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CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND
ELEVEN
AURORA'S P.O.V
He looked like he wanted to say more but I raised my eyes, glaring even more, so he stepped back.
"I'm sorry, I know I overstepped my boundaries. It's just that I've always liked you from the day I saw you. Then it started morphing into somethinh more, even after I knew you were never going to be mine. It's foolish, I know, but I somehow kept the hope that Lucian might screw up and I might get the chance to have you. But...I guess it's just not meant to be."
My anger dissipated as I listened to him. He had the most saddest look on his face, his voice held so much loneliness and despair, I took a step closer. Another step, until I was close enough to place a hand on his shoulder.
"Kieran. I appreciate you finding me worthy of your affections but...I'm not the obe for you. I'm sure somewhere out there, a beautiful woman is waiting for you, her mate. The moon goddess brought Lucian to me and I'm sure she will bring you to your mate, you just have to be patient. So, please dont let me hear you say things lke this, ever again. Okay?"
He stared at me for a while, his eyes misty and shinning. A weak chuckle escaped him, he lowered his head.
"I guess he wins now. He's a lucky guy."
I smiled.
"I guess so. You better leave quickly, so that he doesn't find out about this and go bonkers."
"He won't. Go bonkers, I mean."
I laughed.
"How do you know? He's always wary of you."
A sheepush look crossed his feature, he scratched the back of his beck.
"Yeah, about that....he knows about this."
"What?"
"Yeah, he sort of gave me the permission to come ask you about...my feelings and if you had feelings for me too."
I balked at him, my mouth hanging open.
"What!"
"It's true. He didn't want to but I made him a deal. One that he couldn't back out of."
My heart started beating frantically fast, my breath coming out choppy. I opened my mouth and spoke with a bit if difficulty.
"What was the deal?"
He licked his lips and looked away.
"If you accepted me, he would let you go but if you didn't, I had to let you go. But it all worked out in the end right? You choose him, not me."
I felt like I’d been punched in the gut. My wolf snarled inside me, her hackles raised. How could he? I thought, my mind racing. How could Lucian let him ask me this? Does he not trust me? Does he not trust us? Or is it that he never believed I could love him? Was this my fault? It might have been my fault, I never told him I loved him. But still...he had no right to do this.
"Aurora, I'm sorry about this. I didn't..."
“Save it,” I cut him off, my voice cold. “You’re not the one I’m angry at right now. Go. Just… go. Please.”
He nodded, his eyes downcast, and turned to leave. As he walked away, I felt my wolf’s anger still burning inside me. I turned back to look out at the stars, my mind already on Lucian. I needed to talk to him. Now. I left my room in a flash, headed outside where I knew he would be. How do I know, don't ask me, it's the mate bond...and maybe my anger added into the mix.
I found him outside, a far distance away from the pack house. He stood still, his back to me as he stared out into the night. I marched up to him, my face squeezed in a frown and spoke, my voice low and intense.
“Lucian, we need to talk,” I said, my eyes locked on his back. “Now.”
He turned around quickly, as if I started him. His eyes went wide and I could see the surprise in his eyes as he stared at me. I even noticed him looking behind me, searching. What was he searching for? Kieran? Did he actually think I would leave him and accept Kieran? I don't even love the guy.
“Aurora? Aurora, you're here." He sounded shocked and unsure at the same time. "What's the...”
“Don’t ‘what’s’ me,” I snapped, my anger finally boiling over. “How could you?" He even had tge guts to look confused, his eyes blinking rapidly, I felt like screaming. "How could you let Kieran ask me that? How could you think for a second that I’d ever say yes to him? Do you not trust me? Do you not trust us?”
He took a step back, his shoulders suddenly deflating while he put a hand over his mouth.
"Oh, my god, Aurora...you...you didn't accept him? I'm so happy." He rushed forward, his eyes gleaming with unshed tears. "Please, listen to me. I..."
“No, you listen to me,” I said, my voice rising. “You don't get to decide who I be with, who I'm in love with and who i choose to be with. Because I choose you. I’m with you. I’m in love with you. My wolf wants you. And you...you let someone else ask me out? You should’ve been the one to tell him no. You should’ve stood up for me. For us.”
He stared at me, his face frozen. For a while his mouth kept opening and closing until he shook his head, letting out a deep breath. His eyes filled with regret.
"I’m sorry. I was being stupid. I thought… I don’t know what I thought. Desmond...he put this stupid thought in my head that you might not like me but instead like Kieran. And considering that you never gave me the indication that you loved me, or maybe you did...I don't know. I became a coward. I didn't want you to spend your life with me, regretting that you had to choose me. So...so when he came up with his request...I let him do it. And I'm sorry, for being stupid and a coward." His voice softened, his eyes pleading with me. "I shouldn't have let my fear control me. I should’ve trusted you. I should’ve trusted us.”
I took a deep breath, my anger still there but starting to cool. “You’re damn right you should’ve. Don’t ever do something like that again. I’m with you, Lucian. And I expect you to be with me, fully. I love you.”
His mouth parted again this time with a grin, he stepped closer until I had to tip my head back to look at his face. His eyes stared with love back at me, I felt a warm hand reach to take mine. He raised it, his eyes still on mine and slowly kissed the back of my palm. I felt shiver shooting up my spine at the action. It felt so sensual and sexy at the same time.
"Did you say you love me? You...you really love me?"
He looked so eager, so desperate, his eyes wide and hopeful. I smiled, raising my hand to caress his face. I guess I had to prove it to him then.
"I Aurora Steel, hereby accept you, Lucian Vanguh, as my mate."