Chapter 374 - A fucking wretch - mdfour
Patricia
I was racking my brain over whether to go in or not. I had been standing in front of Alfredo's apartment building for over half an hour. I knew we were no longer together. He had been honest, and for that, I was grateful. It was also true that I was largely to blame.
But he needed to know he was going to be a father, not so he would marry me… How would he react? I got pregnant without his consent, and this was an issue for both of us. In my attempt to fix our problem… Damn, I made it worse! Some psychologist I turned out to be, but as they say, one is a terrible counselor for oneself.
Despite the bad timing, I had to push forward, as we say back home, "keep moving the donkey." With my heart racing, I entered the building. I still had the keys. I assumed he must have returned from his shift at the clinic. My heart was pounding, and I feared his reaction. I took several deep breaths before opening the door.
The interior looked neglected but not messy. "Like a fool, I smiled; it was clear he hadn't swept the apartment." I headed to his bedroom and… despite trying to convince myself over the past few days that there was nothing between us anymore and thinking daily that he was probably with someone else…
Even when your mind prepares you, it's never enough when you see it with your own eyes. I had built walls all week to protect myself, and in this moment, they all crumbled, not one left standing.
I don't know how I got to the foot of the bed. I should have run away, but there I was, numb to the image I would never forget, witnessing my heart shatter into more pieces.
Alfredo's perfect body, the one I used to adore, was only covered by a sheet over his private parts, and next to him, a blonde woman with a bare back, her buttocks covered by the same sheet. I covered my mouth to muffle any sound.
But fate continued to humiliate me in front of him. Alfredo opened his eyes, and when our gazes met, I saw surprise, fear, and something else that no longer mattered. My tears couldn't stay hidden; I had no reason to be here anymore.
I left the room dazed, my whole body trembling. My mind reminded me, "You have a baby, you must be strong for your baby." I reached the kitchen and drank a glass of water. I shouldn't have come. As I left the kitchen, Alfredo came down the hallway.
"Patricia…"
"It's only been eight days, eight, Alfredo." He had put on sweatpants.
"I…"
"Don't worry, I guess this is how things were meant to be." I wished I could disappear at that moment.
"Why did you come?"
Tears streamed down, and it felt like they reached my chest. "Forgive me, child, for my selfishness, it will just be you and me."
"I guess to humiliate myself further." My lip trembled. "You kissed another, touched another," we looked at each other again. "I must accept that the same will happen with me, someone else will come, someone who will touch and kiss me." He furrowed his brow. I extended the keys to his apartment. "I will never come looking for you again."
"Patricia…"
He took the keys, and an electric current ran through my body when our hands brushed.
"Love!"
That was the final dagger; the woman came out wrapped in the white sheet. Alfredo kept staring at me, and I regretted showing him love once more.
"Goodbye."
I said it for the first time for real, finally letting go of my strange attachment to his crumbs. With the little dignity I had left, I turned around, opened the door, reached the elevator, and it didn't open quickly enough.
I covered my face, unable to contain my sobs. "I have a baby." I looked toward the closed door… I cried, sobbed, and covered my face again. Finally, the doors opened, and I stepped in.
Maybe I was making a mistake by not telling him, but it wasn't the right time… he moved on so quickly, such great humiliation. My phone rang; it was Máximo.
"Hello."
"Crying again?"
"Are you at the office?"
"Yes."
"I'll be there in twenty minutes."
"I'll be waiting."
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Alfredo
I kept looking through the peephole. If I felt miserable after sleeping with Nadia, now I was absolute scum. Seeing her cry like that and knowing I was the cause…
She came looking for me. All week, I had hoped for this, coming home from my shift and not finding her was torture… But I did what I shouldn't have, I didn't take Miguel's advice when he told me not to look for someone else while I was still confused.
All these days, I had been anxious, needing something, and in the early morning when I ran into Nadia… I wanted to know if it was what I wanted, and it wasn't. I felt so disgusting. I pressed my forehead against the door when she entered the elevator, having no idea why my chest burned.
In her eyes, I saw that I was no longer worthy of her. Mrs. Josefina's words came to me, "Now each of you can live your life, she can get married, have children, which is her greatest desire, and you didn't want to give her that."
"Are you okay?" Nadia placed her hand on my back. "Was she your ex-wife?"
My ex, what the hell was wrong with me? I nodded, walked to the living room, and sat on the couch out of habit, still holding the keys she had given me, and that current that shook my entire body, I still felt it.
Patricia's sad gaze pierced through me; it was clear she had a terrible week. "You kissed someone else, you touched someone else." That's what she said, and the more I thought about it, the more miserable I felt. "I have to come to terms with the fact that the same thing will happen to me." Someone else will touch her, someone else will erase my traces... "No, son, the worst punishment is your conscience." Would Mrs. Josefina's prophetic words come true so soon?
"I want to be alone."
I needed it. I had spent the whole week alone until this morning... Why did she come? If she came to talk, I had now pushed her away for good.
"Did you regret it? Did you use me?!" What the hell was I going to say to her? "You're an idiot! You don't even know what you want."
I looked at Patricia's keychain, the one she bought when we were in Italy. It was a miniature photo frame. I read what it said. On one side it had the phrase "Who do you love?" and on the back, it said "You," with my picture...
I hadn't even realized it. I never took the time to know her things; I was so sure of her that it never cost me anything to have her. She was a partner at the clinic, and I didn't even know... Maximo told me she wanted to surprise me, but that night I didn't want to leave the clinic... I found it boring to be with her.
"When you know what you want, look for me, Dr. Masa." I heard the door close. Now, what was your excuse, Alfredo?
You supposedly didn't love her, and that's why you liked another woman. You just slept with that other woman and felt nothing, only disgust for yourself. I didn't even enjoy it, and I defiled the bed that had been ours for so many years. "It's only been eight days." That's what she said. I clenched the keychain in my fist. What the hell did I do?! My phone rang.
"Roland?"
"We're starting a new protocol. I'll need you for a couple of weeks. Notify Dr. Saray. See you in a couple of hours."
"Yes, sir."
Maybe distancing myself to think would help. But something told me Patricia wouldn't forgive me... Honestly, I wouldn't either.
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Carlina
I let my husband dry my body. Is it possible to love the same man more every day?
"Still wanting more, Mrs. Marín?"
"If it weren't for the fact that you have to take the kids to school, I'd say yes, Wolfie."
"Oh, my Moon."
We kissed again. He lifted me and sat me on the bathroom counter, his tongue exploring my mouth, his hand venturing south, beginning to caress my center in circular motions.
"You're wet."
He whispered, and without waiting for my response, I felt the invasion of his hard member. Kevin always caresses my back so gently, making me believe it's not marked by the whippings I received in my past.
My body began to sweat, the penetrating thrusts of my husband's penis increased, his mouth bit my nipple, the euphoria for the climax intensified. Without a doubt, meeting Kevin was, is, and will be the best gift of my life.
The way, at night, when he stays awake watching me as if I were his greatest prize; I pretend to be asleep just to hear from his lips how important I am and our two children. His thrusts became rougher, he didn't stop until his body collapsed on mine, his finger slipped between my legs to finish stimulating me, and I came with him.
"You got distracted."
"Yes, you know me so well." His lips took over mine. "Now we have to hurry to get to school on time."
"You're right."
What happened next in our house was a marathon. While Kevin helped bathe and dress the kids, I prepared breakfast and packed their lunches. The person who helps me in the kitchen is on vacation, and I decided to handle it alone. The rest of our helpers are for keeping order in our huge house. When Cristina was born, Kevin gave me this enormous house in Blanco.
We had breakfast in a rush. I blessed my children and kissed my husband, who would return in the evening. He has a new mission. Watching my Wolfie leave with our two little ones fills me with satisfaction.
The two employees arrived, I greeted them, and they started tidying up the house. I retreated to the kitchen, and my phone rang. I was surprised to see that name on the screen. My sister never calls me.
"What a surprise!"
"I'm just calling to warn you, something is brewing with a new, very strange mafia in Turkey."
"I don't understand."
"Carlina! I owe Arnold; he's been looking out for his brother since Nikolay's death, and my new acquaintances don't know about my past. That's why last night I overheard them saying they were tired of an organization called something like chess."
"Yes, checkmate or something like that. I know it has nothing to do with you, but I was very surprised to hear them talk about the infiltrators who screwed Nikolay, mentioning Arnold and Kevin, your husband."
"Are you sure? Who are you getting involved with?"
"You know my world is being the woman of mobsters, I love it. But if they find out I warned you, they'll kill me. Don't call me. I'll call you when I can. Just warn your husband and Arnold. Goodbye!" Damn! I grabbed my car keys and decided to go straight to El Renacer.