Chapter 76 Feeling whole with him
Veronica's POV:
I could feel everything in that position. His heartbeat against my chest, the rise and fall of his breathing over my neck... This position... whatever he called it... was amplifying the chemistry we both already had.
"Now we breathe together," Theo said as the next instruction.
Then his eyes searched mine, making sure, and whatever he saw there must have satisfied him because he nodded slowly.
"Then we move together," he said. "Be slow and conscious with me. Don't stop matching the breathing with me... and most importantly... never lose eye contact. Just remember... this isn't about chasing pleasure... it's about sustaining it, circulating it, and letting it build until it explodes like a volcano into us. Do you get it?"
I could only nod, as he clearly seemed to be an expert. While I was just his student!
Then his hands moved to the hem of my shirt, and I lifted my arms, letting him pull it over my head. He took his time, his fingers tracing my skin slowly.
Then his own shirt came off, and when our bare chests pressed together, the sensation was so intense I gasped.
This time, it was me who pressed my lips over his, stealing a kiss from him, which was for a brief time, before I went back to maintaining the eye contact and the energy flow our bodies in union were creating between us. 'Because this one was supposed to explode like a volcano,' I reminded myself.
"Now," Theo said. "Move with me. Slowly. So slowly. Rock your hips. Let me rock mine. We are increasing the intensity..."
God... this is what I wanted badly...
We began to move together, which was barely movement at all. It was just the slightest rocking, the smallest shifts. But every movement of his length inside me sent waves of sensation through my entire body... not just concentrated in one place, but it seemed to be radiating straight up to my spine, making me feel intense.
"Eyes open," Theo reminded me when mine started to flutter closed. "Stay with me. Breathe with me."
I was marveled at the way he still kept his concentration intact even in this situation. Was he even human?!
I completely locked my gaze with his and surrendered myself to whatever sensations he gave me.
"That's it," Theo murmured, his forehead pressed to mine. "You're doing it. We are circulating our energies up the spine instead of releasing them lower. Do you feel it, Veronica? This heat?"
I did. God, I did. It was like being on the edge of something immense... holding there, sustaining it... and instead of feeling the frustration of denial of the peak, which usually came with casual sex... this one felt like I was blowing it all the way up...
After all, anticipation is always stronger.
However, a minute later, it was catching up to me.
"Theo," I breathed. "I can't... it's too much..."
"You can," he said firmly, unlike me, who was trembling at the intensity. "You can hold it... We have already come this far... trust me, it will be so much good in the end. You will thank me later for his..."
And that curiosity of knowing the end of this act... actually made me go with it...
We continued like that... rocking slowly against each other... barely moving with eye contact intact... for a while.
I started feeling more and more energy inside me, rising up to my neck level now... I felt like I was floating in the air with wings, like I was standing up against the wind. I had no words to describe that feeling.
And then something shifted. I felt a sudden surge that hit directly up to the top of my head... and I felt like I'd exploded into white light.
I heard myself cry out... Theo's name... maybe... or just the sound of it... and felt him shudder against me, his arms tightening around my waist as he pressed his face into my neck. I was sure that he felt the same as me at this point.
Tears clouded my vision, and I let them fall freely over his shoulders, as I was feeling the extreme bliss that I never knew was possible to feel, especially in a slow-mode act like this.
For sure... this was more than any orgasm I've had before.
"Yes," Theo was murmuring against my skin, rubbing his hand down my neck, which was like adding fuel to the fire that was already inside me. "Yes, exactly like that. Let it move through you. Don't hold onto it. Just let it flow."
I did, and the pleasure didn't die just like that... it seemed to be continuing in waves of it... each one was carrying me higher and opening me wider until I felt completely dissolved in the sensations of it.
Then as I looked at Theo, I felt like there were no boundaries between us... as if we both were one...
I've never felt such closeness with any other man I'd slept with before...
And I never knew that one could feel intense joy inside and still cry outside... I collapsed against him, trembling, more tears streaming down my face again.
Theo held me, one hand stroking my hair.
"I've got you," he whispered. "You did beautifully, Veronica... So beautiful."
We stayed wrapped around each other, still joined, as my breathing slowly returned to normal and the world gradually came back into focus.
When I could finally speak, all I could manage was, "That was..."
"I know," Theo said softly, pulling back just enough to look at my face. His eyes were bright and emotional, and there was something vulnerable in his expression I'd never seen before.
I stared at him, this man who'd just taken me somewhere I didn't even know existed, and felt something crack open.
Because as I looked at him, he didn't look like a different person to me at all. It was like he was a part of me, and I was him...
"Theo... you feel..." I swallowed hard. "You feel so..."
"That I'm a part of you... that I'm not a different person to you..." He finished that for me. "That's what the sacred union of this tantric sex feels like... that we are both part of each other...," he explained.
I felt so relaxed hearing that confirmation from him that he too felt that closeness... and I dozed off in his arms.