Chapter 100.

**Benjamin's POV.

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I made everything ready for Sofia. I book the whole restaurant for us and I couldn't wait for her to come. I wanted everything perfect for us to night after all it's our first date. I couldn't have been more happier than I am when I'm with her and my children. I don't know how its possible but I love her more than myself. I love her, Emily and Elijah more than I ever loved myself. They my world.

I waited and waited but there was no sign of her. I send her another message of the location and waited for another hour but she didn't come.

Me : Don't keep me waiting love.

I send her a message but it only showed one tick. I guess she must be on her way that's why her phone is off. I waited another two hours and I checked my time it was already after midnight. I can't believe she's not here yet, did something happen to her?

Me : Are you Okay? Or are you doing it on purpose?

I waited for a few minutes to see if she was still coming but when I knew she wasn't coming anymore I quickly called the waiter and told him they can have everything I booked for the night. I entered the house and went straight to our room, she was sleeping as if she forgot the date or something. I quickly went to Elijah's room and saw him sleeping. I quickly gave him a kiss on the forehead and after that I went to Emily's room and gave her a kiss too. I gave Sofia a kiss on the cheek and went to undress after that I slept next to her.

"I'll definitely get you back for making me wait hours." I whispered sleeping.

**Sofia's POV.

**I almost lost it but there was no way I would have a fight with him now. I swear if I had the energy I would smack him when he gave me that kiss.

The next morning I tried getting up but his stupid arm was on top of me. I quickly took his hand off me and tried getting up again but this time he pulled me back but I smacked him.

"PMS or something?" He asked and I smacked him again and went to the bathroom. I hope Anna doesn't take longer with getting my divorce papers ready because I'm tired of Benjamin's lies and his secrets.

I finally came out of the bathroom and saw him smirking at me. I ignored him and tried walking pass him but he grabbed my arm.

"You stood me up last night and yet you acting angry." He said and I took his ugly hand off my arm. "Why are you ignoring me? Did I do something wrong that I don't know?"

"No. You just a perfect liar that I love, nothing else." I walked away and went straight to the kitchen. I'm tired of his lies, my whole marriage has been a lie. Carlene is lucky she never married him because right now I'm ashamed of having a husband that lies about everything. A husband that is a perfect liar.

I started making breakfast for both my babies. Emily really knows when to cry or not because honestly when I'm sad she never actually bothers to cry and Elijah watches her and makes funny faces for her.

"Sofia what did I do?" Benjamin asked turning me around. "Tell me what I have done please."

"Did you do something?" I asked and he shook his head. "Then it's nothing, I just want a divorce that's all." I added tears forming in my eyes and he started laughing. "Did I make a joke?"

"You very funny. I'll go shower and get ready for work and by the way I still didn't forgive you for last night." Benjamin said and I shook my head.

"I don't care." I shouted and he turned back to me. "I wouldn't care if you went to sleep around too, we nothing to each other so please don't tell me about not forgiving me because like I said I don't give a fuck Mr Liar." I was furious at him that I didn't see Elijah watching us. "Morning my baby." I faked a smile and he walked to me.

"Morning mommy." Elijah replied sitting on the chair. "Mommy, Emily is crying." He added and I quickly left him and his father together in the kitchen.

"You have a very nice big brother." I said picking Emily up. "I hope you don't take after your father and lie about everything." I started feeding her and she stopped crying.

"Eli never liked breast milk and yet you only love breast milk. I'm guessing you'll be very different from your brother." I was talking to Emily while feeding her because honestly she was the only one I knew who wouldn't talk back to me. If I talk to Elijah he would have so much questions to ask me.

"You worse than Eli, you sleep a lot Emily." I commented and walked with her downstairs.

"Mommy, Daddy said you angry with him." Elijah said eating and I sat in front of him with Emily.

"Elijah I have something to tell you my baby." I said and he nod his head. "You see, your father and I are getting a divorce. Do you know what divorce means?" I asked and he shook his head. "Divorce means your papa and I won't be living together anymore. Your papa will have his own house and we will live in our own house. Your father will visit you whenever he wants as long---."

"Why you telling Elijah that shit?" Benjamin asked interrupting me.

"Your father will visit you and Em whenever he wants and we will move somewhere else. Now do you understand?" I asked Elijah ignoring Benjamin.

"Mommy will we have two houses?" Elijah asked and I nod my head. "Yes. Annette will be angry mommy." He was actually excited than I thought.

"Elijah go to my room and look for my car keys." Benjamin said and Elijah got up and went upstairs. "Why are you telling my son nonsense? Sofia it's going to make him confused."

"Your son?" I shouted and Emily started crying.

"I meant our son." He corrected himself. "Now what's with this attitude and the divorce nonsense."

"Why don't you ask Nikki." I remembered the women Carlos said he slept with. "How was it, running away from me when I said I love you. How was it Benjamin sleeping with another women the day I told you I love you." He was confused and I bet he was thinking about how I found out.

"Who told you this?" I knew that would be all he cared about.

"Thank you Benjamin." I shouted with my daughter in my arms. "Thank you for proving once again that you a liar, a cheater. I wish you all the best with your life because today is the last day you'll be married to a bitch like me."

"Sofia you don't mean that. Sleeping with Nikki meant nothing that day, you know I love you only, so stop---."

"If it meant nothing than you wouldn't have slept with her." I replied interrupting him. I went passed him and went upstairs to put Emily to sleep because my baby doesn't deserve this.

"Your father is a pig I fell in love with." I told Emily putting her to sleep. "But he loves you, I'm sure you and Elijah are his world unlike me." I added and I'm so happy I had that conversation with Carlos because who knows, maybe I would've never found out about this my entire life.

Emily finally fell asleep and I quickly put her in her crib.

"Can we talk now?" Benjamin asked standing at the door and I nod leaving with him.

"I already made my mind up so don't think you can change my mind about the divorce." I told him.

"Whoa, you going to divorce me for something that happened before Elijah was born.

Sofia we were nothing to each other then. I was married to you but I wasn't committed. I know I said while we still married for the year I will not sleep with anyone, but that doesn't mean you must divorce me."

"I'm not divorcing you because you slept with that Nikki women." I shouted as tears ran down my face. "I'm sorry Benjamin but I can't be married to a liar. I hated myself for years because of you. I always blamed myself for Elijah not having a father for three years just to find out I wasn't the one that cheated. You were the one that cheated and yet you threw me out of that house that night just because I saved you, you never once thought you were the one that was wrong, that you cheated. Benjamin you don't know how it feels to go to bed every night, crying because you regret everything. I used to cry whenever I see kids with their fathers." I wiped my tears and he looked at me sad.

"I'm sorry, I'm really so sorry." He apologized.

"Benjamin do you even know where I spent that night? Do you know how hurt I was? How I cried every night to sleep. Do you know how much I hated myself because of what I did even thought I did what I had to do to, to protect you."

"I know and I'm sorry that's why I never wanted you to-----I never wanted us to ever remember that night. I love you Sofia and you are crazy if you thinking about divorce. We have been through worse and we just came out stronger." I wiped the tears because there was no use crying for him when he will never stop hurting me.

"You right. I'm crazy about the divorce." I replied.

"Daddy uncle Jay called." Elijah said playing on the stairs.

"I forgot about that stupid meeting." Benjamin cussed in front of Elijah and went upstairs.

"We will talk tonight." He said running downstairs with his bag. "I love you all."

"Mommy are we going to have two houses." Elijah said in excited and I nod. "When mommy?" He quickly sat next to me on the couch

"Tomorrow we will move to whichever place you choose." I told him and he smiled. If only he knew that he would hate divorce if he was a little older. "Do you have a place you want to choose?"

"Mommy I don't know how to choose." He shrugged his shoulders.

"Choose one. Would you like Los Angeles which I don't like, Chicago, San Francisco or Paris which I love." He jumped in excited.

"Paris." I knew he would choose the place I love. I guess France it is than.

The door bell rang and I quickly ran to it because I knew it was Anna with the divorce papers.

"Thanks." I didn't even greet her I quickly grabbed the papers out of her hand and I let her come in.

"I thought after the screaming and crying the whole day yesterday you would have changed your mind about the divorce. Sofia I may hate Benjamin but it's obvious the way you were crying yesterday, you love him more than anything and if you think divorce is the answer than you wrong." Anna told me picking Elijah up. "Why you so excited?"

"Mommy and I are going to live in Paris." Elijah shouted.

"And Emily." I added and he nod his head. "Anna I'm sure I want the divorce, I want to explore the world because when I married Benjamin I did it to have a better life not a life where we constantly fight and lie to one another."

"But he loves you Sofia. It's obvious you--."

"I read this thing and it got me thinking. We love God but we still sin, Benjamin loves me and he will always cheat and lie to me." I started laughing even though I was hurt deep down.

"When do you want me to book the tickets for Paris?" Anna asked changing the topic.

"Can you make it tomorrow please Anna." I begged her and she nod. "I don't know what I would've done without you." I hugged her.

"Just don't forget you must visit and I'll visit and please think about everything before you sign the papers, Sofia you want to make a big decision while you angry and---.."

"This is what I want Anna. We might love each other but some people are happier when they are not together." I smiled at her and she nod her head.

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