Nelson's POV
I walked down the hallway with so many emotions. At first, I couldn't believe that I just did that to Melissa. The look on her face made me really restless.
What have I just done?
Why did I do that?
I am not like this
I am not a beast!
I let out a deep breath, very angry at myself, I walked towards my office unable to assert what just occurred. I never had the intention to do to her what I did, initially, All I planned was to have a talk with her, to convince her into agreeing into the plan of pretending to the elders that we are now together so that I can have my position as Alpha.
I never stopped the discussion she was having with my sister all for my selfish need.
I am not a rapist!
I will never be!
But I just couldn't explain how I felt the moment I pinned her to the wall. It was like a whole new Spirit took control of me wanting me to claim her that moment.
Phoenix growls at my thoughts.
Yes she is mine, Melissa is mine. We are both legally married and ever since she walked into the pack, this is the first time I am having a direct contact with her body and I couldn't deny the fact that it aroused me so bad that I couldn't deny how good it felt.
I just wanted to teach her a lesson, just to make her respect me and not oppose me with the Fierce fire that burns in her.
The moment I saw the tears trickling down my face, at that point, I realized how much pain she was thinking I was going to claim her without her wanting it. I have never forced myself on any woman and I will certainly not do it on Melissa who clearly belongs to me, I just don't have to fight over claiming her but eventually, she will end up surrendering herself to me without me getting so tactful about it.
I unlocked the door of my office, walked into it and sat on the chair, my eyes fixed to the open window as the scene played over again in my head.
Time was no longer on my side, I shouldn't have done what I did but get down to business with the reason I walked into the room. Knowing how stubborn Melissa is, I know it's going to take a longer time convincing her to act along. The fear in her eyes was so strong and to my surprise, it made my heart bleed with pain.
I don't want her to be scared of me
I never wanted it.
I just want her to get along with me, though I don't want to have anything to do with her.
She is pretty
Damn too pretty!
Her green eyes captivate me a lot whenever I stare right into it but I try to ignore it the best way I can.
One thing I am fully convinced of is that love shouldn't be forced but I won't give up. Tonight, I will have to swallow my pride, apologize and hope to work this out together with her.
Fooling the elders won't be that hard and immediately we both get what we deserve, then we can live our lives just the way we want without anyone interfering.
A tap on the door brought me out of my thoughts. I gazed up as it opened only to reveal the face of Viviana who walked in with smiles all over her face.
"I know you will be in here," she said, closing the door behind her. With the smile still glued to her face, she came closer to where I sat, placed a soft kiss on my lips.
To my surprise,her kiss didn't move me the way it does. I looked away from her, my eyes fixed to the piles of paper on the table right in front of me.
"Is everything alright?" She asked to come closer to me, gently placing a hand on my shoulder stroking it gently.
"You looked troubled"
Of course, I am troubled, troubled with the thoughts of Melissa that I just can't take her off my mind.
"I am fine" I found myself saying to Viviana still not looking at her.
At that moment, I didn't want to see her, she is the last person I wished to see at that moment, no one else but Melissa and it frightened me to the core because I have never felt so detached from Viviana, even her touch makes me yearn for her but at this moment, I felt nothing and I wondered why.
Viviana chuckled while walking behind me as I sat still on the chat. Gently, she placed both hands on my shoulder, "I know just the perfect trick to get you back in shape. You have been stressing so hard lately and I understand how much pressure you are in at the moment" she began to slowly massage my shoulders.
Viviana knew how perfectly well I loved her arms around my shoulder massaging me so good that I always yearn for more but to my greatest surprise, I felt irritated having her touch me, it was like the zeal to have her around me at that moment angered me.
"Please stop" I found myself saying.
Viviana stopped, walked in front of me and I could see the shock and confused look on his face.
"You just asked me to stop?" She asked, looking very puzzled.
"Yes" I briefly replied, adding a more shocked expression to her face.
"But why Nelson, you love this, you love shoulder massages"
"I am not in the mood right now for Viviana. There are so many burden on my shoulder right now and I have to tackle them"
"Then you should be made Alpha, what are the elders waiting for to hand that title over to you?" She asked, still watching me with intense eyes.
This time, I looked up at her, let out a deep sigh and nodded.
"I have something to tell you Viviana" I said watching a curious expression that plastered on her face.
"Come on, talk to me, you know that you can tell me anything" she shrugged her shoulders taking a step closer to where I sat, her body resting on the table nearby.
"It's about Melissa," I revealed.
I watched an angry look appear on Viviana's face. The mention of Melissa's name really angered her, I am well aware of it but I need to tell her the situation on ground"
"What about her?" Viviana asked bluntly, not caring if she sounded so rude.
"Are you already sleeping with her? Is that what you want to tell Nelson?" She asked, giving me a deadly stare.
It almost happened assuming I wasn't fit enough to control myself from doing such a wicked act.
"Of course not! Not at all. I am not sleeping with Viviana" I countered fiercely, having a disgusted look on my face.
"I love you, you know this. We have been together for so many years ,I take you as my mate instead of her and with the love we share, do you think that I will want her to warm my bed?" I raised a brow trying to side so far away from the truth, Melissa was Indeed having a fierce effect on me in a way I just can't explain, a way that really puzzled me.
"Better!" Viviana noted sternly, "You belong to me Nelson, we both belong to each other. If not for the moon goddess stupid decision, I will end up becoming your mate and not her. So if you ever have it in your mind to cheat on me, you better cut it off because nothing is ever going to seperate us and when I say nothing, I include a damn hell human!" She stated fiercely with so much possessiveness that made me linger on telling her the news at hand or not.