XLIV *NOT EDITED*
Karma
Adrenalin continues to flow through my veins as I try and calm myself down internally, breath Karma, in through your nose out through your mouth, everythings going to be fine I repeat. But I can feel my hands and knee's shaking uncontrolably no matter how much I try to stop them, my eyes move from the window to Gio and Vin who are talking amongst themselves as Iggy moves from his seat to the seat in front fo me, "Are you good?' He asks carefully looking me up and down. I nod my head and look out the window again as the bright neon lights of New York City begin to fade in the distance.
"Can we not tell anyone else about what was said today?" I ask looking at him out of the corner of my eye, he nods his head not taking his focus off of me, "I'm so sorry-" He begins but I cut him off "You don't need to be, it's in the past. There's nothing anyone can do about it Igloo trust me, I've tried, time to move forward".
He stares at me for a few seconds as if he's contemplating something, soon enough he takes a deep breath and rubs his hands over his face before leaning forward and pulling me into his embrace, I watch as Vin tenses up as soon as Iggy touches me but I give him a look, dumbass, he's giving me a hug not blowing my back out infront of you, Vincenzo relaxes slightly but still watches the both of us while he talks to Gio, big fucking baby. Iggy doesn't say a word he just holds me tightly and it's exactly what I needed, his hugs feel like a therpay appointment if im honest.
Part of me wants to start crying me eyes out while he just holds me but the other part knows to keep the tears in until I'm away from everyone, he rests his chin on top of my head and takes another deep breath "You smell good, like gun powder and perfume" He jokes which earns a small chuckle from me "You smell like aftershave and... McDonald's" I sigh pulling away to look at his face "You could have saved me some, you know I was eating rabbit food in that fucking resturant" I huff, he looks at me surprised but begins to laugh "Do you have the nose of a bloodhound or something?".
"Iggy you smell her one more time and I'll rip your nose off fo your face" Vincenzo barks from his seat, "Suck my big fat dick Vin" I reply looking his way. He stares at me for a few seconds before Gio passes me a glass of what looks like water, I hope it's vodka, I need a vodka. "Have a drink I'm sure you need it" He half-smiles. I look between the two of them as does Iggy, something doesn't feel right about this but I take the glass and drink it anyways. I have half of the drink and give the rest to Iggy, it's deffiently vodka but it must be cheap, "Tastes like shit" I mumble under my breath, he laughs and finishes off the glass before screwing up his face "You're right it tastes like ass".
Iggy and I continue to talk shit as we make our way to the airfield but as time passes I begin o notice something isn't right, it's not the feeling of being drunk either, my body feels like it's floating, I'm dizzy and nauseous too. "Igloo... I don't feel good I need some air" I groan getting off of his lap and kneeling on the floor of the car attempting to find the buttion to roll the windows down, "Either do I, maybe it was the McDonald's" Iggy replies slumping back in his seat, I look to Gio and Vin, my vision now blurry I can barely see anything it's just dark shapes. "I'm sorry leonessa" Is the last thing I hear before a loud ringing in my ears begin, the rest of my body hits the floor of the car except my head doesn't, so I look up and just make out Vincenzo's dumb fucking face as he cradles my head, "Help" Is all I croak out before it all goes black.
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"How long has she been sleeping?" I hear a familiar voice ask but it's not a males voice, it's a females, Jesus Christ if its my mothers... "14 hours" Another voice answers this time a man, it sounds just like Igloo so they havent sold me... yet. My body feels dead, I have no energy to move nor open my eyes the only thing I can do is lay and listen. "She's going to kill you when she finds out" The woman speaks again, 'finds out what?' I think to myself as I attempt to remeber what happened before this but all I can remeber is getting ready to go out for dinner with Vincenzo, "She will understand, I had to do what was best for her" Another man sighs, and I recoginse it as my stupid husnads voice, I'm going to beat his ass when I wake up, this has to be his fault. I feel someone sit next to me as whatever I'm laying on dips on one side, next something cold is placed on my forehead as a hand strokes my cheek softly, what the fuck is going on, did we crash? Am I in a coma? Is my dog okay?!
"She's a strong girl, she would have been fine, she's a fighter" The woman snaps back, yeah sis get on my side I internally giggle to myself. I hear heavy footsteps walk away from me as the woman speaks again, "You're still as beautiful as the day I met you Tesoro 'sweetheart'" She hums, wait... what?! My body goes into flight or fight mode instantly causing me to snap my eyes open and jump up out of what looks like a bed. The brightness in the room blinds me momentarily as I stumble around the room trying to gain my footing, "No, no its okay I'm sorry I scared you" The woman speaks again. I rub my eyes and continue to stumble around until I feel a hard stable surface to lean on, what I can only presume is a desk, my vision begins to adjust to the light and the first thing i see is a letter opener so I grab it before turning around to face the woman.
Expecting to see my satanic spawn of a 'mother' I'm thrown completely off guard when I'm face to face with the now not so mysterious woman, she's my saviour, my safe place. She holds her hands up in surrender as I stare at her in disbelief. It's her, it's really her... How? When the fuck? What the fuck? How the fuck? Why the fuck? My brain screams as I try to figure out what's going on, "I'm sorry I scared you darling, I never meant to" She apologises as I stand there like a fucking statue. She looks to the door and goes to call out to someone but I don't want anyone in here right now, just her "No" I reply, "Don't call anyone, please".
She looks from the door back to me and smiles nodding her head "I thought I'd never get to hear your voice again, it sounds the same yet so different too... how are you feeling angel?", The question brings back a flood of memories I thought I had forgotten about. This woman kept me safe as if i was one of her own in a time where she needed to keep herself safe instead, she stole food for me to eat, she was and still is one of my best friends. I drop the letter opener and run towards her throwing my arms around her body holding her as tightly as I can incase this is a dream and she vanishes from me again. "Mamma it's really you" I cry out looking up to her, she smiles softly looking down at me before wiping the tears from my face "Of course it is, I told you I'd find my way back to you" And she did more or less. The door closes causing both of us to look in its direction. Iggy strolls through eating a bag of chips, "Mrs Moretti" He nods looking to the woman before looking to me with a shit-eating grin on his face "Oh looks who decided to get up and grace us with her presence" He teases taking a seat on the bed I was laying on earlier. "Did you drug me you son of a bitch?" I ask as I try and pull myself out of her grip, Iggy roles his eyes and lays back "Do you think I'd drug myself in the process of that? It was your dumbass husband's idea" IT WAS HIS IDEA?!
"Vincenzo" I mumble under my breath, she sighs and looks down to me "I know it's a lot to take in right now, maybe you should rest up some more and I'll get him to come and talk to you once he's done with his meeting. How about you relax and I'll get someone to bring you up some food and something to drink hmm? And that way we cam catch up on everything, I'm sure there's lots to catch up on angel" She smiles softly, I nod my head as she places a soft kiss on my forehead before making her way out of the room closing the door behind her. "You're not going to wait are you?" Iggy asks with a mouthful of chips "You're damn right I'm not, i need answers".
I look down and notice I'm wearing one of Vincenzo's white, almost see through shirt's and my underwear from yesterday that happens to be a thong, nothing else. He dressed me like this Infront of his mother?!! I'm going to peel his face like a potato. "Where the fuck are my clothes?" I ask Iggy who's happily nodding his head as he continues to stuff his face, he shrugs his shoulders "In the wash I think, but I don't know" I guess we're having this conversation half-naked. I bend down and pick up the letter opener before throwing my hair into a messy bun with the spare hair tie I keep on my wrist.
"I'll be back" I grumble as I open the door and walk down the hallway. "Excuse me you're not allowed up here, family and workers only" A high pitched voice speaks from behind me, I turn and see a woman around the same age as me dressed in all black, "And who are you?" I questions raising an eyebrow at her, she rolls her eyes and scoffs "I'm Mr Morettis personal helper" She replies with a wickedly evil grin.
"Yeah, well i'm his new daughter in law" I smile before turning around, "Bullshit, you're not allowed up here you need to leave" She yells again as she follows me down the hallway, "Listen here you deaf bitch, i said you're not alowed up here. you can go outside in the backyard with the other animals and wait" She laughs, I turn around and grab her neck before shoving her into the wall, the back of her head bounces off the wall and her eyes buldge out of her skull the tighter I squeeze her stupid little neck. "And I said, I'm his new daughter in law, so i suggest you do your fucking job instead of pissing me off" I growl, she begins to scratch at my hands and her neck trying to get me to let go, "Let go of me you chubby cow" She hisses in response and I have not a drop of paitence anymore.
I flip the letter opener open and stab her in the side of the neck, slowly twisting the blade around to slice and destroy everything in it's path, she tries to scream or make a loud noise to get peoples attention but it's just gugrgling noises as blood spills from the stab wound and her mouth, I just stare into her eyes as she tries to fight for her life, "Maybe, just maybe you'll learn what respect is in hell, save me a seat huh?" I whisper as i let go of her neck, her body drops to the ground and I take a deep breath before continuing to search for Vincenzo, voices echo and bounce off the walls making it hard to pinpoint where they're coming from, I follow the general direction but stop in my tracks as a voice calls out to me "Karma, please wait".
I don't bother turning around I know it's Vincenzo's mom, "I'm sorry about the worker!" I call out as I begin running towards my dumbass husband voice, I find the room his voice is coming from and kick the door open like I'm fucking G. I Joe or batman. At least 20 men sit around a circular table all eyes staring at me the madwoman who probably looks like she's just escaped prison or a psych ward, "YOU STUPID MOTHER FUCKER" I scream. I don't bother looking to anyone except the piece of shit I married. I walk towards the table flipping the bloodied letter opener around my fingers as men begin calling out to security. "Who the fuck are you?" One asks as I kick his chair out of the way before punching his nose, "Someone get this crazy bitch out of here" Another one yells. The other men begin to stand up but they don't move, I look to the man next to Vincenzo who has a hand raised, that must be his father, nice to meet you sir.
I climb onto the table and walk over to Vincenzo as he just smirks at me, I get a tight hold on the letter opener and crouch down infront of him moving the blade to his neck, I can feel everyone's eyes watching me or my ass, waiting for my next move, and I know Vincenzo's choice of outfit for me is making him furious right now, what's wrong hubby? Didn't expect your dalring wife to wake up for a few more hours huh? Dont like your men staring at her body? Poor thing. The tension in the air thicker than Emily's ass and thighs. "Nice to finally meet you Mr Moretti" I begin looking to Vincenzo's father who looks just as amused as his son does, I'm glad they both think this is funny, let's see if they still think it's funny once I've said what I need to say.
I look back to Vincenzo and begin laughing, his smirk drops once I begin to laugh, yeah boy you've fucked up, hard. "Tell me, why the FUCK did you think it was a good idea TO DRUG ME?!" I scream in his face, he smirks again and clears his throat "Everyone this is my fiancé, Karma". "WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DRUG ME? YOU'RE JUST AS BAD AS ALL THOSE CUNT'S AT ST. MARYS" I scream again.
The room now silent, the smirks falls from Vincenzo's face and his father's amused look drops too, "Karma" His mother voice comes from the doorway, I turn to look at her and shake my head "No, every man in my life thinks he knows what's best for me, think's that it's okay to drug me so they can go about their lives easily without any hassle, without having to put up with me dealing with the shit that happens in my life. Do you even know how it feels to know IT WAS MY HUSBANDS IDEA TO DRUG ME?" I pause looking back to Vincenzo applying more pressure the letter opener.
"After everything I've fucking told you, you still thought it was a good idea to fucking drug me, WHY DON'T YOU JUST SHOOT ME UP WITH HEROIN AND LEAVE ME TO DIE WHILE YOU'RE AT IT YOU STUPID FUCKING FUCK" I roar before taking the letter opener away from his neck, I grab his tie and pull it towards me, head butting him in the nose before smashing the letter opener down onto the hardwood table I'm crouching on pinning the tie to the table. I stand up and get off the table walking to the door and Vincenzos mother, "AND WHERES MY FUCKING DOG?!" I yell as I walk down the hallway, I walk back into the room Iggy's in and grab my phone before going back into the hall. I pass what I can assume is guards as I try and find my way out of this hell hole, who the fuck does he think he is? Fucking idiot.
I hear loud vicious barks coming from outside so I run down the stairs and out the closest door, I follow the sounds of barking until I find my baby barking at the guards that are surrounding the house "HADES" I call out, his ears prick up and he comes running towards me, I squat down and hold my arms out as he barrels into me knocking me onto my ass, "We are leaving alright? Me and you buddy". He tilts his head at me as I pull out my phone and hit speed dial.
"Hello sugar hunny, what can I do for you?" The voice asks as I breathe a sigh of relief, "I need you to pick me up from Vincenzos parents house, and bring the bag" The phone goes silent for a few seconds before he laughs but agrees. "I'll be there in 5, you need to get out of the gates otherwise they're going to stop us", "leave it with me, I'll see you in a second". I get up and whistle to Hades to follow me as I walk down the driveway barefooted with my best friend, the guards at the gates looks to me and shakes his head "No can do Mrs Moretti, you need a guard with you if you want to leave".
"It's Karma, and open the fucking gate before I snap your neck like a fucking twig, I've taken out an assistant already I'll happily try my luck with a guard" I growl, he stands there probably fighting with himself in his head before he reluctantly agrees, he opens the gate and I give my phone to him "Tell everyone I said, adios bitches except Mrs Moretti, tell her I'm sorry". He watches as Hades and I walk through the gate and get into the car waiting for us. I open the backdoor and let Hades in before getting in the front passenger seat "Hey, you didn't tell me you were bringing a damn bear with you" Frankie laughs looking into his back seat, "And where the hell are your clothes and shoes?" He asks looking me up and down "And why do you have blood on you?".
"I'll tell you once I've had 300 drinks and a joint" I groan leaning back in the seat, he takes off just as the front doors to Vincenzo's parents mansion open revealing the giant dumbass himself, "Hard night?" He asks looking to me as we take off down the Italian countryside.
"Something like that, take me to St. Mary's please" I sigh opening the bag Frankie brang "I've been waiting for the moment most of my life" i hum looking over the bundles of cash. The rest of the car trip is quiet besides Frankie telling me about his latest hookup, "I've never seen someone with 3 nipples before, I just couldn't believe it!", I look to him and give a small laugh "You know Harry Styles has 4 nipples right?". He looks to me quickly before looking back to the road "You're fucking kidding me right? Are you serious?!" He yells, "Google it. It's true" I reply as we pull up to the gates of St. Marys.
I feel sick just seeing them again but it needs to be done, "You sure you're up for this?" Frankie asks looking up at the tall metal gates "Sure as I'll ever be" I reply. He nods his head and drives through the gates up the road, the large building begins to come into view the more we drive, memories come flooding back, I can even still remember the smell of the place. We stop out the front and I take a deep breath before getting out fo the car, Hade's runs out after me almost knocking me over, he sniffs a few times before growling and barking into the nothingness that surrounds the building before turning his attention to the front doors of the building. Frankie gets out and shivers as he stands next to me "This place gives me evil vibes", I look to him before looking to the door "It is evil".
The doors open and a nun walks out, my heart races when I see her face, as if this cunts still alive and torturing people, "Well, well, well, look what the cat dragged in" The woman viciously smiles, Hade's begins barking more the closer she walks towards us. I throw my bag towards her, it lands at her feet so she bends down to open it, she smiles again and nods her head "I hope you treat this building as well as it's treated you in the past". I can hear a car roaring up the road in the distance and I can only pray it isn't the police for what I'm about to do, I take a deep breath and begin to walk towards her.
"Sister Jude, I generally wished I'd never have to see your old leathery face again, and yet here I am" I pause as I am face to face with the woman ruined my life, that ordered everything that happened to me and countless others. "This building is to be ripped to the fucking ground and forgotten about as well as all the torturous memories that were made here. The history will be destoryed once and for all, no one's going to know about the evil that took place here. All of those people and children you've killed and buried on the land will finally have a final resting place and a fitting memorial for everything you've put them through. Not one more child or adult will be harmed on this land, not one more child or adult will be starved, raped, beatenor tortured on this land. Except for you Sister Jude, yeah.... I hope this place treats you as well as you've treated it in the past" I smile before headbutting her, she falls to the ground holding onto her face. Did I just headbutt a 90-year-old woman? Yes,, I fucking did and it felt amazing.
The car from earlier pulls into the carpark were standing in,"KARMA" Vincenzo's voice calls out but I block him out as I bend down and grab onto a chunk of Sister Judes hair, I look down at her as she looks up to me terrified holding onto her bleeding nose. "But before I rip this place to shreds I'm going to rip YOU to shreds, so you can be forgotten along with the building and it's history, and then I'm going to scatter your remains throughout the woods around us so the wildlife can enjoy a free meal on my behalf, it's the least your rotten body can do" I smirk, I stand up and drag her behind me while she screams and kicks as I make my way inside St. Mary's one last time ."You may have met god before Sister Jude, but tonight you're meeting the devil"
Revenge is sweet and Karma's a fucking bitch.