Chapter 39

Evan's POV

I pinned her hand against the bed and curled my fingers around hers, never breaking the kiss. I was still upset because she was leaving me which made me want her even more.

I broke the kiss first then looked at her face. She was slightly panting from our heated kiss. Her face was beet red. Why does she have to be so fucking adorable? I thought.

I lifted her shirt halfway then kissed her stomach. She let out a soft moan and trembled under me. I smirked at the effect I had on her.

"My lips barely touched your skin but you are already so turned on. Is it because you've never had a guy kiss you there before?" I said and kissed her hand.

"N... no... it’s because it's you who is touching me," she said shyly.

If you say stuff like this, I won't be able to control myself anymore, I thought to myself.

"Evan? Are you okay?" she asked.

"No, I am not, little hamster. You are too close to me, it's driving me crazy," I said and grazed her lips with my thumb.

"Stop calling me little hamster," she pouted.

"No," I chuckled and placed a soft kiss on her lips.

"Why not?" she whined.

"Because I love you," I said and kissed her neck.

"That makes no sense," she shivered as I grazed my lips close to her cleavage. "Um...Evan?"

"Hmm?" I could barely focus as the sweet scent of her skin drove me wild.

"If I live with my grandma I might not come back here for a long time," she said.

"I know, that's why I am upset," I buried my face in the crook of her neck.

"So, I was thinking...you could...I mean...you and I could..." she started to stammer.

"What is it? Just spit it out. You don't have to act so nervously with me," I told her reassuringly. I wondered what was going on in that cute little head of hers. Her face was red and she was shaking a little.

"N... nothing," she whispered. I didn't believe her for a second. If it was nothing, then why is she all red-faced and embarrassed.

"I want to see you," my voice came out raspy.

"What do you mean? You are looking right at me," she giggled.

"No, I mean I want to see you. All of you," I said quietly.

She looked like she finally understood what I was talking about. Her breathing became shallow, I could hear her heart pounding.

"What if you don't like what you see?" she whispered.

"That's not possible," I said and slipped my hand under her shirt. "Can I?" I asked.

She nodded yes and closed her eyes as I took her shirt off and looked at her body. It was just as beautiful as I imagined. I cupped one of her breasts over her bra. She flinched. She still wasn't used to anyone touching her so intimately. I hugged her tightly as she was still trembling.

"I won't do anything you don't want me to. I would never hurt you," my voice was deep with emotions. I meant every word. I just wanted to hold her and caress her.

"I know. It's just that...it's not fair!" she exclaimed.

I looked at her with surprise. "Huh? What's not fair?"

"You get to see me but I don't get to see you," her eyes were full of tears.

I kissed her tear-soaked eyes then wiped them off. "You don't have to see, just feel," I said and took my shirt off then placed her hand on my chest. She ran her fingers on my chest and abs, outlining each line of my muscles. She looked away and smiled.

"What are you smiling about?" I asked.

"You have a nice body," she said shyly.

"Oh yeah? Is it turning you on?" I smirked.

She shook her head no and smiled again. Such a liar.

I took her bra off. She moaned softly as I caressed her breasts. They were small with perky nipples like little pink flower buds.

She brought her arms to the front and hugged herself in an attempt to cover her chest. Awe, she is so shy, I thought.

"Don't hide from me baby girl, you are beautiful," I said softly.

"No, I'm not. I don't have a nice body like Lily. I'm all flat-chested and skinny. You are just saying that because you love me," she complained.

"Oh, so you do believe me when I said I love you," I chuckled. "Your body is beautiful. I can't get enough of it."

She smiled and touched my face. I grabbed her hand and pinned it against the bed then covered her breast with my mouth.

"Ahh...Evan!" she whimpered at my sudden attack. She shuddered as I kissed her breasts. One at a time. I trailed my lips down her body and stopped at the waistband of her underwear. I grazed my teeth on her pelvic bone and kissed it.

"How about a parting gift?" I asked as I lightly rubbed the tip of my fingers on her clit through her underwear.

"Ahh...um...but I'm not leaving yet!" she gripped my shoulders and bit her lip.

"But you will. And when you do, no matter where you are, I want you to think about only me," I said gravely and pulled down her underwear, exposing her everything. "Tell me to stop whenever you are uncomfortable," I whispered. She didn't say anything and nodded.

I touched her wet clit and rubbed it gently then slipped my finger inside. "You are so tight, does it hurt?" I whispered.

"No," her voice was barely a whisper.

I added another finger and thrust into her core. She moaned loudly as I slipped them in and out. She slapped her palms on her mouth to muffle the sound.

"You don't have to hold back, it's just you and me in the house," I chuckled. I took her hand and intertwined our fingers together.

"Evan..." she flinched as I kept thrusting my fingers in. I suddenly felt worried that I was hurting her but she arched her back and pushed her hips towards me some more, encouraging me to keep going.

"Evan... please stop," she grabbed my arm and I stopped.

"What's wrong? Doesn't this feel good?" I asked and kissed her forehead.

"Y... yes...but I want you to feel good too," she whispered.

Fuck...I was trying my best to ignore the hardness between my legs as she was not ready for me to go all the way.

I unzipped my pants. "Give me your hand," I said in a husky voice. I couldn't hurt her so this is the best she could do for me.

I took it out and wrapped her fingers around it.

"Wha...that's...that's your..." she stammered and looked like she was about to pass out.

"Hey now, it's just my dick so just calm down," I chuckled.

"Uh...stop saying dick," she was blushing profusely.

"Then what should I call it? Cock?" I smirked.

"That's worse!" she cried. Jesus...what am I gonna do with this girl.

"Just hold it like this and stroke it," I whispered in her ears and showed her by massaging it with her hand. I put my fingers back inside her and slid them in and out of her again.

We both moaned loudly as her soft hand rubbed my cock slowly while I thrust my fingers into her at the same time.

"I... I feel weird inside," she whimpered.

"Don't hold back baby girl, just let it all out. Let's feel good together," I groaned as I felt like I was about to climax. It has been so long since I've been with someone.

She arched her back and cried out my name as she came. Her body trembled violently underneath me. Her hand on my penis loosened so I grabbed it and moved it for her in a fast and steady motion. I collapsed on top of her, panting as I finally got my release. Did I mention it had been way too long?

"Anyway, this should help you think of only me," I said and ruffled her hair.

"You bully," her voice sounded muffled as she had her face buried in the pillow.