Chapter 71: Abyss 2

Reene’s pov

“First your mother abandoned you, she left you all alone” a voice said.

“But my mother loved me, she must have had her reasons” I replied which made the voice chuckle at this.

“You are naïve, someone like you wont be able to understand such things.

But if she loved you then why didn’t she send even a letter?

Do you know why she left you?

Because you don’t deserve to be loved” the voice said.

is it true

? Is that why even my coven members didn’t like me as well?

No, it’s not true, Viola loved me, “the one who wanted to kill you?

The friend who conspired against you which led to your death?” the voice in my head.

Maybe Viola didn’t love after all, but there are others who loved me.

My grandmother loved me; she was always there for me.

“Or maybe she saw her daughter in you, after all your mother left both of you and she was just using you to fill the empty space that your mother left” the voice answered.

Is it true?

Is it true that no one loved me?

“What about Logan? He loves me and I know that.

He married me and marked me as his mate.

I know that he loves me” I said, and the voice started laughing again.

“He has been making people’s lives miserable for years.

He has lived as a monster who wanted nothing but to survive.

In order to do that he has killed a lot of witches and not to forget how much he hates witches.

You think that you could make him forget all his hatred and love you?” the voice asked me.

I don’t care what it says, I don’t care what anyone says but I know that Logan loved me.

I know that he still loves me wherever he is which is why I died for him.

“You think he is capable of love?

Maybe he knew the entire truth about the link between you two.

That in order to get you two unlinked you had to want to die and for him to live.

Maybe that is why he pretended to love you” the voice said.

“Enough, stop feeding me nonsense and come out where I can see you. Stop hiding in the darkness like some coward” I said.

I looked around and my eyes landed on the person who was saying all these things.

Its me, I am the one who has been saying all these things.

“Who are you? Why do you look like me?” I asked her and she smiled.

“I am you; I am the you that you shoved away because you wanted to act like a saint” she said.

I could feel it and looking at her, I could see it as well, she is it, she is the darkness that has been hiding inside me.

“Yes I am the darkness that has been hiding inside you. I am the one who has been swallowing all those terrible things.

The pain and loneliness you have been feeling in your life. So how dare you call me a coward?” she asked looking straight into my eyes.

“You are the coward, you shoved me aside because you were scared. You were scared of what you would do went you?” she asked me.

“Get out of my head, get out, and I don’t need you.

I am sorry that you had to swallow all that pain and darkness, but you can rest now.

You are not needed anymore” I said and closed my eyes.

“Fine, lets see how you survive without me” she said, and I opened my eyes, and she was gone.

“Now the real fun begins” I heard other voices said coming from all over the place.

The voices were sinister, “we are coming after you, run little girl” I could hear them say.

What is happening?

Where the hell am I?

I thought I was dead.

Wait am I hell?

How is it even possible?

How did someone like me land in hell?

I have never even hurt a fly;

I spent all my life in service of others.

I am not saying I am saint, but I can’t be in hell.

I eventually got tired of running and hiding, wherever I am this place is full of creatures.

I can feel it, I can feel the danger all around me.

Surrounding me like some blanket and this fear.

I am constantly in fear that I don’t even know how to describe it at all.

If I am not hiding then I am alone and not in a good way.

I am alone, cold, and hungry with a deafening silence that threatens to break me into pieces.

I can’t live like this forever.

If I am dead then it means that I will be stuck here in this place forever.

I tolerated living In pain when I was alive, I wont tolerate it even when I am dead.

Hell no, I refuse.

Hell, it feels like I have been forever, starving and feeling cold. A part of me wanted to hold on, I wanted the memories of the people I loved to keep me warm. But I have replayed them so many times in my head that they don’t do it anymore. It’s like I have been playing that one song that I can’t even stand it anymore. What is this? Is this hell? How will I survive? Why couldn’t I just die and disappear like I always wanted? “Let me, let me swallow all that darkness” the voice came back. “Will all this pain be gone?” I asked her and she showed up and nodded. “Everything will be gone; all that pain and you will finally be free. Just take my hand and we will both be free” she said, and I nodded. I put my hands in hers, I will finally be free after this right? But what is freedom really? what will I be free from? I slowly opened my eyes, wait why am I opening my eyes? I am dead aren’t I? “Welcome back to the world of the living Reene” that man said the moment I opened my eyes. Huh so I really am back from the dead which could only mean one thing. I am an immortal witch, so the universe or whatever god there is out there decided one lifetime of misery isn’t enough. “What brings you here? you are responsible for my death. So, give me one reason I shouldn’t kill you where you stand” I said, and he smirked. “Well, you can try, do you know what the good thing about being like us is?” he asked pointing between me and him. “It’s the fact that we cant be killed, we are immortal” he said with a smirk. “You are still even as annoying as ever. What do you want now? Its not like you can kill me for the second time” I said, and he smirked.

“I wouldn’t be able to, you are now more powerful than ever. Hell, more than me, haven’t you sensed?” he asked.

He is right, I feel really powerful, and it feels amazing.

This power just at the tip of my fingers but along with that power I don’t feel anything else.

Only this anger and hatred, I cant even sense a little shred of light.

It honestly feel great, as if I had this load on my shoulders and now its completely gone.

No need to feel stupid emotions that only weigh me down.

And also, these memories.

I have all my old memories but now they feel like another life.

As if I was just watching someone else living this life and it wasn’t me.

I felt detached from them, which means all that pain I experienced doesn’t feel like mine anyone.

What is this feeling?

This amazing feeling?

Is this what freedom feels like?

Is this really what it is like to be truly free from emotional attachments and feelings?

Well, if it is then I am glad I will be living forever like this.

If I can spend the rest of my life as this new me who doesn’t care about anything,

and anyone then forever can really feel like a minute.

“You need to come with us” he said, and I looked at him. Lucas King, who the hell does he think he is.

“Just because I cant kill me doesn’t mean I wont have fun trying” I said, and he chuckled.

“Why would I come with you?” I asked him.

“Well look around you, for one is that you are one of us now.

And secondly is you don’t have a place to go” he said.

“You seem to have forgotten; I am married woman” I said which made him chuckle even more.

“That Is true, but you must have felt it already. You are not the Reene that married that Lycan boy” he said, and he is right.

“We will show you how to live your new life and how to handle all that power you have now.

What do you say?

Want to join your kind and learn what it is like to be at the top of the food chain?” he asked.

To be the top of the food chain? What is that like huh?