The Tears

The Tears

I watched the mother wailing but i did not care, going towards Mika and picking her up as i made eye contact with Beth. “I do hope you are able to sleep at night, knowing you caused this for yourself.” i said, a small smirk on my face before i walked out of the room.
I nodded to the guard as i walked out the room. “No!!!” her voice trembling as she screamed.
”My Lord..” i did not answer her “Darius!!!” she screamed, making my joints to lock in place for a moment before I continued walking. “i was a fool, but don’t let that…” she was silenced by the slicing of the sword.
“I’ll be merciful enough to let that torment you for a while. After which, you can decide whether you want to end it yourself, or if i should” i looked at her one more time “i really wished it did not end like this though. Greet them for me” i said. Looking at the the dead bodies before leaving.
I focused my attention on Mika. Her pale eyes making me take in a deep gulp.
“Mika?” i called softly, hoping that i would not startle her in case she was sleeping even though deep down, i knew that she had passed out. “Mika please wake up” i muttered, more to myself.
I brushed my hair out of her face, just lost with how calm she was looking.
“my Lord?” the doctor called quietly.
I turned to look at him, waiting for him to say something, anything but he just looked at me with a sad look on his face.
“we would need to remove the orb from her” i went still, looking at him like he had grown an extra head or something.
“why?” the word no hanging at the tip of my tongue, waiting to slip out. Removing the orb from her is basically removing a part of me from her.
“my lord” he called, his voice full of pity as though he was trying to reason with a small child. “you know that the orb is meant to only be paired with the semen. Her child from the other man…” i felt my knuckles tighten as he said that, trying to remind myself that it was in the past.
“… we know the consequences…”
“get to the fucking point!” i snapped, tired of him beating around the bush.
“her body is already fighting the orb as it is. Having your baby was meant to neutralize that effect” he said, looking at her softly before letting out a sigh. “it is going to cause a tumor that would be more difficult to manage if not taken out now” i looked back at her.
“is that….” i held on to her tightly, filling like shit. “is that why she is not waking up now?” my voice was low. Looking at where my hand met with hers.
“the effect of Limbo as well as the tumor must have been overpowering for her. So it might be a probable reason.”
“i did this to her” i bit the inside of my lips, clutching tightly to her cold hands. I waited, squeezing it a few more times in hopes that she she would squeeze back, but it never happened.
If i had not raped her and forced the orb inside her, none of this would have happened.
“i fucking did this to her” i did not even bother to hide the tears, looking at him as though waiting for him to give me the solution to this mess i had created, but instead, his eyes widened as he saw my tears, looking at me like he was going to be sentenced to death or something.
He bowed his head, “i would give you your much needed space now, your majesty” he said, his voice sounding panicked as he rushed out of the room before i could even stop him.
I sighed, letting my shoulders rest for a bit as i threw my head back. “fuck” i tried to bit back the sobs. Suddenly, i was that sixteen year old boy again after the death of my parents with nowhere to hide and no one to lean on. But this time? I caused it. I caused the loneliness.
I stood up from the chair, walking towards the door, before i looked back.
Studying her features like she was going to disappear the second i took my eyes away from her.
I walked out of the room, going to look for the doctors. I walked up to the group of them, all of them trying to signal to the guy to shut up while glancing up at me every second.
“let’s do it” i said from behind the guy, having no strength in my to put the guy in his place. I watched as he freezed up, turning to look at me slowly before he locked eyes with me
“M-my l-lO-Rd” he was practically shitting himself at this point.
“let’s do it” i said again “would it be painful for her? Would she experience any discomfort?” he tried to put himself together, putting on a serious face.
“i would ensure that the procedure is as painless as possible, she should experience discomfort for at least 3 days maximum” he said, not daring to maintain eye contact with me.
I let out a sigh, nodding my head as my hand automatically found it’s way to my hair “it’s good enough”
“l would start as soon as you approve-”
“Now” i said, cutting him off.
He blinked, looking at me. “sir?”
“carry it out now, the sooner, the better” he went pale.
“but the conditions”
“as long as she is not dying or going to have any complications, i can live with whatever.” i said, trying to calm the tension.
“B-But my lord. Her heat would stop to work when the orb leaves as it has blended partially. You would have to sacrifice a part of your heart to-”
“do it” i said, cutting him off. He blinked, looking at me with wide eyes.
“my lord…”