Chapter 47
Bill solved the problem for him. Bill began talking about his divorce. “Like I told you at the party, my ex and I were having trouble getting pregnant with our second kid. It was more that I was less and less interested in sex with her than anything else. I accidently left one of the gay sites I visited regularly minimized on the computer, and she found it. She went snooping around and discovered the messages I’d sent to guys arranging to meet. Man, you shoulda seen her blow. I can’t blame her though. I was cheating on her. Anyway, after the dust settled and I swept up the broken china, we decided to call it quits. Was that what happened with you and your wife? Did she find out about you, too?”
“No,” Dan said, relieved that at least he knew now where Bill stood. “Like I told you, we split because we couldn’t have kids, and it was my fault.” He went on to tell Bill about his low sperm count and lack of sperm motility.
“So it wasn’t because you’re gay! Shit, it was because of a physical problem? I really misread that one. I guess I just outed myself to you then. Sorry! I’ve been coming on to you because I thought you were…” Bill turned slightly pink.
“It’s okay,” Dan said, briefly considering letting Bill’s assumption he was straight stand. It gave Dan a way out of the situation. But Bill was just too hot, and horniness and loneliness were great motivators. Bill’s blushing at his thinking he’d made a mistake only added to his attractiveness.
“We divorced because Christine wanted biological children which I couldn’t give her. I didn’t fully realize I was gay until after the divorce.”
“You’re shittin’ me,” Bill said, looking both amazed and relieved.
“No. I’d always suspected I was, but I never acted on it. If we’d been able to have kids we’d probably still be married, and I’d still be wondering what these strange feelings about men meant.”
“Well, I’m glad…uh…not that you and your wife had trouble having kids, but I’m glad my gaydar isn’t outta whack. I was sure I got vibes from you.”
Dan wasn’t sure he knew what Bill meant by gaydar, and it was unsettling to think he was sending out gay vibes. However, now that the cat was out of the bag, he felt a great sense of relief, as well as a strong surge of testosterone. His dick plumped.
Bill went on, “I guess all that’s left to decide now is whether it’s pass or play?”
Dan smiled, remembering his encounter with Calvin. This time, however, he stretched his leg out under the table, rubbed it against Bill’s, and said, “Play!”
* * * *
Dan lay with his back to Bill, who was spooned against him. His even breathing told Dan that Bill was asleep. Dan couldn’t sleep, however. He lay on his side, staring without seeing at the digital clock on the bedside table.
Dan wasn’t capricious by nature, yet he seemed to be becoming the poster child for the gay love at first sight movement. He’d just had mind-blowing sex with another man, and before either of them climaxed Dan had decided he loved Bill.
As Dan lay watching the blinking light ticking away the seconds of the night, he wondered what was wrong with him that he gave his heart to every man he slept with. He wanted to find a partner, a long-term, committed relationship, and all he’d done was have a series of brief encounters that hadn’t ended well.
He rationalized it wasn’t really his fault. He’d made it clear he wasn’t looking for casual sex; the men had agreed that was their goal as well. But in every case that’s what it ended up being—a brief relationship based on sex.
Bill stirred. Dan took a deep breath and let the night replay in his mind. They could have gone to Bill’s as it was closer to the bar, but decided to go to Dan’s as he needed to take care of the dogs. He could have called Julee for help as he sometimes did, and to say he’d had an emergency call, but he didn’t have his truck. If he had to come home to get it, he could have just as well taken care of the dogs himself. So going there was the best plan.
It hadn’t taken them long to divest themselves of their clothing and get into bed. Dan had thoroughly enjoyed exploring every inch of Bill’s muscular body, lightly covered with hair, as well as his ample manhood. Bill had professed, then proved, to have superior kissing skills and also excelled in using his oral talents in other regions of Dan’s body.