"Okay, I don't know why he's trying to get to you specifically. Something is connecting you.." He released a slow frustrated breath, frowning and shaking his head slightly. "I don't get it though.. Amelia is the one we would've guessed he would be after.. I mean he was obsessed with her." "Well I have a habit of somewhat getting all the psychopaths to chase after me." Alexander that is.. Not that he was chasing after me.. But after my whole family instead. He looked at me. "Hey, I'm chasing after you and I'm not,-" He stopped for a second, keeping that ironic tone and that smirk still stretching his lips. "Well not fully a psychopath." I couldn't help the smile on my lips. I leaned closer until I could feel his warm breath near the side of my face from the way I turned my head slightly. "I wasn't talking about you." I looked at him, watching how seriousness slowly dominated his face as he searched my face, almost seeming completely distracted from reality so suddenly. "And you didn't chase after me. You basically kidnapped me." "And I'll do it again if I have to." I felt his lips brush over mine when I turned my head slightly, but I wanted a to see him teased before giving in again.. We were making it all too easy. There should be a little more fun and games. "Well, I'll always be your willing kidnap victim." ~ I couldn't stop thinking about it.. I just couldn't. It had been a few hours since I heard the full story, and it was adding up.. I mean I tried, I really did.. I tried finding excused that Adam wouldn't have any reasons to find any connection with me, but the certainty in Christian's voice had me completely focus on that. God, what if I was alone? What happens then? If it was really that man playing mind games with me, through whatever way, then what if it gets to me? I was scared to even think how someone that was put down two years ago could find the strength to do something like.. And I shouldn't be so surprised. I was staying in the house of one of them.. A vampire. One of the most powerful ones too. And on top of everything, Christian was someone that I cared about deeply. That I trusted completely.. That I couldn't have fully. It was all mixing in my head.. There were too many problems.. Too many damn things going on. My family was being completely hypnotized by that bastard Alexander that dared to act like a dominant figure around me. Then Christian apparently kidnapped me from my own parents and now I had two packs on my back to deal with because they were looking for me.. On top of everything, Alexander probably even knew where I was because the attack that happened only a few nights back was definitely by some of his people too. And now he had the necklace that was supposed to kill the man that was mind-haunting me and that ruined everything two years ago for Christian. And of course there was the thing with Amelia and I seeing that vision.. That stupid vision that was messing with my head. My father refused to tell me.. He refused to get confronted and admit the truth.. If it was the truth? How could I know? How could I solve all of that so quickly? Like it wasn't enough, I was falling way too deeply for a man that I was supposed to hate from the very beginning, yet I trusted with my life.. He was my father's enemy and I was taking the wrong side. I knew how disappointed they would be when they find out that I was there willingly, that I was helping Christian and on top of everything that I was involved with Christian. Romantically? Yea, we both agreed that that was not going to come out, but if it did.. Oh Christ, if it did, it would easily mean new war. And I was not ready for that. Honestly, I had no clue what either of us were trying to prove. I said we were friends, he said we were more.. I said we were with benefits, and we both agreed on staying on that? Right? There was just one problem.. I was starting to have trouble separating my caring.. My real feelings from those that I promised. Right, friends cared for each other so that was alright. But maybe I cared too much.. And I hated causing more troubles and problems when we were already drowning in all that.. So I had to keep my mouth shut. I had to stay quiet. No, I couldn't stop wondering why.. Why both of us were just going back for more. It was supposed to all end when we agreed that our deal was off. But he got outrageously furious at Alexander's words, snapped his neck and then within minutes we were back at the beginning. It was supposed to only be lust.. Only our bodies. Or perhaps we had both lost our minds and were now seeking for something more.. The same feast bringing us back. My actions were no longer followed or approved by my brain.. I just seemed to do something and then wonder how.. Why.. Why I couldn't stop myself around him.. And now there I was, looking for him and desperate for a talk. It had only been an hour. He went for a run and I stayed in the house finishing up the sketch of the necklace and spent the time trying to figure out why Alexander would want it.. But then Christian came home and all of my thoughts disappeared. He went to take a shower and half an hour later, there I was, pushing the door open to the room, and completely desperate to see him.. Talk to him.. Just completely lost in that need to see his face, to feel that he was there, to let him hold me and tell me that it was going to be alright, because it was only him I trusted, and only him that could sooth me. There was no denying anymore. "Christian?" But the second I pushed the door open and walked in, I saw him at his desk, going through a drawer, papers on the bed and some on the floor too.. From the way he was searching the drawer, he seemed panicked or just eager to find something.. I frowned, walking closer. "What are you doing?" "I can't find the guest book." He mumbled without stopping his search, closing that drawer and going for the next one. "The guest book?" "Yes, that's a notebook where the names of all the regular guests were written." "I know what a guest book is." I almost interrupted him, watching him dig through that other drawer as well. Okay, let me put it this way.. "Why do you need it?"