Chapter 90 Tyler

Chapter 90 Tyler
“Ty, whatever is the issue it will be ok. As long as we have the pack and each other we can get thru whatever is plaguing you. But we can only do that if you let us in, let me in to help you ok!” Creed said as he watched me struggle to find the right words to express what I'm feeling. Fuck, man why is it always so hard for me to talk about my feelings than about literally anything else. “Okay, time to stop being a pussy!” I mutter to myself. With a deep inhale of nothing but Creed's and Jazz's scents I open up about mine and Thomas's childhood.  I lift my head and wince at the look of concern on his face. With a sight tremor I lift my hand and place it gently on his cheek. He nuzzles into my hand as his eyes flutter close. The sight makes my heat skip a beat at the look of pure happiness on his face. The sight helps me relax a little bit more to be able to tell him why he felt sadness from me. “Creed there are things that me and Thomas don’t talk about to anyone, Hell I don’t even things we tell each other half the shit we go through with our parents like normal siblings do.” I finish on a rough laugh, I know for a fact that our parents are fucking with him too. Unfortunately I don’t know the how or what they are doing to him. “Ty" Creed murmurs softly, it causes me to lift my head and shake it to get back on point. “Shit, sorry I went down a rabbit hole there for a second. Anyway,” I tell him with a smile as I wrap my hands around his waist and help him straddle my hips and pull him closer. He blushes but allows me to manhandle him where I want him.  Snuggled into my chest he rests his cheek against me and just breathes in my scent as I do the same thing. I rest my head on his as I take an inhale of his chocolaty and fresh roses scent. Since he mated Jazz, their scents have intertwined with each other and it smells perfect together.

“Our parents were not fated mates but arranged chosen mates. My grandparents chose their mates when the rejected their fated mates for some reason unbeknownst to us. I guess it pissed of their parents so instead of them getting to pick who they wanted to mate both sets of parents pick them for each other. It’s safe to say that they were not happy with my grandparents and made it known any chance they could get” Damn this is harder than I thought. Creed must sense my hesitation because he squeezes me tighter and I lean in to return the gesture, and force myself to continue. “Dad is greedier than the damn sin itself is. He only cares about money, pussy, or whatever he can get out of somebody. He believes he is entitled to everything without doing anything to achieve it. While mom only care about herself. They treat their mating as a business deal instead of a marriage or with love. Like a mate bond should be treated and cherished. I honestly don’t think nor can I remember them ever showing me and Thomas any type of parental love growing up.” I mutter more to myself then to Creed as I try and fail to think of a time either one of my parents hugged me or told me they were proud of something I or Thomas did. Creed sits quietly in my lap as I delve deeper in my memories and come up blank as I knew I would.  He is rubbing his hand up and down my back reassuringly to let me know that he is still present in this conversation but not rushing me. He has always been so good at knowing when to push and when to let the person talk on their own.  I nuzzle his head and keep talking, Since I’ve done opened the gates, everything is coming out a lot easier to discuss.

“Mom has pretty much checked out on us; She only cares about when she can go shopping or her next fix of prescription drugs or men. While dad only ever talks about his next lay or what he can squeeze out of the next idiot he befriends. I swear our house is one step away from being considered a brothel.” Creed whimpers and squeezes me as tight as he can when I growl that out. Fuck I don’t want to upset him but help him understand what those feelings were about. “Shh, its ok Creed. I didn’t mean or want to upset you just wanted to help you understand what you felt earlier.” He nuzzles into my chest more and mumbles something into it, “I’m not upset for me Ty but for you and Thomas. Why didn’t you say anything? We could’ve done something or I don’t know instead all we’ve been worried about is me and my crappy situation.” He grumbles out with a slight growl. I force him to sit up and look at me so he can see how serious I am and that I mean what I’m about to tell him. “Creed our situation is not as bad as yours is it annoying and frustrating? Fuck yes, but do we care no. For starters our parents aren’t hurting us. We have become accustomed to it and it no longer bothers us. I personally think Thomas thinks it’s a game to see how quick her can get the other pissed off first then have them turn on each other.  I just don’t give a flying fuck what they think because they aren’t important enough to know anything about our lives.” I rub his cheek and continue speaking before he gets it in his head that his parents are right about him. He goes to open his mouth but I put my finger on his lips and shake my head. “No talking ok just listen to me because I need you to understand something.” He furrows his brows at me but nods his head.

I smile at the petulant look he is giving me and tell him, “What your parents are doing is physically hurting you and that is unacceptable. What you felt earlier was me telling myself that I didn’t want to fuck this up with the pack, you and Jazz. Because I am pretty sure I am falling in love with you both and it scares the hell out of me that I can and might turn out to be exactly like my parents.” I say to him as sternly as I can and with as much conviction in my tone as possible because I don’t want there to be any confusion on where my stance is. Have I ever been attracted to Creed before no but I have admired him and respected him since we’ve known each other. The way he can calm a room down or sense when someone needs a damn hug has always impressed me. Or the way he will go toe-to-toe with anyone including the Alpha when he needs to for the sake of someone else’s needs then blush when he realizes what he just did. I have always admired him and I guess over time it’s turned into me loving him more than just a friend/ packmate.