55. A Consideration

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Savannah simply couldn't stop thinking about something so overwhelming that thought. According to what was feared before accepting an invitation the dinner, that the situation is now different and it will becomes even more complicated when such dinners occur. And now, all of that is true. Savannah is getting more and more involved in a problem, where she must be faced by a choice. In between career and love, things that are never friendly are a fear that Savannah has. Things that have always been like that Savannah disliked and wanted to be avoided, but now she has face right in front of her.

How could Savannah choose such a difficult choice, at the same time risking his future ahead too? Anyone who experienced the same thing as that woman was naturally, it would be the same as Savannah who became possessed of a mind and also the heavy burden that always makes her feel discomfort and peace in his life. Part of his mind to be overpowered by such a thing, made Savannah always does not focus on every thing she does, because she becomes too often to daydream when suddenly his mind was empty.

Like now, since arriving at the office and sitting down at the desk chair it works. Savannah decided to drop her consciousness inside daydreams, and makes her forget about his surroundings. Because there are so many thoughts that Savannah has, until making the woman have an empty mind. Until a touch on her shoulder was suddenly felt by the woman an immediately woke her up from his reverie. And Irina's figure could Savannah see who was now standing right beside where she was occupy the chair.

"Savannah, are you okay?" Said Irina who asked his co-worker who was looking very unwell.

"Yes, I am doing okay." Savannah replied by giving a smile on her lips.

"Really? Because I can't see that on your face right now."

“Yes, Irina. I'm really fine.”

“Savannah, it's been since yesterday that I saw you like this. As if you have so many problems. Sorry, I don't want to come interfere because too curious about your problem. It's just, you know I can help you, right?”

“Thank you for your concern, Irina. However, I don't want to create other people get into trouble just by hearing my troubles."

“But I don't mind, Savannah. I actually feel happy because it can help your problem."

Savannah was silent for a moment hearing the sincerity of her co-worker who wants to be a listener and also his interlocutor. Until the sentence that left Irina's lips, made Savannah hear it to be quite surprised by it.

“Does…, this has something to do between you and our boss?” Ask Irina.

"What?"

"Yes. You and Duke. Did something happen between you two?”

"Why do you have thoughts like that?"

"Because..., yesterday I accidentally saw you with him making out with kisses at his desk. Forgive me already quite presumptuous to see such personal things between you.”

“No need to feel so guilty, Irina. Because that's what you saw it's true there is a reality. Yesterday I did kiss with him."

"But aren't you with Dylan? And Dylan is your boyfriend?”

“Complicated, isn't it? I'm stuck between the McCarter brothers."

“Duke has feelings for you?”

"Yes, it has been a long time."

"I thought he had..., ahh..., nothing."

“You think Duke has feelings for you just because he has invite you to go out to dinner together? ”

“Yes, I think so. But if the reality is precisely like this, I feel so happy that I'm not caught between a love that isn't I want."

"But, something like that is happening to me right now." Reply Savannah sadly.

“Hey, I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that, Savannah.”

“No, it's fine. You always feel bad every time you feel spoke wrongly."

“Because I don't want to make other people angry because of feeling offended by my words.”

“No, Irina. You don't have to feel that way all the time."

"Okay. Then, how can you get involved in a triangle love with the McCarter brothers?”

"You really really want to hear it?"

Hearing Savannah's words, Irina rushed to step. She walked over to his desk to pull up his chair and take it to side by side with the chair that Savannah was in.

“Of course, Savannah. Besides me wanting to know what's going on among you, who knows I can try to help your problem." Irina said as she sat down on the chair she brought with her.

“Very long story. Maybe that's the point of the story. Dylan love me first. He expressed his love for me at that time still wanted to focus on my career first. Until when Dylan and I were in a casual relationship, Duke came in as my new boss. The love situation seems to be getting more complicated. I started loves Dylan and agrees to have a relationship that is more official with him. But when the situation has improved in between me and Dylan, Duke also confessed his feelings to me. I really don't have feelings for that guy at all. I don't put my feelings towards Duke at all, but that man even more and more trying to prove that his feelings no kidding. Though I've shown it enough times that I am loved his older brother, than compared to him.”

"It's really a very complicated love problem."

"Yes indeed."

"But, do you often kiss like that with Duke?"

"Yes. Not only kissing. But..., it's more than that."

"More than that..., you mean..., sex?"

"Yes."

"Hmm..., okay. Dylan knew about that?”

"There are no secrets between me and him."

"And he's all right? I mean, don't mind it?"

“Dylan is the biggest hearted man I have ever known. And I really lucky to have it.”

“Then you shouldn't feel confused either, Savannah. You love Dylan, and you've set your heart on him."

"However, now my love life has begun to be interfered with somebody. Someone who has great power and can destroyed my dream in an instant.”

"Somebody? Who?"

“Jamie McCarter. Can you guess who it is?"

"Duke and Dylan's parents?"

"Yes. From the start he did not like me being in a relationship with Dylan. Not because he wanted to protect his son, but he wish I could be with his only beloved child than the other one.”

"Duke?"

"Yes. I was threatened, Irina. If I keep my relationship along with Dylan and overruled Duke, he wouldn't hesitate destroyed the career that became my dream in an instant. And now not only the problem of love that becomes a burden and fills my head, but my career here is also at stake. I struggled to reach the best grades in university so that I can have a career guarantee in the future in front of me later, and there's no way I could destroy it just because of trouble just romance. This is what I was afraid of from the start if I lived a romance with someone.”

“Maybe you should share and consult with Dylan. Because he is your boyfriend right now. So, you better discuss the things that are the burden of your problem together with him."

“I cannot discuss matters of this matter with him. My heart is not ready. I don't want to disappoint and hurt her feelings. Even imagining it, I don't think I can handle it."

“But if you don't talk about it, something like that will get Dylan getting more and more disappointed because you were dishonest from the start with him."

"You are right. But I still feel helpless.”

“Is the request where you have to end the relationship with Dylan, Duke found out? Or the request actually came from him, and he asked his parents to be delivered to you?”

"I don't know, I haven't spoken to Duke yet."

“Maybe you could talk to Duke first to ask all of that and also confirmed it.”

"Yes. If I have the chance and the right time, I will talk about it.”

“Savannah, if I want to give a suggestion for a solution to your problem. May I convey it?”

“Of course, Irina. Your opinion might be able to help me in this is problem I have.”

“Okay. I will give you advice for your love relationship. If your heart is telling you that Dylan is the man you want, then do it. Maybe a career is one part of a dream and also a important thing you have in your life, Savannah. With you living inside the love you want, believe it your dreams are shattered because of you more choosing love over career will be replaced ten thousand times better than what you get now. Because if you live life with happiness, there is no impossible word even in your whole life ever threatened by people who do not want to be responsible with happiness in your future. Dylan is the thing you want from anything. So, defend him as best you can and never you get him out of your life, Savannah.”

“Then, what if I choose to disappoint those who I love?"

“Then you will be the stupidest woman for letting go someone who loves you sincerely, just because you prefer your career dream."

“That sounds harsh, Irina.”

"Yes indeed. Forgive me if I have spoken like that. But, in fact that will happen like that. What will happen to you, is that you will never feel happiness if you prefer to let go of someone you love and was able to make you happy."

“But, what if I want to be selfish?”

“Selfish is only for bad people, Savannah. are you someone the bad one? Do you have the heart to break Dylan's heart who loves you?”

"Why does this suffering never stop torturing me?"

“You wouldn't be asking yourself questions like this, if you were being firm about it decision that you will make later.”

"Firm?"

"Yes. You must be firm in making this decision, Savannah. Say not if you don't want it. Then do it, if your heart said you wanted to do it. This is for your own future. So, decide."

“Decide? Yes, I will make the decision.”

"There she is. Decide accordingly, because your future lies there.”

Savannah gave a smile and nod as a response from the end of the conversation, where the partner has been a lot provide solutions and also suggestions that can be used as material consideration for her later she will make a decision.

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To be continued . . .