Chapter 42

I woke up to the sun blaring on my face. I had this weird ass dream that my mate was dead. Getting up, I stretched and looked around. I was in my room. How did I get here? Who changed me? What happened yesterday?

I stood from my room and shivered at the cold air that seem to be constantly moving on and around my body. I headed for the bathroom and after taking a well-deserved hot bath, I walked out and into my walk-in closet. I spared a quick glance at my reflection in a mirror and that was when it hit me. The absence of my mating mark was the wakeup call. I fell on my knees since my knees were too weak to hold me up. It was not some weird ass dream. It was my painful reality. I stayed on my knees crying until there were no more tears. I still can't believe my mate was gone. My Chaos.

After no more tears trailed down my face, I got back on my feet and robotically got dressed. I felt numb. I hurried with making myself look presentable because I needed to find my mate's killer. I had promised to find justice for her and I planned on delivering on that promise.

I had just walked out of my room when I bumped into Tricia. The last person I wanted to see

"What do you want Tricia?" I questioned coldly

"Baby, I heard about your mate and came over to console you" she whispered while rubbing my arm

I quickly tore her hand away from my arm and growled in her face, "One, i am not your baby so don't address me as fucking such. Two, I don't need you to console me. Infact seeing you again reminds me of the injustice I did to and against my mate so do me a favor and get the fuck out of my sight before I lose it"

"But baby..."

"Get the fuck out!!!" I yelled

Our argument must have drawn attention because the next thing I heard was multiple pounding of footsteps coming up the stairs. Matthews was the first to appear. followed by the rest of my high ranked members. Turning to fully face them, I pointed to Tricia and said,

"Get this thing out of my sight and out of my way"

"Gladly" Kiara said as she made her way towards me. Harshly grabbing a hold of her arm, she pulled her away as if she was nothing but a piece of paper even though Tricia was kicking and screaming.

I turned to make my way towards my office when Leone blocked my path.

"What now?" I questioned just as coldly

"How are you holding up?" He questioned meekly

"How the fuck do you think am holding up? My mate just died how do you think I am feeling just now."

"I know. I just wanted to know how you are feeling"

"How I am feeling? Well since you desperately want to know, I will enlighten you. I feel like killing myself and joining my mate. Happy now?" I didn't wait around for anymore stupid questions. I knew he meant well but I just didn't need that right now.

The pity and sympathy written all over their faces. I know very well that because I admitted to wanting to kill myself, I was going to be on a suicide watch. As if they can really stop me from killing myself but that is not what I want to do now. I need to find my mate's killer and then make sure the pack is in safe hands before joining my mate.

There is nothing really here for me in this life now that my mate has departed from it. True they say you don't know what you have until you lose it. I had just entered my office and settled down when a loud knock sounded on the door.

"Enter" I growled out

I watched blankly as Kiara entered the room and made herself comfortable.

"What do you want?" I asked blandly

"Nothing. I just wanted to tell you of an information I stumbled upon."

"What information?"

"A deal was struck with another source god and Chaos' life was bargained. A hit was put on her head and the price paid to the latter."

"What the fuck!!!! Who did this?"

"I can't really tell at the moment but I will keep digging and you can wait till the next quarter moon. My family and my ancestors will be here for certain rites as per our tradition and then you can ask for some answers"

"The next quarter moon is in three weeks!! Three fucking weeks. I can't wait that long... and what if I ask and they refuse to tell me? What then huh!!!"

"Well I can't go to the moon and forcefully shift it to a quarter moon so all we can do is sit back and wait and secondly, they won't refuse to answer you. Trust me on this one"

"Okay... but why are you helping me?"

"I am not. I am doing it for Chaos"

After a minute of silence, I gathered strength to ask her what has been on my mind ever since she entered my office.

"What happened yesterday? Who found her?" I asked quietly

"Estephania found her. It seems she was attacked right out the house. The person was waiting." Kiara answered in monotone

"Why didn't she defend herself? I know she was more than capable in doing so. So why?"

"That is where it gets tricky because I don't know. She didn't even call for help"

"That can mean a whole lot of things. Meaning she either knew the person or she was distracted and she was taken by surprise"

Kiara watched me with a strange look in her eyes before blinking it away. She had just opened her mouth to say something when Matthews entered the room unannounced.

"What were you two discussing?" He questioned as he looked from his mate to me and then backwards

"Things" Kiara responded vaguely

"What things?" Matthews pressed

I watched in fascination as a smile made its way onto Kiara's face as she gave him his second answer

"Things things"

I seems to be a private joke between them because Matthews rolled his eyes whiles chuckling

"Let it go baby. Now tell me what you two were discussing. Everyone knows you two aren't the best of pals so to find you two alone in a room talking is suspicious. Something serious might be going on and I want in" He said rather seriously

Letting out a heavy sigh I replied, "Someone put a hit on my mate. Her life was bargained like it meant nothing."

"The fuck!! Where did you hear this from baby. Are you certain?" Matthews questioned as he ventured further into the room with a bewildered look on his face

"I am a 100 and 10 percent certain... I found out from a very reliable source. I told the family after the funeral and I am telling you now." Kiara snapped

"I pity the culprit. If what your family did to me was anything to go by then, that person is as good as dead. But what happened to my mate's ashes?" I questioned with a resigned sigh

"Papa Chaos took it back home for some rites but he will be back with it any day after the quarter moon" Kiara replied solemnly

She had this strange look in her eyes like before. Before I could make anything of it, it was gone. Making me feel like I imagined it but I know I didn't. I don't bother asking her about it because I know she will outrightly refuse to answer.

We stayed in my office discussing the pack and Chaos before I couldn’t stand their presence anymore and had to ask them to leave.

It felt difficult to stay in their presence for long. It hurt to even breathe properly or control my now thin temper. I knew without a doubt that these where signs of my wolf going rouge in more ways than one.