered and caressed my hair, held me close and pulled away just to look at me.. She was holding my face and searching my eyes like she was trying to take in my features.. Like it was the last time she would.. And I hated that she seemed like she was saying goodbye. But I understood her worry.. When she kissed my forehead, I knew I already had her prayers.. I knew I had her trust and that it was only her motherly worry and love that made it seem like she was trying to have that moment carve in her brain. She believed in me. She knew me, and knew it was that wish for revenge that would keep me safe, because it made me that determined and focused.. Just like she was when she wanted something.. "It won't." I managed to nod my head and assure her. "It all ends tonight." ~ Christian's POV It was not alright.. The things she said.. The things she was determined to do.. I heard it all. I heard her conversation with her mother.. I suppose she forgot I could even from the outside.. And I didn't feel even a bit of regret because damn me, but I had to make sure she wouldn't do anything as stupid as sacrificing herself for the sake of others.. I knew she was willing to. I knew what family meant for her. I knew what love meant for her. She was willing to fight everything and everyone if it meant saving those she loved.. Especially those that hurt her. And she loved me. She had the kind of love I never thought existed. Blind and boundless. The kind I thought only I could truly feel. But it was her too that was so willing to do whatever it took to have that love survive. With boldness and certainty.. Fully determined to go till the end and not stop until that end was there.. Until the end of Adam was there, while the rest were safe. It was this war that I warned of.. The true war was not between us and the wolves, as I had a senseless affection towards one.. Towards the very leader of them. No, the true war was caused individually, by those that tried destroying us, and it was in our nature to ruin them without thinking.. I had her in the car now, beside me.. I had her sitting there in silence, almost like she was still hesitating whether or not she did the right thing.. Whether or not telling her mother was the right step.. I kept my eyes on the road. "What is it, love? You seem awfully distracted." "I-" I heard her sigh, glanced at her just to see her lean back on the seat and close her eyes for a second. "I'm just worried if everything will go as planned. I don't think my mother will find peace until it's all over." I took her hand in mine.. It was small and gentle, so delicate that I often felt insane for ever trusting those hands could be stained of blood. When I told her this, she made sure to let me know just the things she was willing to do when it came to the safety of those she loved. I didn't doubt in that. I simply feared she loved too strongly.. "I heard the things your told her.." I knew she looked at me, so I glanced back at those eyes of emerald as well. "Lana, I won't have you willing to die for me." She released a heavy breath again.. Closed her eyes. I pulled the car over, on the side of the road, and heard her voice again. "Christian, we spoke of this, please-" "I agreed to the plan, I agreed on letting you in that damned house as a bate.." That simple thought disturbed me in the most fucked up ways.. "But I won't allow any harm to come your way, you hear me?" With my hand over her chin, I turned her head so those eye would meet mine again, and hell, that was my true distraction. "Be aware of this." She searched my face in ways that had me wishing her in such moments, it was insanity to even think of it.. But with lips as full and as ripe as hers, parting before she spoke, eyes wide, fearless, filled with determination and fierce.. It blurred my thoughts in ways that had me focusing on that sudden burn of a yearning rather than the words said.. I could no longer remember the reason why or how I could resist her that previous night. "You have to promise me you'll respect the plan too.. It is the only way this will work." Of course, it was the simple thought of that plan that had me snap back to realty effortlessly and cause the kind of panic I wish she couldn't see.. "I'll do what I have to do.." Because I feared for her life, it was as simple as that. And hell, there wasn't a feeling worst than that. "There are no plans in such situations. If I see any of those witches near you, I'll rip their hearts out of their bodies and I won't blink about it.." It was the only explanation I had.. The only truth there was. "And if I get the chance to kill Adam, I'll do it." "We just can't have them predict it." She shook her head slightly with that thought. "They may had expected an attack right after they killed my father, but the situation has cooled down now.. They won't ever think I'd go there.." And it almost seemed like she was re-listening to herself, reassuring herself that it would all end just fine. "I'll do my best to make it seem like it just another one fo those hallucinations." The mention of those damned mind games they dared playing with her had me wishing to drive right then, to that dark hole that was once a house, pull that bastard out and rip his heart out until it was tired of growing back in.. It was simply impossible to kill a true-blooded, and I needed all the held from witches I could get to do so.. I just had to make sure Lana was safe first, and I was determined to do so more than I was of respecting that plan.. I simply had to have her closer.. To lean closer and feel that intoxicating scent flood my senses.. To feel those lips brush against mine and resist ravishing them with mine. Good lords, she didn't have a clue just how much I loved her.. I would be damned if I let her run into the fire and not stop her.. Not save her.. But I still promised. "It will all end tonight one way or another. I promise you that." Because I too was putting an end to all those that harmed her in any way, and not even her could stop that..