Chapter 31 Chapter 30
Amaris gazed at me, surprised for a while before her gaze softened. "Are you feeling such things for the Alpha King?" She whispered to me and I let out a breath, unable to answer as tears stung my eyes.
"His behavior towards me has been confusing lately." I finally admitted, not saying the whole truth. "But I'm sure he'll go back to being his cruel self and I will know where I stand with him." I said, desperately hoping my words will become true. I couldn't let this feelings I had run deeper than this. It would thwart my plans, not to mention how forbidden it is. I gazed at my reddened wrists and memories flashed in my mind, causing me to close my eyes, anger seeping into my bones.
"You know, Those feelings, they aren't bad themselves. But you're relationship with him is complicated so I understand why it may be confusing for you. You should keep it hidden till you can confirm he has such emotions as well." Amaris adviced. I glanced at her, giving her a teary smile.
"Thank you for listening." I whispered, feeling slightly better that I had spoken with her.
"I'm always here for you." She said, returning my smile with one of the brightest ones she had. "I'll be working now, join me when you're ready." She says, standing to her feet as she went to fetch more water. I watched her go, a soft smile on my lips before remembering the object of my worry. Alpha king Keiran.
Amaris had adviced that I should keep such emotions hidden till I could confirm he felt the same way as well. It was hard to tell but I knew there was no way he could, he was too heartless for that. It's good that I don't bother myself with him and keep my emotions hidden till I can sort it out. I was on the precipice of something dangerous, something that could either lead to my salvation or my downfall. The Alpha King had awoken a beast within me, one I couldn't control, and I feared what it might drive me to do.
With a heavy heart and a mind filled with turmoil, I knew that the days ahead would be fraught with uncertainty. The only certainty was that I was now entangled in a complex web of emotions, and the Alpha King, whether I liked it or not, held the strings
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My heart hammered in my chest as I approached the Alpha King's chambers. Each step down the dimly lit corridor echoed my apprehension. I had avoided him for days, nursing my wounded pride after the humiliating display during our last encounter. Now, I was here to make amends, or at least pretend to.
The grand double doors to the Alpha King's chambers loomed before me, their ornate carvings whispering of power and dominance. I hesitated for a moment, my fingers gripping the handle tightly. The weight of his disapproval from our last meeting still clawed at me from within. Knocking once, I waited for his answer before entering.
Taking a deep breath, I pushed the doors open and entered the dimly lit room. The Alpha King sat behind a massive oak desk, papers and scrolls scattered across its surface. His piercing gaze lifted, locking onto me with the same intensity that had always left me feeling exposed. I quickly lowered my head, fisting my hands beside me.
"Good day, your Majesty." I greeted solemnly, my voice barely above a whisper.
"What do you want?" He murmured, not sparing me a glance as he continued to work. I bit my lower lip, getting ready to speak.
"Alpha King Kieran," I began, my voice steady but lacking the usual arrogance that had been my trademark. "I... I wish to apologize for my behavior during our last meeting. It was uncalled for, and I deeply regret my actions." I said, feeling my cheeks heat up as I kept my eyes trained on the ground. After a long moment of silence, I managed to sneak a peek at him.
Kieran's expression remained inscrutable, his silver eyes fixed on me. He reclined slightly in his chair, one hand absentmindedly toying with a quill. "Apology noted," he said, his voice flat and devoid of any warmth. "Is there anything else you wish to discuss?"
I swallowed hard, feeling the weight of his gaze. I had expected a harsher reaction, yet his indifference cut me more deeply than any anger. "I was hoping," I began hesitantly, "that I could see you tonight... to fulfill my duties."
The Alpha King's response was nothing more than a noncommittal nod. "I'll think about it." Was all he murmured as he dismissed me, eager to get rid of me. He offered me no comfort, no reassurance, and it irked me more than I cared to admit. I was dismissed without further discussion, left to grapple with my unsettling feelings.
As I retreated from his chambers, the encounter left me with a bitter taste in my mouth. I couldn't shake the sensation that I was being toyed with, a mere pawn in his intricate game. The powerlessness gnawed at me, fueling my anger and resentment. Steeling my expression, I arranged my hair as I started to walk along the corridors.
I continued to walk along the palace's corridors, lost in my thoughts. It was then that I crossed paths with Evelyn, I slowed in my steps, coming to a stop as I watched her. As usual, she was out with the maids, cleaning and washing. Still, it didn't stop her from looking breathtaking while she was at it. The young woman worked diligently, her graceful movements and unyielding spirit standing in stark contrast to my own insecurities. Despite all these weeks of being a slave, it was her to reflect on her. Her actions were still as graceful as ever, her beauty striking. Envy twisted my gut as I watched Evelyn, a reminder of my own shortcomings.
I walked on, my heart heavy with resentment and hatred. I was no stranger to jealousy, but it had never consumed me quite like this before. Just you wait, Evelyn, I thought to myself. I'll make you paying for causing me to feel like this, I promised under my breath, my body charged with the evil determination.
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