Chapter 15

Just as I expected, I heard hurtful words from him again. I'm not surprised anymore, but I can't help but feel hurt. It's obvious that he doesn't really care about my feelings.

"Why are you forcing yourself, Camilla? How long are you going to force yourself on me?!" he asked with a frow

"Ransom, I'm begging you, that's enough." I begged him.

"How can I stop if I see your face every day?" he asked firmly.

"Wait, aren't you the one who asked me to marry you? Why am I always wrong?!” I asked emphatically.

"I just have no choice," he answered firmly.

My chest was very tight and I could barely breathe at that time. I wouldn't have pushed myself if he hadn't gotten me pregnant. I will do everything for the sake of our child.

"We're just the same, Ransom," I told him, crying.

"Damn it!"he cursed and stormed off.

I took a deep breath to calm myself down. I don't want to affect the child in my womb again. I

again. I heard Lydia's voice behind me. I turned to her and she came to me. She looked at me with a smile and invited me to have a snack.

"You better taste the cupcakes I made,Ma'am" Lydia said with a smile.

"Do you know how to make cupcakes?" I asked.

"Of course. I really studied making desserts so that when they have guests, they can offer a snack. They don't need to buy," Lydia replied with a smile.

"Mom and dad are very lucky to have you,Lydia" I said to her with a smile.

She smiled at what I said and we went to the kitchen to have a snack. She helped me sit on the chair. Somehow my mood lightened because I felt that I was not alone at that time.

He put down a plate with only three cupcakes. I smiled at her because it looked delicious.

"Taste it, Ma'am,"she said with a smile.

"Alright," I replied with a smile.

When I tasted it, a smile reached my ears. The cupcakes she made were so delicious and it looks like I have a new favorite food.

"Looks like I have a new favorite, Lydia" I said, smiling at her.

"Did you like it?"She asked with a smile.

"Isn't it obvious?" I asked, smiling back at her.

She smiled at what I said and we had a good time talking. Our conversation turned to her family. I felt envious of her relationship with her husband. She is very lucky with her wife and children. I wish she would have come; it's also time for me to have a complete and happy family.

I didn't realize that my tears were falling while listening to her. Lydia noticed it and apologized to me. She thought she had said something bad.

"Did I say something bad, ma'am?"She asked confused.

"No, Lydia. I was just happy while listening to your story," I answered with a smile.

"But why are you crying?" She asked.

"Maybe I'm such an emotional person. The relationship between you and your husband is enviable. I hope that the day will come when I will also have a happy family," I answered and was forced to smile at her.

"The baby will come out soon, Ma'am. One day you and Sir Ransom will be a happy family," she said with a smile.

"Do you think one day we will learn to love each other?" I asked.

Lydia was surprised by my question, and I admitted everything to her. I had a lot of trust in her, so I didn't think twice about admitting the truth. It was like I was going to explode with the burden of my heart at that time.

"I have no choice, Lydia. I don't want my child to be like me. I want to give her a whole family," I said, emotional.

"I am impressed by your sacrifice ma'am. But you know it is possible for you to love each other. It is not difficult to love Sir Ransom. He is so very kind but his attitude changed when he was cheated and left by his ex-fiancée,"she replied.

I was surprised by what I heard from her. I became interested in knowing about Ransom's past. It wasn't easy for him to go through with that woman. Imagine how that woman ruined his plans for both of them. And the worst thing is that his best friend betrayed him. It's crazy to think about what he went through, so now I understand him even more.

I had more reason to understand him more despite his bad behavior.

"Sir Ransom was really hurt and his world almost collapsed during those times. He still fought for their relationship but she still left him. The worst part was that he was replaced with his best friend," Lydia said.

"Everything would have been planned but Samantha just wasted everything. Eight years were wasted because of a betrayal. And I witnessed his breakdown and being miserable during those times, Ma'am," she added.

"I don't know. I don't know what to say either, Lydia. I can't imagine how much Samantha hurt him," I replied.

"I might even go crazy, Ma'am. Sir Ransom is just brave man,"she said with a smile.

"You are right and thank you for saying that. At least I have more reason why I need to understand him," I smiled in gratitude.

"But can it be just us, Ma'am? I hope Sir Ransom doesn't find out that I told you," she replied softly in a worried tone of voice.

"No problem, Lydia. You can hope that our conversation will remain a secret," I assured her.

We smiled at each other and it really lightens the mood when you can talk to someone. When someone understands you in times when you need someone to talk to.

A few moments later, Lydia said goodbye to go back to her work. I said goodbye to her and went to the room. I slowly walked up the stairs because I had to be careful for the baby. My belly is growing and I will only have to wait a few months to see my child.

When I entered the room, I first sat on the bed and thought of going to the Veranda.

I sat opposite while looking at their garden below. I inhaled the fresh air around me while thinking. I caressed my belly and talked to my baby. He is my strength and inspiration to live. In that one night's mistake, he was the only right I did.

"Baby, I'm sure your daddy will be happy when you get out," I said with a smile while stroking my stomach.

"Let's just be patient with him now because he's going through something and also stressed at work. But I'm sure he'll be a responsible and loving father to you," I added.

I took a deep breath and tried to smile while looking at my stomach. I can't wait to see my baby. Maybe it's like that when you become a mother for the first time.

Later on, I thought of taking a shower first to freshen up my body. I feel like I'm weak because of the heat of the weather even though the Aircon is on. I feel really hot and maybe this is what it's like when you're pregnant.

I prepared something to wear before entering the bathroom to take a shower. I closed my eyes while feeling the water flowing through my body.It was so very relaxing and it helps me relieve my stress.

But suddenly the door opened and I was very surprised to see the very handsome face of my husband.