Zara...

Zara's POV...

I saw Liam, with Maya.. I felt betrayed watching them like this.

They could have told me, I would have stepped out of their way... But no, they choose to lie... Why? Was I so obtuse towards them.. ?

I did felt betrayed, left out... But something that was necessary for me to feel was missing out..

The feeling of being cheated, jealousy, insecurity... I felt nothing... None of em.

Thinking if it was usher in the place of Liam I would have ripped the girl apart and would have beaten the shit out of him. But for Liam all I felt was being betrayed from my best friend. From the two people I trusted the most.

I felt anger, not towards Liam but at my own self.

I was too selfish with him, I kept demanding his attention and never felt the need to reciprocate the same.. I never gave him what he needed or wanted.

But now what am I supposed to do? I’m not at all upset with Liam... I’m perplexed, cause I don’t know what I need to do next. He already proposed me, we are about to get married within a week , my family, his family everyone knows about this and they are thrilled..

But after this.. How can I..? I don’t even know since when they started having this secret affair.. Was Liam already with Maya when he proposed me..?

Christ! This is all to much..

I walked and sat inside Usher's car and asked him to drive me to hospital.. I know his mind was exploding but I don’t owe anything to him, I don’t have to explain anything.

After that I didn’t saw Liam for two days, I kept myself busy in taking care of Zurich, who was already discharged from the hospital.

My mind was fuzzy and clouded. Thinking about my unpredictable future.

I applied for ten days leave from the office.. I don’t want to be anywhere around usher not after what we did.. It’s not like I’m ignoring him or trying to do that.. But if I saw him one more time than I fear I’d be doing the same thing.. What I felt under his touch was real.. The only thing that he can make me feel and yet after this I decided to marry Liam... And now Liam is also having a thing with Maya..

I’m way too confused..

After long two days Liam was finally back..on the third days evening..I didn’t tried to call him or contact him in any way.. Cause I know now where he must have been, obviously with Maya.

Walking inside the house, he looked lost..

“ Zara, I’m sorry.. I wasn’t there when you needed me the most how is my champ though.” He said feeling guilty..

“ No problem Liam.. And you always have been there for me.. Don’t worry it’s okay.. No need to apologize and Zurich is better now..” I said smiling at him.. Feeling way more guilty than he is..

I always kept using him.. I’m such a disappointment as a friend.. I was never there in his plight..

I don’t have any right to patronize him or accuse him for cheating on me... When I also did the exact same thing..

“ Go and freshen up. I’ll prepare the dinner in the mean time.”I told him avoiding any eye contact and disappeared in the kitchen..

After having our dinner in silence, I decided to bring up the topic..

Slowly I took out the ring from my finger and gently took Liam’s hand in mine and kept it on his palm..

He looked at me like I have grown horns..

“what is this now Zara, ohh! I see.. It’s because you saw him right..” jumping out of his chair Liam said in disgust.. Pulling his hair with one hand.

I don’t understand these men, why the hell they jump into a conclusion all of a sudden..

“ No, it’s not because I saw him.. It’s because I saw you... With Maya..” I said nonchalantly..

And all the air disappeared from the room.. Liam looked at me , shame completely visible in his eyes.. His lips were quivering to form the words but he was lacking at it..

I walked up to him.. And gently padding his shoulder I took his hands in mine..

“ Liam... I’m not upset trust me I’m not... Not with you or Maya at least.. I’m upset with myself.. For taking so much of you and giving you nothing in return.. I’d be really happy if you and Maya will be together,... She likes you and now I can see you like her too..”

Liam jerked of his hand from mine.. I gasped at his sudden rage..

“ No way.. Zara.. I don’t want her... I want you... I always had... It was just a mistake... Please... Zara.. I was angry... Angry when I saw you with him.. And when I saw Maya that night.. My emotions were confused... And I did something that I should not... That’s why Zara... That’s why I was not able to come home even after knowing Zurich's condition... I was ashamed for doing that.. I didn’t knew how to face you after what I did .but I always had wanted you...not her or anyone else for Christ sake... Please don’t push me away.....” he said. Screaming with mixed emotion of anger,hurt and request.... A tear rolled down his eyes..

He was really looking... Heartbroken..

I’m way too confused.... I can’t do this to him.. I can’t cheat him like this.. I can’t be with him when my heart belongs to usher..

I just wanted to run away and hide some where.. And never be found out by anyone.. I wanted to end this engagement and take Zurich with me.. Away.. From here.. I don’t want Usher anymore.. I know he’ll hurt me.. And after what I saw.. I thought I’m forcing Liam into this... But after this raw confession.. I guess.. I was wrong.. I can’t hurt him one more time with my rejection.. I can move past Usher.. I have to, for this man.. Who loves me selflessly..

“ Liam.. I never ever would push you away... If you really want me then I’m all yours..” I gently planted a soft kiss on his cheeks.. Trying to pour how Grateful I’m for his selfless love..

“ Really... You will marry me.. Still” he said grinning... Then he scooped me up in his arms and twirled me around..

I want to tell him that I spent that night with usher... But I don’t want to hurt him. And this is not going to happen ever again.. So I kept it to myself..

After two days my mom and my dad along with Greg arrived.. They all were thrilled and excited for the D-day..

Zurich was better now.. My son was way too strong.. Liam wanted to delay the wedding because of Zurich’s health but I refused cause anymore delay can make me perplexed and can change my thoughts.. I’m adamant to marry Liam.

Finally the day arrived..

I was dressed in the white gown... It was beautiful.. Netted at the back. Long sleeves..slender at the waist and wide and long at the bottom.. Perfectly matching with my high heels..

A necklace to enhance the beauty of the gown..

Looking at the mirror... I never thought that I’d be wearing this dress for anyone else other than Usher.. But here I’m ..

In this wedding gown... Going to walk down the aisle.. For my best friend.

“Momma....! You look like fairy...” my two year old entered the room with my mom.. And jumped on my lap.. Cheerful pulling my cheeks he complimented me..

My mother eyes were teary..

Walking Close to me and cupping my cheeks, she kissed my forehead.

“You deserve everything in this world my love.” She said and hugged me..

“I don’t want to intervene but my lovely ladies.. It’s time now.. Zara...allow your father to let you walk down the aisle..” my father said coughing while entering the room and standing next to us.. And offering his hands to me..

I took his hands and smiled..

We reached down.. The Hall..

The Hall looked mesmerizing.. Decorated in Lilly and Jasmine.. Centre stage decorated with lavender and a water fountain behind it... Liam remembered everything quite nicely.. He has made the hall look exactly like the way I want it..

My father gently started walking me down the aisle.. Zurich was walking in front of me throwing rice..I could see Greg at one side, standing and looking at me with admiration..

My mom standing at the other corner and blessing me with her teary eyes..

And in the centre stage stood Liam.. Looking handsome as ever..

When I reached up the stage.. My father handed my hand in Liam’s.. He kissed the back side of my hand and gently assisted me to climb up on stage..

Everyone stood at their place... Maya was my bridesmaid..

She came and cleared everything that it was just a fling and she wants me to be happy with Liam... I love her.. I can’t be upset with her.. And I wasn’t.. It was not at all her fault..

The priest started reading the vows..

“ Do you Zara, accept this man Liam knights as your wedded husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish till death do you both apart according to gods holy ordinance.”

Taking Liam’s hand in mine and suppressing all thoughts of Usher..

“ I do...” smiling I announced..

The priest repeated the same for Liam..

Liam took a longer pause than required... And after that...

“ No father..” he said... Shocking me and everyone.. I stood dead in my tracks. I literally gasped when he said those words..

Everyone stood there shocked ,bemused.. By his action..

Freeing his hand from my grip he slowly walked out of the Hall.. While I kept calling him.. Asking him why...?

Ignoring my calling... Leaving me heartbroken and in tears.. ..! He left...!