Chapter 35

***Alpha River’s P.O.V***

I stood by the car watching my mate exit the entrance to her training grounds. She looked fucking delectable and she looked like a goddess as well as highly dangerous. The boys were really not joking about the ensemble and the high-tech weapons. Kiara had a couple strapped on her and she looked like a sight to behold. I would never tell her that though. She is too cocky for her own good and I am not going to fuel it.

I couldn’t stare at Chaos for long because then I am reminded of how much I fucked up. I honestly don’t know what to do to right my wrongs but I know for sure that I was going to do everything mortally possible to at least make up for the pain I have caused her and still causing her. I rounded the car to her side in the back and opened the door for her and after she was settled in, I moved to the other end and settled in.

The car ride was silent but not tense and I was grateful for that. I didn’t talk and neither did she. The bond though was a whole different thing. I could feel it fluttering and awakening. As if it had been in hibernation. For the first time in days, I could hear Kaeden yipping happily in the back of my head and when I asked why, he told me he was talking with Havoc and they were finding a middle ground with all that had happened.

I let him have his privacy because he deserved that much. He shouldn’t have to suffer for my mistakes. I was because of my persistence that he came to tolerate and like Tricia. If I can’t have Chaos that doesn’t mean that he shouldn’t have Havoc. I am just glad that Havoc decided to give him a chance. I know I am already a lost cause and it’s going to take a while before I am in Havoc and Chaos’ good graces. A very long time.

I let my thoughts drown me and before long I was dozing off. Kiara may have healed me but I know she didn’t completely heal me. I still felt sore and pain. I also realized I have whip marks on my back that came from my in-law. It explained the horrific nightmares I have been having. I have doomed myself and in as much as I would never admit it out loud, I am scared.

Terrified of what the future holds and what might happening with me and my mate. One question keeps me awake though. Will we ever be able to be like we were supposed to be? To mate and be happy?

I sometimes feel a little smidge of hope and then I remember the look on Chaos’ face in my conference room and then that hope is dashed away.

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I was shaken awake softly and by the tingling sensation racing up my arm, I knew it was my mate. I woke up to find the car empty and after quickly glancing around, I realized we were at the Alphas conference. Straightening my three-piece suit, I stepped out of the car and walked towards my mate who was on her phone in front of the car.

From what I could gather it seems she was talking to her uncle. I walked up to her and extended my elbow on which she latched without a word.

Together we walked towards the entrance with Matthews and Kiara a step behind us. The moment we stepped into the building, you could hear the loud chatter of the alphas, their betas and Lunas’ and I could already feel a headache forming. The moment we entered the conference room, the loud chatter dialed down a bit. They were all staring blatantly and it was starting to get on my nerves.

Before I could open my mouth to exchange the unnecessary pleasantries, one of them spoke up

“Now that’s one hell of a piece of meat, I wouldn’t mind to have writhing under me in pleasure”

No sooner had he finished did a whoosh sound resonate through the air. I looked round quickly and I was not even surprised when my sights landed on Lionel, Alpha of the Red Moon Pack and he had a very familiar silver dagger in his left shoulder. I am not surprised because not only is that idiot disrespectful, he is also disloyal and smells an awful lot.I scanned my mate and found one of the many daggers designing her body missing. I didn’t say nothing.

Without a word or missing a beat, she walked calmly towards the empty chairs and I was right behind her to pull out her seat for her.

“Who the fuck threw the knife?” Lionel barked out in rage

“I did” Chaos answered calmly as she leveled him with an intense glare

“You fucking bitch! Who do you think you are? Do you know who I am?” he spat out

An angry growl escaped from my throat and before I could make my way towards him, Kiara was already in front of him. A sound resonated throughout the room as she back handed him so hard that his head turned the other way. It was like a whiplash. A scream left his lips again and we all watched as another dagger flew through the air and embedded itself in his right shoulder.

“Insult me one more time and I swear to the gods above that I will cut of your tongue and decorate the rest of your body with a thousand daggers before you could blink” Chaos said in monotone

The wounded Alpha flinched at her tone and Chaos smiled when she saw a glimpse of fear flash through his eyes before it disappeared. We all saw it. I was quiet for various reasons but I was amazed that no one jumped to his aid. Not even his own Beta. I’m sure everyone was fed up with his shit.

With an exasperated sigh, Lionel moved to remove the daggers only to withdraw back with a scream. I never pegged him for a screamer but I guess appearance can be deceptive. I watched with amusement as he panted through the intense pain that was definitely coursing through him before taking time to study the dagger.

I don’t really know what he might have seen but his eyes widened before his eyes snapped to Chaos’ older brothers who had just arrived and was taking turns dropping kisses on Chaos’ forehead and cheek. They clasped me on the shoulder and to an outsider it might seem harmless but do not be deceived, they dislocated my shoulder and popped it back with just like that. And all I could do was suffer through it.

“Who are you young lady?” the oldest alpha amongst us, Calder… Alpha of the Star Dust Pack who had been watching the whole scene questioned with worry in his eyes.

The sinister smirk Chaos leveled him had unwanted shivers running down my spine and by the way the rest of the alphas, betas and Lunas’ kept shifting in their seats, I was sure they were feeling it too. Well except for her brothers and Kiara who kept chuckling as if this was a comedy show. They do not understand what we are going through.

“I am surprised you lot haven’t figured it out already. But if you insist, my name is Alpha Chaos of the Silver River Pack. Daughter of Alpha Celeste Chaos of the Midnight Chaos Pack” she answered coldly

“Alpha? Daughter of Celeste? River please explain” Nigel, Alpha of The Blue Moon Pack questioned softly

Before I could reply, I was cut off yet again. Like hello??? I was the one questioned!

“She really is our mother’s daughter and our little sister. She is using the Alpha title because she has alpha blood running through her veins and has every right to claim it though she is mated to Alpha River.” Lucien snapped

“A daughter? When? Why were we never told?” Nicholai, Alpha of the Blazing Flame Pack

“I didn’t know that my mother was supposed to give reports on when she fucks, when she gets pregnant or when she gives birth. Most of you around this table made a mockery of her when the alpha title was handed to her after our father passed on just because she is a woman. You lot didn’t give two shits about her until she knocked you off your high horse. So please tell me why she would tell you about the daughter she had. Another female like her. So you could tear her down before she even knew right from wrong? Well hell no” Lucas stated calmly. A little too calm.

“Some may not care Lucas but I and my mate do. You know that Celeste is a good friend of mine” Simona, Nicholai’s mate answered

“We know Mona… but you understand where we are coming from” Lucien said softly

“For years… it’s amazing how we never knew. We heard rumors, her name and that was it. Not even a photograph. And after all these years, I get to meet her in person and not even know that it’s her” Nadia, Calder’s mate said with tears in her eyes

I watched my mate’s eyes soften for a tad bit. Letting out a sigh, I took a risk and squeezed her knee under the table. I was surprised when she squeezed my hand back. Then for the first time, our link opened. I had to bite my lips to keep from gasping

“Touch me again and I will chop off your fingers” she spat whiles looking straight in my eye. I was too elated to feel the pain of her blatant rejection.

Ignoring her, I flashed her a soft smile before reaching forward to drop a soft kiss on her forehead

“I’m sorry Hun” I replied softly before shutting the link myself.

Maybe it’s for the best.