Zara

Zara's POV...

Liam was looking at me, disgust flashing in his eyes, I know I have hurt him.

Watching Usher here, he must be thinking that I only asked him to get married because of usher granted he is one of the reasons.. But not the only reason. I have been thinking about it quite long before Usher’s arrival.. But right now no explanation would ever be enough to convince Liam that, I’m not completely guilty..

Slowly shaking his head in despair “ Call me if you need anything .” Liam said giving one last deathly glare in Usher’s direction and left..

I stood there frozen. Zurich was in emergency ward, Liam walking out of here and usher standing in front of me.. It was too much for me to take in.. Breaking, I slumped down on the floor.

Usher rushed towards me and picked me up, and guided me on a seat.. I was too overwhelmed to speak. Leaving me there he left to give blood to Zurich.

I sat there and sobbed, poured all my tears out..

Soon usher came back after giving blood..

My mind was in total shock, thinking that I’d lost Liam’s trust all because of Usher.. I know that he is the reason that Zurich is safe now.. But he is also the reason that I have been hurting liam from time to time on and off..

Looking at him made me realise how wrong I’m to do this to liam..

“ why the hell did you came... Ha.. Why the hell are you even here... Who gave you the right to barge back into our life’s.” Ignoring the fact that I was in hospital I yelled at usher..

He looked unaffected but walked up to me , clasping my hand , he dragged me out of the hospital.. Into the parking area..

“ What is wrong with you..? Don’t you know you are in a hospital.. You can’t scream like that..?” usher said.

Freeing my hands from his grip..

“ Really what is wrong with me.... You.... You are the one who is wrong... With me... Can’t you clearly see that.. I don’t want you.. Anymore.. Why don’t you go back to where you ran away three years ago..” I angrily barked at him

Something took over him, he looked a little timid, shaking his head..

“ I’m sorry Zara, for what I did.. I know no apology is enough to compensate the loss that I have caused you... But trust me if I had to die even to take that back.. I won’t think twice.” Looking down on the ground he said in a low voice..

“ sorry,.!... You are sorry after long three years... ! Do you have any idea what I have been through in these past three years.. I died everyday Usher... Hoped that one day you’ll return to me.. But I only lived to see that hope die too.. When you obviously were being the coward you are, and hiding from the world or I don’t know may be you were enjoying someone’s else company.I was here crying my heart out. Now.. When I’m going to start my new life with liam... You showed up to destroy my happiness one more time..” I felt a little less burdened after pouring out my heart.. I have been burying this anger deep inside my heart since last three years finally pouring them out in front of the man who is responsible made me feel relaxed..

He looked hurt after hearing me, I felt a bit bad... But he brought up on his self. He totally deserve this..

“ This is what you think of me.. That I was with someone else... I fucking died everyday Zara.. I was in no better condition than you. I was crying, drowning myself into drugs and alcohol and was almost at the verge of killing myself until Jonah found me..” He almost screamed at me ...

What.! He turned to drugs...? Holy hell but he is the one to be blamed..

“ Don’t say it like I did this to you... You brought this up on your self , you ran away Usher... You....!

You did not just hurt yourself but you hurt all of us.. Just because you could not digest the truth... You decided to hide... This isn’t fair with the people who love you... You didn’t thought what your mother went through to keep you safe... You didn’t even thought about what I went through... You just thought about your self..”

I angrily stated...

Bowing down his head like a gesture of accepting the mistake, Usher heard me..

“ I know Zara... I lived with that guilt everyday after I was out from rehab... I know no explanation can ever justify what I did was right cause it was not... I know I was wrong... I don’t know why my mind was not able to take it all..but I’m sorry love... I’m sorry for how I treated you... For how I hurt you..” he looked to fragile... His eyes were gleaming with tears all along while he was telling me all..

I wanted to wipe away his worries but then I’ll be cheating on liam... I don’t want anymore argument, I know now nothing could change... I can’t trust him again and I can’t hurt Liam one more time..

I have to make it up to Liam..

Shaking my head at usher, I pulled out my cell phone from my pocket and dialled Liam’s number.

But before the call could connect, Usher came from behind and snatched my phone..

“ What the hell! Give me my phone back..” I sternly said..

“ No you’ll have to listen to me first... Why I’m back... Zara I didn’t came here to destroy your happiness, I knew that one day you’ll marry him.. Even though you being with someone else that thought alone is abhorrent for me.. But watching You...” before he could finish...

“ enough usher, I don’t want to know why you are back and no matter how you feel.. I’ll be marrying Liam that too so soon..” I said ignoring his plea..

But then.. He grabbed my hands and dragged me inside his car..

“ Are you insane... ? Let me go.. Are you really out of your head..? Zurich is in the hospital... Where the hell are you taking me..” I Screamed at him..

But he didn’t even flinched.,walking from the other side he got inside the driver seat..

“ Jonah is here, he’ll look after Zurich... I want you to come with me...” Simply stating that he started driving while I was still protesting...

“ I’ll never go anywhere with you..” I angrily barked at him..

And started pushing the door forcefully to open it up.. While Usher was constantly speeding up the pace of the drive..

I pushed the door damn too hard that I jolted crashing on the glass of the car window..

Usher halt the car all of a sudden.. After watching me getting hurt..

“ God! Woman... You are insane..” he frustratingly stated.. And pulled me towards him.. Looking at my forehead with concern and gently caressing the spot that I crashed a moment ago.. On the window..

But then something travelled between us.. And before anyone of us can realize.. What was actually happening... I crashed my lips on his.

This is what I have been craving for since last three years... This raw hunger... This touch of skin on skin..

Usher wasting no time, hovered over me and started kissing me passionately.. I was to drowned in the moment to think about wrong and right.. Slowly usher removed all the barrier between us.... Now we were all skin to skin.. I was breathing him..

He was driving me to an island of pleasure while I was reeling in his touch...our touch turned frantic.. Our kisses feverish..

This is what makes me feel contended.. This is what my happy place looks like... I missed him.. And this is the proof that no man can ever take his place..it’s him or no one..

This reality was brutal.. Once we both were tired of driving each other wild inside the car.. I was feeling guilty I felt filthy for cheating on liam..

“ Go ahead Zara and deny what we had just now.. I know I was wrong when I left you and I’m so damn sorry... But you know there’s no else for both of us... We are it.. For each other..” usher said.. Gently planting a kiss on my lips..

Ohh... God... What did I do....?.. I cheated on liam.... I pushed usher , straightening up my clothes, I..unlocked the car door and ran...

I could hear Usher was calling me... But I ignored.

Usher stopped the car to some remote locations.. After running for a while... I saw.. Two people.. Lying on the grass in the park.. In this remote area...making out..they looked a bit familiar... After having a closer look... When I actually got to know who it was... I was.... Astounded....