"Nothing." I left him this time; before he could ask me more of it. Not now. I know someday Raven will find out about our children, but not now. I'm afraid of what could happen. I mean, things could be done after this, so as long as I can, I'll really try to avoid it. There is nothing wrong if he meets the children because he has a right to them, but my negative thoughts are overflowing in my mind.
Thinking about it makes my heart twisted. I can't bear to see or hear that my children would experience any humiliation, especially coming from their father or the family of Raven. Besides, he is a married man that I should respect.
"Hey," I didn't realize that he was chasing me. I was surprised when he was ahead of me and catching his breath. I was about to leave when he grabbed my wrist. I looked at him, and I could see in his eyes that he was eager to know something. I tried to remove his hand, but he just tightened his grip even more. God, I'm being cornered.
"What?" I face him this time; whatever I do to steer clear of him, I know he won't stop nitpicking me. Nevertheless, I was not ready for his questions.
"I'm glad you're back." My mouth drops. I can't believe that he can tell me that now. He beamed slightly and let go of my wrist. "I'm really delighted knowing that you finally came back after a year, Blair." Just like then, my heart is still the same every time he speaks or our faces meet.
"R-Raven," I called his name. No words came out of my mouth to ask him why he didn't tell me the whole truth. Why did he still depend on me after all those years of being together? Why didn't he tell me his true motive? I mean, I would understand better if he said. And I won't have high hopes for us.
I want to make a big deal about what he did to me, but I'm happy for the kids and me, so I set it aside. We're both happy; there's no need for us to go that far. I thought I would be blessed with nothing if I only had anger in my heart. Maybe a person really changes once they are a mother. I just want to have a tranquil life with my children; we are content with just ourselves. I'm staying out of trouble.
"I know I have a lot of mistakes." Before he could finish his words, I cut him off.
"It's alright, Raven. I had a grudge against you before, but I'm fine. You don't have to bring it back, and besides, just focus on your family." I smile at him genuinely and leave.
I still feel a little pang in my chest, I admit. My love for him did not heal quickly. Because the treatment he gave me is something else; it is driving me nuts; it takes a long time to disappear; it's different when he is in love and showered me with genuine love which I thought, even if it's just one of his shows. He is a good actor, though. And I was a fool to fall for his sweet gestures.
When I entered my room, I held my heart; it hurt. I don't know why I'm still like this. It's been a long time since this pain returned. I took a breath and decided to take a shower to blow my mind.
***
The next day we ate together, without Daddy, because he had a check-up and would be able to go home after lunch.
"Maybe he'll get better and the two of you can talk normally," Aunt Laura told me. I just smiled in response. I was glancing at Uncle John, who was concentrating on eating his food. He was acting as if he didn't do anything last night. I looked at my food and just ate.
I glanced at Raven; he was talking to Aunt Laura about such a thing, and since I didn't know anything about that, I stood up and left. I can't stand them not being asked for a long time, so I avoid it myself.
That was the routine for three days after that. Aunt Laura got up, then Uncle John followed her. I don't know what's going on until I get in line. My mind can no longer think of multiple scenarios every night. That's why I was waiting for Aunt Laura to come out and follow her without Uncle John seeing me.
Unfortunately, I heard some footsteps, so I had to hide. I saw Uncle John's people, so I let them ahead, and I followed without hearing my footsteps. I make sure no one is watching me because my chance will be over if someone catches me.
I don't know if this is the best idea or what, but I have to answer these things that are running through my mind. I can't be restless when I'm just sitting here complaining. The situation will not progress if I do not work and just sit. I felt like something odd, and I needed to find out as soon as possible.
But Uncle John's men suddenly stopped a few steps when the door opened. No matter what they do, they can't get in, and it's like being electrocuted, unlike Aunt Laura, who was able to get in freely.
"Let's go, as usual. Let's just say that nothing happens and she just falls asleep." I heard the butler who served us say, and I dodged when they turned their way to go back outside.
When I make sure they are gone, I immediately leave my seat and walk slowly toward the big door. There was a big door there, and it was blocked. I was trying to find out how Aunt Laura made it so she could enter. I didn't catch up since those guys were ahead of me. I was busy finding the answer to it, but no matter what I do, I can't really see anything.
Even if I tried to solve everything, even if I did what I saw in the movies, I was clueless. Damn it!
"What is it?" I tried to figure out what it was, but I ended up holding the gate, and it suddenly opened.
"You are part of the Ashton family; welcome," the man with a deep voice announced, and there was some energy inside that kept on pulling me. Fvck! That was just the simplest way to open it? It took me an hour to think and find a way yet you just need to touch them so they know that you are part of the family.
I can't believe what kind of mind my grandparents have or whoever did this hideous, scary place. After all, it was smart to do this. Think about it; those who come here will not think that it is just easy to open the door. I took a deep breath and looked inside.
When I step in, the surroundings suddenly light up just as the door closes. I looked everywhere and saw how fascinating the ambiance was; you wouldn't think that the mild-style gate inside was a paradise.
The interior is almost made of gold and diamonds; everything is fine and really fancy, seats and so on. But I was more amazed by the gold, diamonds, and silver layered up ahead. My eyes sparkled; I didn't see as many of those things.
"I didn't think that Mommy and Daddy would hide everything here." Aunt Laura's voice echoed in every corner. I hid on the post of this place so that she wouldn't see me. She is wearing different clothes; they shine as if surrounded by diamonds.
"Well," Aunt Lucia poured the wine into the glass and sipped it before she continued. "They're smart, and Leon got that; unfortunately, we're smarter, so...we quickly snatched it from him." They smirked and toasted their glass. I covered my mouth upon hearing their conversation.
"If he just chose to cooperate with us, then everything would be fine; he wouldn't be in his situation now."
"He chooses it, and Cbiara Blair will be our next victim." I wanted to retreat, but my body was frozen in place. "Speaking of that witch, I feel like she's suspicious of us."
"Why?" Aunt Laura wasn't looking at Aunt Lucia but directly at me. I quickly hid, and I don't know if she saw me because I didn't hear an answer from her. My muscles were shaking, and I wanted to know what would happen next, but I couldn't bear to look back at them.
I swallowed hard and prayed that something might happen. I shut my eyes, especially when I heard the noise of a heel walking towards me. I hold my breath. I was trying to save myself from all of it, but I don't know if that will happen now. Because I feel like I'm in danger, nevertheless, if I try to hide from someone, they will kill me.
Does this have an end?