***Chapter Fifty-Nine***
Dillon and Dre were standing in the doorway shocked at what they just walked in on. I was straddling Drew deep into our kiss with both of our shirts off. This was not a good look by any means and up until this point no one had truly seen us together alone. Now that was changing and I wanted nothing more than to crawl into a hole.
This was not how this was supposed to go. We weren't supposed to be caught. We've worked so hard to keep things as private as possible. Drew did get a little handsy in front of them that one time but never did again. Now here we were being seen half-naked by two of our closest friends. How the hell were we going to explain this?
Instantly, I jump off of Drew's lap hiding under my blankets. It's one thing having Dillon catch me but it's another with Dre being here as well. He didn't need to see any more than he already did. On top of that, they just caught us at the end of our physical encounter. Imagine if they walked in just a minute sooner?
That being said, Drew was utterly pissed that this happened and it showed all on his face. He didn't let it overtake him though as he knew they'd have questions and there was no way to get out of it. We were busted and busted big time.
Dillon closed the door fuming for answers. "Annabelle Lee, I need an explanation today!" She yelled at me.
I peeked my head out of the blanket to see her furious. "Oh, hey Dill. I uhh...can't talk right now." I duck back under the blanket.
"Annabelle, if you don't get your ass out of that blanket, put a shirt on, and talk to me." She wouldn't let up.
Dre also jumped in on this confused as all hell. "Yeah, I think we're both looking for an explanation here." He was the calm one.
As much as Drew didn't like this, he tapped me through the blanket to gain my attention. He had my shirt in his hand with a gentle smile on his face. They weren't going to go away until we provided them with some answers. Unfortunately, I had no choice but to suck it up and talk about it. We barely had our story straight so there's no telling how this was going to go.
Regardless, I put my shirt on as Drew held the blanket up for me before facing them. They both sat across from us on Dillon's bed waiting for something, anything! Drew and I didn't know what to say or do as we both looked to either side of us. It was completely embarrassing having this happen but we're lucky it was Dillon and Dre and not Julie. We needed to be more careful about this shit.
Getting impatient, Dillon broke our silence. "Somebody needs to start talking," she called out. "Anna, I knew what was happening but I didn't know this is what was happening."
I look at her, nervous to speak. "Well...this sort of just happened today." It's true. "It...we...I can't explain it."
Dre looked at Drew. "Okay, Drew you know the consequences of this but did you tell Annabelle?" He got serious with Drew.
That was the first time I've seen him take
Charge of him in a sense. They're both normally chill around each other and let the other make decisions on their own. However, Dre wasn't having any of it. Although he was calmer than Dillon, I could tell he was fuming just as much. Possibly even more. After my talk with him, something was going on that I should have known.
Drew sighed. "Not the specifics," he admits. "It's not the right time."
"Then when is the right time Drew? Don't you see what you're doing?" Dre yelled at him a little. "When are you going to stop pussyfooting around and just admit it to yourself?"
Now I looked even more confused than before. "Ad-admit what?" Nobody was providing me with any kind of answers.
Drew continued to stew not looking at Dre as he spoke. Things were turning heated after our small exchange of endearment. If we hadn't got caught this wouldn't even be happening right now. However, it didn't change that I didn't know what was happening. The three of them seemed tense about the situation while I looked on lost. Drew told me about his issues and how Julie saved him essentially. What exactly did she save him from? I don't know.
I'm not going to find out because Drew decided to blow us all away. His next action stunned me and hurt me in the moment. However, I could tell deep down he didn't mean what he was saying. The tears in his eyes were evidence enough for that, but why would he do it? Why now? Dillon and Dre couldn't even understand what was going on with him. His words hit home and once again, we found ourselves at odds.
Drew stands up to walk away, but I don't let him get far. I grab his hand to stop him as he swiftly turns around. His eyes are dark with water welling in between them. Nobody expected that to happen and things took such a weird turn. It was hard to keep up with it all. His words were getting through but I guess I didn't want to process them.
"Annabelle, I need you to forget everything that's happened between us," he utters. The tears threatened to spill out of his eyes.
My face falls, confused about what's happening. "Wha-what?" I stutter. My eyes well.
"Forget it, forget everything," he repeats. "We're done. I got what I wanted."
My heart rate picked up listening to what he was saying. My ears couldn't believe it and my heart didn't want to take it. He didn't seriously mean what I think he just said. He couldn't have meant it, not with the way he was crying. The first I ever saw Drew cry about anything. Even talking about his home life, he didn't cry. Yet, telling me this, the worst news ever, he was crying. Why would he cry if he meant what he was saying? It wasn't making sense.
Dre and Dillon were just as confused, standing up to look at him like he was mad.
"Drew, what are you doing?" Dre asked confused.
"Exactly what you wanted." He looks at them, not hiding the fact that his face is nearly drenched.
That shocked them both as well. "I didn't mean—"
"Annabelle, your feelings for me aren't real," he says cutting Dre off. "You don't love me, you love a version of me that doesn't exist because I've concealed the real me from you."
None of this was making sense. My head shakes violently, my face becoming just as drenched as his. "That's not true, Drew. I-I don't believe it."
Even though he knows I can see through this, he wasn't quitting. "It is because..." he closes his eyes, taking a deep breath before looking at me again. "I don't love you. I'll never love you. Whatever it is you're feeling for me, forget it!"
My body felt like it went into shock after hearing him say that. I don't know why he was doing this. It's like he was deliberately trying to hurt me and it was working. My heart was shattered. Everything I thought I knew, it's obvious I didn't. All of our other fights were meaningless. Even though this wasn't an argument, this felt different. It felt like he was breaking up with me but for good. We would never get back to how we were and Drew wasn't going to let that happen.
With his hurtful words, his heart still wasn't in it. I could tell by the way he was looking at my crying face that he wanted to hug me. Embrace me in such a tight hug like he always does. Tell me that he's sorry and didn't mean it. Anything he could so he didn't have to see me this way. But he didn't do any of that. He stayed strong and as stoic as he possibly could. Sticking to his stance.
Not knowing what to say, I look away with the tears still spilling. All the words left me. There wasn't anything I could do or say that would change this. He knew it, I knew it and we were left with two crying people saying goodbye to their complicated ass situation. Things were put into perspective for me and it sucks that it took this long to happen.
His hand almost reaches for mine before he pulls back. "Just...stay away from me Annabelle."
With that, he walks out leaving me confused, hurt, and a sense of loneliness inside. Not only did I love Drew but he was my friend. My best friend, at least one of them, and I just lost him. All because we got caught doing something we probably shouldn't have been doing. Whatever the case, he was done with me as I him. It's clear that whatever it was he was supposed to admit, that wasn't it. Nobody was expecting this as Dillon and Dre looked on just as confused.
Exasperating, I grab my board and leave out as Dillon is calling out to me. I don't wait and just run outside to clear my head. It was going to take a long time for me to recover from this.