Chapter 126 I Need To Know

Chapter 126 I Need To Know
Cody

We were watching Alex work at the computer. This had fascinated me when I had seen her do it before. She was like in a zone all her own when she got behind that thing. She went to work, typing code that I couldn’t understand, and creating something that would help us sort all of this shit out.

I wished I had known what her company was like, she’d told us about some of it. She’d told us about her obsession with the old stories of knights in shining armor and King Arthur. She’d actually gotten some new copies of the books. I thought it was endearing, and a side of her personality that no one really got to see much of. That believer in fairy tales, even after all she’d been through, she’d believed in them. I wanted so much to give that back to her. 

She’d said it had been a huge thing that her friend Rachelle had teased her about, that she named all of her business stuff after that particular story. Her business had been Round Table, she’d created security software called Camalot, Excalibur, and Merlin. I had to wonder if this new program might follow suit.

I saw her bite her lip in concentration, still focused on her screen, typing away. I wanted to go over and pull her lip from her teeth, and kiss her. We had been careful with all of that stuff. She had needed to be held, and hugs, and reassurances, but we had been sure to not trigger anything by touching the wrong way. She was still the most beautiful thing I had ever seen, and I loved her so much, so, I still saw her and wanted to touch her. 

I had decided I needed to go and do some physical training. It usually helped when I started having more physical reactions to her, and I was trying to keep it from affecting her. I mean, I was going to get hard around my woman, that was inevitable, but I could at least try to keep it from rubbing up against her over and over. So, if we worked out and got out the frustrations, as well as took matters into our own hands. We helped keep her feeling safe and not pushed. 

I knew eventually at some point things would pick back up in that area, I just needed to work to help my body get the memo when he got a little too excited around her. So, it was off to punch the bag for a bit and get some training in. 

Later I was bringing her lunch, and she looked at me and smirked, “What?” I tilted my head trying to discover what was amusing her.

“You guys don’t have to hide it from me, you know. In fact, it helps more than you know.” I was confused and she must have seen that. 

She sighed and looked up at me, “The fact that you all still find me attractive, that you see me as a woman, your woman, not something used, or no longer wanted, makes me feel better. So, when I see you look at me like that, like you still want me, and I see you adjust yourself, it doesn’t scare me, you guys could never scare me. So, you don’t have to hide the fact that you are turned on by me. To know that you don't find me disgusting or dirty, it really helps.” By now tears were falling down her face.

I walked over to her and cupped her face, then I leaned down and softly kissed her. I didn’t take it further than that, but she needed to know how I still felt, so I would tell the guys to stop running and hiding when we popped a boner around her.

“The last thing in the entire world I would ever think of you is that there is anything wrong with you. You are not any of those things, not dirty, not disgusting, not unwanted, not unattractive to me or us. In fact, I just look at you and I want you. I do know however, that you are not there yet. We understand this, and we never want you to feel pushed. We can take care of that for ourselves for right now. If and when you feel like you are ready to go there with all of us, just know you have 5 very willing men at your disposal.” 

With that, she chuckled and burrowed into my chest. She clung to me for a moment, then tilted her head up, and she met me halfway when I softly kissed her. 

Alex

Earlier when I’d been working on coding and creating the program, I’d seen Cody watching me. I’d seen him shake his head, adjust his dick, and then he’d gone off to do something. I think they were working out or training to take care of some of it. I also knew that they were taking care of getting themselves off. I appreciated them being so careful with me, but I had started to think that I needed to know. I needed to know they still saw me that way, they still wanted me that way, that it hadn’t been taken away from us. They would still want to be with me when I was ready, and I didn’t turn them off because other men had touched me. 

After talking to Cody we had actually eaten lunch. I had discovered that grilled cheese was soothing, and not too heavy on my stomach, as long as I didn’t push it. So, they were bringing them to me, and I always smiled to see a grilled cheese waiting for me. 

Just as we are eating, and chatting, suddenly I feel a flutter in my abdomen. I stop breathing for a moment, and just stay still. Then I feel it again. I am not sure what to do. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt what this is. I’ve had 2 children, so I am not a total newbie anymore. So, how do I handle this, I’m honestly not sure. 

“What’s wrong Alex?” Cody asks me, concerned no doubt picking up on my distress. 

“I just felt the baby move.” He watches my face for a few moments, then nods.

“What do you want to do?” He just waits for my answer.