Chapter 20 (Lose)

Well it’s now or never.

I’m going to tell him everything. From the time we met in the ball till now. Everything is going to be out in the open. No matter what happens, this was my choice and I have to accept the consequences. Even if he never speaks to me again I will have to find peace in that.

"I have not been fully honest with you..."

"Everyone has their secrets. You can tell me anything." He smiles. His eyes are full of light and I’m going to be the person responsible for taking that away.

"I’m-" Right when I’m about to tell anything. There is a knock on the door.

"Quick Hide!" I whisper scream to him.

He looks around frantically. Doesn’t this situation seem too familiar? Ahh that time when Noe came. I was laughing inside my head because of that incident.

He finally finds a place to hide. He goes inside my cupboard and locks himself inside. I walk up to the door and speak.

"Who is it?" I ask.

"It's Raymond. The guard." Ahh yes. The kind and well... handsome guard.

"One second." I say just to give me time to look around and see if anything is out of the ordinary.

I open the door slowly and take a step back. The gives enough space for Raymond or Ray to enter the room.

"Hi." He smiles.

"Hello. How are you? Is everything alright?" I ask him. I just get a little bit scared as I don’t know why he is here.

"Oh Nothings wrong." He says to reassure me. Thank god!

"It’s just that... I came to see if you’re alright." He asks while rubbing the back of his head. I guess it’s a habit which comes out only when he is nervous.

"Oh yes I’m fine." I say to him a and smile.

"Okay then. I uhh... I better get going." He rubs the back of his head again. He gets nervous all the time doesn’t he?

"Wait!" I yell. A little too much...

He turns around a little startled.

"Oh I umm just wanted to thank you for all that you have done. Is there anything I can do for you? It’s just that you helped me at a time I needed most." I smile genuinely. If only I had my tittle I would have done so much more to thank him.

"It’s okay you don’t need to do anything for me. It was my duty."  He says. I knew he would say that but I’d feel really guilty for not doing anything at all for him.

"Well... there is one thing." He says while rubbing his chin.

"Anything." I smile.

"Have dinner with me? Only if you want to that is-" I cut him off before he could say anything else.

"It would be my pleasure." I smile.

With that he waves bye and so do I. Opps. I almost forgot that there is someone inside the room!

I immediately go to the cupboard and knock it.

"You can come out now." I say.

He does come out but like a completely different person. He seemed angry and just irritated.

"What’s wrong?" I really couldn’t figure it out. Was it because he is claustrophobic?

"It WoUlD bE mY PlEaSuRe." He mocks at me.

"What?" I say in a quite irritated tone.

"Oh come on! He was clearly flirting with you!" What!? No!

"No! I was just thanking him!" Well I guess this is our second fight. Not that I’m counting...

"For what exactly?" 

"He just helped me a lot when I got injured. I just wanted to thank him! Why are you assuming things?" I yell.

"Okay, if you’re thanking him then why does he ask to go to dinner with you? What does that have to do with anything?" I really did not know.

"Okay, even if he is flirting with me, He still helped me. I am not flirting with him right? Then what is your Problem? Do you not trust me?"

"It’s not you that I don’t trust that dog face!" He tries to come up with an insult but just failed.

"Dog face?" 

"That’s all that I could come up with in the last minute! Okay!"  He yells with embarrassment. He is just too cute sometimes.

"Ohhh I see what’s going on here." I smirk and he looks at me confused.

"Are you jealous?!" With the look in his face I knew what I said was the complete and utter truth

"No! Why would I be jealous! I’m soon to be king! Why do I have to be jealous of a dog face guard?" He frowns. Awww He. Is. So . Cute.

"You are jealous!" I smile a little too much. No one has been this fond of me that they would be jealous.

He just frowns and I wrap my arms around his neck and bring him down to my level.

"You have nothing to be jealous of Reece. I love you. No one else." I whisper sweet nothings in his ear and he finally smiles.

"I love you too." He smiles.

And at this moment I couldn’t bring myself to tell him the truth. He will definitely hate me. And that will be the end of me.

I love him and I just can’t lose him. I will tell the truth but just waiting a little bit longer. Let me enjoy these last few good moments that I might only have with him.