Usher

Three years it took me bloody three years to realize how wrong I was to leave her.

She was and is my everything.. How can I do that to her..

I know after the truth was revealed,my pride was destroyed.. I feared that I'll turn out to be my father.. I loathed myself at that moment. How can I give her the world when I'm the part of that man who disheveled her world.

I feared that I'll start hating my mom for lying to me . I sort of started hating her when I first got to know the truth. She could have avoided it all, by telling me the truth..

She could have saved me from Jason. She could have saved me from getting exploited but she lied.. Now I finally know why Jason hated me. He didn't hated me but what he saw in me... Luke.. He saw a Luke in me.. That's why he always called me son of the monster..

My world was destroyed, I could not see myself the same. I knew that leaving her was so wrong but if I had stayed back then.. I would have destroyed her I know I would have.. The shock was too huge.. For me to digest. To save her from getting more hurt than she already is.. I left her. I'm no good for her.. She is too golden for someone like me.. How can she live with me after knowing that I'm the son of the man who raped her mother and even tried to kill her.. I know she does not find me guilty but the pain is unendurable.. I'm not as great as Zara... I'll never be able to live with this fact..

After an year Jonah found me in a village of Africa where I was trying hell hard to get Zara out of my system I don't even remember how I got to Africa all the way from US..... I was mentally disturbed. Not being with Zara was killing me ,to avoid the pain I turned towards drugs and alcohol.... I was already turned into a drug addict when Jonah found me. I was at the verge of killing myself..when he finally rescued me. He is like a guiding angel for me.. He took me to rehab and even looked after my company and mom in my absence.

After an year in the rehab I was finally cured.. I hated being there but Jonah always boosted me up by saying if I want to be with Zara then I have to go through this.

Once I was out my whole soul moto was to find Zara and be with her and my son. I know I'm a father now ... Well a pathetic father who left his son even before he was born.

But Jonah stopped me telling all about that happened after I left. How miserable Zara was and how Liam supported her.. Now finally she is at peace so I should not interfere in her life..

Bloody nonsense! She can not move on... I'm not able to.. Then how could she..

But when I actually saw her in Washington.. She really was contended in her new life.. Jonah was right. After the way he told me how miserable she was for an year and now when I look at her I guess I'm really no good for her.

She looked more beautiful than ever. Being a mother really increased her charm... I hate that bloody Liam.. I knew one day that bastard is going to steal her away . And he did..

Watching her with him was painful.. I even got to know that she wasn't married to him yet.. But was planning to.

The thought of her being married to him was abhorrent for me.. But for her happiness I can bear it.. I already have hurt her enough.. Now I have no rights to destroy her happiness..

But when I got to know about that Liam... That bloody prick was hiding a huge secret from Zara... I can't let him betray Zara like that... No way..! She has been hurt enough... Though I have been the reason but I won't allow anyone else to break her again.. Not even me..

My earlier thoughts of staying away vanished as soon I found about that pricks dirty secrets.

I didn't thought I would be doing that.. But to get back in her life I bought the publication house she was working for.. And barged back into her life... To make her mine... Forever... And this time I'm not leaving , nothing could make me leave my girl..

Being here and holding my son in my arms was like heaven.. I didn't thought that he would get along so quickly.. But he did.. While I was playing with Zurich ,I heard shuffling of door knob and some how j knew it was Zara..

I could feel her gaze on my back when I was rocking my son in my arms..

My son was really getting along with me.. He was beautiful.. His eyes were just like Zara..

Giggling my son exclaimed" momma... "

And I turned around...

She was looking breath taking.. Beautiful.. Her hazel eyes glowing.. Her shining face fresh as daisy.. She was looking heavenly.. Watching her after this long from so close was a blessing..

She was looking at me fully shocked.. Her eyes were bulging out... I expected her to shout at me and even slap me... But what she did... Was some thing unexpected.....