Chapter 6 Chapter 6
It felt like a part of me was removed, it took me some seconds to get myself and that's when I heard the applause around me and Marie was beside Lorcan with the biggest smile on her face. I didn't realize I was still transfixed to a spot and when I got myself I ran and I heard Lorcans' voice.
"Ally wait" he shouted after I had entered the garden and I stopped and turned around and that's when I saw Marie was with him. The tears were falling freely from my eyes and I barely managed to utter a word and I didn't even know they heard me.
"Why?" I said with tears running down my face.
"I should have done this since. I couldn't tell you that you were not fit to be my Luna. I knew it would break you"
"And you think this is not breaking me now? Did you think it would have been better to disgrace me?" And then I turned to Marie.
"How long?"
"Since we turned eighteen" I staggered back a little. I felt so stupid. They had been seeing each other for that long and I was not aware.
"So why did you pretend like you hate him"
"It was just an act so you wouldn't know we were involved"
"I thought we were best friends. I thought you were on my side and when I came to you with my problems. I'm sure you laughed after I was gone. You laughed at how foolish I was. All this time you wanted me to leave him so you could have him. Why?" My tone went a bit higher. She scoffed.
"He was mine first before you came in and snatched him away from me" She looked at me with contempt and she wasn't even sorry. I clapped my hands.
"You both have done well. I just have one question for you Lorcan. Did you ever love me?"
"At first, I thought I did but then I realized I loved you like a sister"
"Did you think I was your sister when you were making love to me?" He was silent and I hated myself more for being stupid. I should have noticed the signs but I just overlooked them because I was stupidly in love.
"I didn't mean to hurt you, Ally. I just didn't know how to tell you"
"That is your excuse? You had lots of opportunities to tell me but you didn't" I screamed at him. He tried to touch me but I moved back.
"Don't. Marie, you knew all this while, and....thinking back you said maybe those feelings were one-sided. I should have known then" I said feeling more stupid and then I remembered something.
"All the time Lorcan didn't come back. He spent the time with you right?" I asked and he nodded.
"Then that morning I came to your place. He was there too"
"Yes. Look, it's not my fault Lorcan doesn't love you and I'm the one he loves. Live with it"
It was now that I knew Marie's true character, she is vile and evil. How could I not have seen this before or was I too blinded by trust?
"I'm so sorry Ally"
"You don't have any right to call me any pet names again. Just go....Go inside and enjoy your party. I wish both of you the best and I hope you have a happy life together" I said the last part with venom. I didn't mean anything I said, I wished their lives would be filled with misery and they'll suffer for their betrayal.
The two people I loved the most were the ones to betray me.
"Let's go back inside" Marie was tugging Lorcan's arm but he was still looking at me, pity written all over his face. I didn't want his pity. I just wanted him to get the hell out of my sight.
I ran to my room and shut the door locking it and I fell on the floor. I broke down in tears, they were pouring out like a stream, the tears were nothing compared to the pain I was feeling in my heart. It was just like someone had pulled my heart from my chest. I started replaying the events from the past few weeks and I felt foolish. The signs were right in front of me and I ignored them, even the servants knew. Everyone knew except me because I was foolish. The goody-shoes who thought everyone was good. That was me.
I'm sure everyone would be laughing at me because of how foolish I was.
"Dad. Where are you? Please come and take this pain away from me" I screamed in the air. And then I remembered my wolf, I was so caught in my sadness that I didn't call out to her. I tried calling out to her but she didn't answer.
'Please don't leave me too' I silently prayed. I wouldn't bear it if she left because I was alone in this world.
'I-I'm h-here" she whispered in my head and I heaved a sigh of relief.
'We'll be fine' she assured me. Even though I badly wanted to believe her I couldn't. I don't think we'll ever bounce back from this.
'Lorcan is not worth our tears. Clean your eyes and let's find a solution'
'What do you think?'
'I don't know yet'
I lay on my bed in a fetal position and I didn't know when I drifted off to sleep. I woke up to a pounding on my door.
"Ally, open the door. I need to speak with you" Lorcan said but I ignored him. Events of last night came back to me with a full force. The betrayal.
"We need to talk please" he added and I still didn't respond. He could knock for all I care. I don't want to see him again and then I heard a voice.
Run away.
I looked around to see if someone had spoken to me and I asked my wolf but she said she didn't say anything. Was this a sign?
"I'll be back Ally" There was no knock again and after he went. I started sobbing again and when a servant came to bring food I sent her away. I didn't have any appetite.
I fell asleep again and when I woke up, the sun had already set. I felt weak but I stood up and went to the window. I heard the voice again.
Run away.
I looked around again and saw no one and I thought about it. I couldn't remain in this pack, I can't bear to see the person I loved the most with my best friend. It's going to be difficult to accept it.
'Where would we go?' My wolf asked but I didn't have the answer to that question. Anything was better than being here.
I opened the door and walked to the front door and that's when I saw Lorcan coming straight to where I was. I didn't think and started running and he chased me.
"Ally. Stop" he shouted but I didn't slow down and he caught up with me. He held my wrist strongly to prevent me from escaping.
"Where are you going to without telling me?"
"I'm leaving" For a moment I thought I saw longing in his eyes but I knew better than to believe Lorcan's expression.
"To where. Without informing me?" I could hear the anger in his tone.
"Why should I tell you where I'm going. It's not like it's your business"
"Ailsa. I'm the alpha and if you are leaving the pack, you should run it by me first, or else you become a rogue"
"That's better than staying here"
"I'm not going to let you leave. Come back to the pack house and we'll talk about it" I used all my strength to free myself from his grasp.
"I don't care if I become a rogue Lorcan. I'm not spending another day in this pack so just let me go. The goddess helps me, if you try to stop me again. I won't be responsible for what I'll do" I threatened him and that made him step back. He knew what I was capable of and just because I hadn't been fighting didn't mean I had forgotten how.
"You'll regret it," he said angrily but I turned around and continued running deep into the forest. I kept on running till I was out of breath and I rested for a while before I continued. It was dark and I didn't know how far I had gone, I slept under a tree, and before the crack of dawn, I continued my journey. I finally reached a stream and I stopped to drink water.
Suddenly, the hairs on my back rose and I became alert and before I knew it, I was held by two strong arms.
"We've caught you rogue," one of the men said in my ear.
"I'm not a rogue, I didn't know this was a pack. If you'll just let me go, I'll leave your pack immediately"
"We can't let a rogue go without meeting the Alpha"
"Who is your Alpha?"
"Alpha Lucian of the Shadow pack"