Kenzo has been throwing tantrums and I was just silent. He remove the bandages in his head and his knuckles and the nurses couldn’t stops them, he even scolds them. Tsk! Tsk.
We are waiting for manong Rodger in front of the exit. He told me that he is already here.
“Why Rodger take so long?” He murmured impatience.
Kenzo already go home and Keran drive for him.
I am stopping myself from talking I might get him high blood again.
Until we reach the condo he is silent and he took a bath. I am just letting him do whatever he wants and besides no matter what I say I can’t convince him. He have two brain and three heads.
Where a I going to sleep now? Perhaps I am going to sleep in the sofa just like before and I before I used to sleep in a tricycle because Huan did not let me in the house.
One hour had passed when I remembered that Kienzo haven’t eaten yet. I haven’t eat lunch. How can I forgot if he keeps on shouting on me and glaring at me. Then he will silent and ignore me.
I knocked on his room and I entered when he did not answer. I saw him reading a book.
“Kienzo, let’s eat.” I invited him and I am not sure if there is foods and stocks on the fridge
“I’m full.” He answered shortly without glancing at me.
He did not yet eat anything how can he be full? He just drink water and nothing else.
“Let's’ eat first and forget your hate on me. You should eat, if you mom find out that I am not taking care of you she might scolds me.” I explain to him, “and I wanna take care if you before I leave…” I said weakly, “Don’t worry if you recover soon I will go.”
He stilled and he holds the book tightly.
“Cook then leave.” He said without any emotion. His face is blank. He became cold again.
He is being rude. From the first time we met until now his habit has not changed. I sadly closed the door of his room.
I'll just cook an egg and a hotdog. Kienzo's hotdog.
I cooked for a while and called him. I made him a cup of coffee as he requested. We just ate quietly and he didn't look at me.
It's good that he didn't complain that I cooked like that. That's all the stock in the fridge.
I went back to the sofa when I finished washing the dishes and he went back to his room. I've been here on the sofa for a few minutes and I'm restless.
I got my phone and scrolled on tiktok. I stared at the tiktok for a long time until someone gave me an idea. I smiled, when it didn't work for you Kiki I really don't know.
I got up to go to her room. I hope he's still awake.
I open his room door and he is awake.
"Kienzo." I called him but he didn't seem to hear me. This man is really deaf.
“Kienzo!” I raised my voice but still didn't he look at me. I could hear my head at the door.
I sighed and rubbed my face and decided to approach him. It’s now or never. If it failed at least I tried, I don’t want to regret without knowing that I didn’t try.
“Why are you still here? Didn’t I tell you to leave?” He asked coldly.
That hurts. Ouchy to love like this.
“Kienzo, it's so hurt. You know I love you so much so that’s why you are treating me like this. ” My introduction and I tried my best to look sad and about to cry.
He stilled and he remained his blank face.
I felt like he was getting colder. It was as if his body was covered in ice.
“You know that I will forgive you no matter what you do to me. Even if you hurt me a many times, I will forgive you multiple times. ” What he is doing is really hurting me.
Loving makes someone stupid.
He’s my downfall.
“You don’t know that I already torn my heart into million piece,” I pointed at my heart part, “I am having to what you are doing to me and on how you treat me.” I force myself to cry in front of him.
“It is really hurt and I can’t someone on how hurt I am.” A tear feel in my one eye
His eyes looks hurts and he looks guilty.
"Kienzo, I can't take it anymore." No, I can handle it, I can handle it for him. Even if I no longer understand him I will still understand him.
“What do you mean?” I can’t read his mind.
“Is that final? Don’t you want me anymore?” I asked him sadly, “because if you ask me and let me choose, I don’t want to get out of your life. Even you are cold and don’t know on how to smile. Even though you don’t don’t have sense of humor and serious in life I still wanna be with you. I only want you for the rest of my life and no one.” I said sincerely. I am not confessing.
I waited for him to talk butbut I didn’t hear anything.
He really doesn't care anymore. He is so cold and hard to tamed.
“From the very start I already know,” I smiled at him, “thank you for everything you did for me.” I turn back and waiting him to call me.
I step and my steps are heavy. It’s easy to break it right now than making it too long.
I want him to stops me but he didn’t. It’d hurts, I already left his room but he is not showing up and calling my anime.
The Kienzo I knew was a kind hearted man and a soft man, he’s the calmness man that I’ve met but now he is harmful than the tiger when he is shouting at me.
I’m still thinking if I should leave him for real but I really can’t do it. Our soul are connected from each other.
I decided to return and force him and change his mind. and I was about to open the door when it suddenly opened and I saw him. I hug him the moment that I saw him.
“Kienzo,please forgive, I will be loyal and I won’t do the same mistake again.” I beg again. If he wants to kneel to him I will do it.
I am desperate, I will do everything that he wants.
“Sorry, please forgive me.” I apologize again.
He released from the hug and look me from my eyes, “Claire.” He said my name slowly and soft He close his eyes deeply and open it.
“I’m sorry. Don’t leave.” He said sadly.
My eyes widened and my mouth hang open.
“Kienzo, let’s fix this.”I keep on begging.
He nods at me and why his eyes are sad?
I change the topic when I remember something, “by the way, who’s nemo?”
“Let’s not talk about her.” He pulled me inside the room. I just wanna who he was with in the party.
“Are we okay now?” I asked when he lean on the bed and open the TV.
He asked me to be near him.
“I didn’t mean to push you to leave me but why it’s easy for you to leave? I just want you to placate me.”
“You scare me.” I pouted, “if you shout it is like I am in far place.” I complain
“I just want you to coax me but it seems like that you are numb.”He murmured like a child.
“Are you still mad?” He dip his head on my neck and inhale my sweat.
I smiled widely when he didn’t answer me. His ears are turn into color red.
His habit is to open the Tv and do something else.
He change the channel annoyingly.
“Does it need to be told? don't you have feelings!?” He mocked at me, “don’t you know on how to feel? You had a boyfriend but you are acting like a numb and dumb.” He said harshly while creasing his eyebrow.
“You are too rude.” I pouted.
“Why isn’t true?” he challenge me.
I glared at him.
“Why are you so harsh? Did Enzo hit your brain? That’s why you are always grumpy and not in the mood?” I asked curiously.