I thanked him, and he immediately went because they had a private discussion that did not require the presence of any other corporate officials. Maybe they were discussing the problem again; my knee shook while speaking with him. I can't get enough of his motions, kisses and hugs, and the way he touches me with lust.
I shake my head. I need water to deal with my emotions. I'm not like this with Roux; I'd never get this heated or aroused with him. So I was not sure why I was in danger at Raven's hands. My knee almost gave out earlier; now that he was gone, I'd calmed down.
I punched my chest. "This is not good." I whispered to myself. I pinched my skin because I knew it was wrong. My feeling was that it couldn't be like this; something was starting to form in my heart again, and I must fight it.
Roux and I were about to meet in the cafeteria, the hallway, or any other spot in this place. I'm not sure if he's merely taking heed or if that's his actual job. I don't mind.
Every time I see him, my eyes burn crimson because of how I felt for him. As a result, I always avoid him since I don't want to do anything to him. Every time I see his face, I am reminded of his betrayal and dishonesty. I can't forget the past any longer, and that's what inspired me.
I believe Lethia was with him in the agreement to kill my child because I did not agree with his desire to abort the child, so I will not be surprised. And thinking about it only fueled my rage against him. I scoff in the back of my mind as I sip my coffee; it's a miracle he didn't see me when my coffee was ready to run out. That's preferable to continually seeing us together and arguing merely to see what they'd think.
"Are you waiting for someone?" one of my colleagues asked. I wasn't sure if it was to me or to Anica, who was the quietest among them. I pointed to myself, "Yes, you." She chuckled, "Anica doesn't talk, so it's probably you."
"I'm not waiting for anything." I just answered. I would like to get rid of her because why was she laughing at Anica? I mean, if she chose not to say anything, then she could. I didn't know why everything was an issue for other people.
"Oh, I thought you were fond of Sir Roux, so…” She did a range of motion to her glass in her hand and looked at it. Then I looked. "Just so you know that his wife had a lot of eyes in this office."
I smiled at her and put my glass on the sink, then faced the girl with a smile on my lips. "I don't care if everything here is Lethia's eyes," I said as I walked towards her. "Just so you know too, I am not interested in Roux; he's just a ghost to me." I turned around and walked with confidence towards the outside.
Why were they accusing me of having an affair with Roux when I was their boss's girl? Did they know that, or did I have to inform them of that? And why did I have to talk about Raven and me? It was purely a paper; what was between us was just a contract.
"Where have you been?" I had just sat down in my chair when the door opened, and Raven was there with her eyebrows together.
"You'll get your wrinkles in no time if you keep looking at me like that." I lazily commented to him, but he didn't seem to hear because even when he walked towards me, his forehead was still the same. "What now, Raven?"
"You know I don't want to see you and Roux together!" He let out a growl. I was just explaining previously, and now it was his again? “I told you that no other boys could be near you.”
"What's with Roux? Everyone is asking me if I was involved with him when his wife existed at all. And why are you being possessive?" I let out a giggle. I was only trying to lighten the mood, but Raven's eyes were too serious. I swallowed as he came to see me in my chair.
His right hand is on my backrest, while the other is on top of my table. What's with this man?
"That's why you should only be involved with me; I didn't have women when you came."
"You mean if I am not here then you will have another girl?" I acted like I was in pain. "Are you thinking about my feelings?" A small smile appeared on his lips. He licked his lips and was just intently looking at me.
"Damn, how I wish this was true," he muttered. I burst out laughing.
"You wish, jerk." I smirked and pushed him because I still had a lot to do because of the papers he placed on my table.
"What?" He chuckled softly; it was the best sound to my ears. "We should talk often like this."
"We're working, Raven." I glared at him.
"Come on, let's talk like this. We're just so cute."
"Shut up; I still haven't forgiven you for what you did just for Lethia." When I brought that up, his emotion changed, from cheerful to serious.
"Let's get to work." I pouted my lips and sat properly.
I don't know why his emotions changed so quickly when I brought up that topic. Suddenly I felt some pain in my mouth; my eye was burning, but I couldn't feel it. Because who was I? And what we had was just a pure contract.
***
"Can I ride with you even now, Blair? My car broke down; it will be fixed tomorrow." My jaw dropped. Roux was now in front of me, holding my hand and asking for a favor that I should resist.
"You know what Lethia can do to me, right?" I asked him. "Stop getting near me, Roux. Are you really that low to be with me? It feels so good that you didn't end up with me."
"If you were the one I married, I would be head over heels for you even if we were married." I laughed at what he said; wasn't he embarrassed while telling me that?
"You're married, Roux, and respect that; you don't just respect her when there are many people." I slammed the door of my car. I saw him jump, and he deserves it anyway. Flirting while married? And with his ex? Pathetic!
I quickly started the engine and didn't check where he was. A few minutes into the drive, I noticed someone at my back. I screamed so much that I turned my car, but I managed to step on my brake.
I clutched my chest. "Fvck!" I took a deep breath. Just by smelling the perfume, I knew who it was. "What the fvck are you doing here, Raven?!" I screamed. I felt like all my veins just showed up.
"Easy." He gestured for me to calm down; instead of taking his advice, I glared at him.
"I said get out!"
"I'm your boss."
"We are not in your building!" I growled. I hit the steering wheel while he just sat squarely in the back and didn't seem to move.
"So? You still have to respect me; I'm a Smith, remember?" He didn't want to answer; I just got stuck in my annoyance.
"As if I care, will you leave or will I drag you out of my car?!" Because of our incessant fighting, I noticed that many people were irritated at my place. I took a deep breath. I had no choice but to leave because someone might suddenly get out of their car and yell at me.
It wasn't until I got to my house with a frown on my face that I felt that the man was still following. I throw my bag on the sofa and go to the kitchen to heat water.
"Do we stay here now or at the condo?" I put the cup on the table with a bang because of his question.
"Are you fvcking serious with that question?"
I honestly didn't understand what Raven wanted. He sometimes got mad at me, then got sweet, and then made me curious about what he wanted to do. He was giving me mixed signals!
"What? We have a deal; maybe you forgot." He pulled a chair, and there he relaxed himself as if he didn't see that I wanted to hit him against the wall.
"And sleeping here in my house is not included!" I corrected him, but he just shrugged.
"Well, that's part now."
"What? Are you crazy, Raven?!" I shouted because I couldn't handle the annoyance I felt towards him. I walk towards him and ask, "Can you hear yourself? You know this is forbidden! If someone finds out about us and tells your family, what do you think they will do to me?"
"I don't care,"
"Right," I scoffed and licked my lower lip. "You don't care; who am I?"
"I don't care about them; I told you that, didn't I? All I care about is us; I don't need their opinion about us." He got up, and our eyes seemed to be united. "Erase that from your head, or do you want me to do the work to remove that from your brain?"
"What are you going to do?" So I don't like it when we talk like this because it just ends up making my knees weak.
"What do you want me to do to make it go away?" I took a deep breath. I hope I can take it.