53. What Do You Want?

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While exhaling heavily, Savannah once rubbed face roughly to try to get rid of the burden of his thoughts which is currently so fulfilling and filling his head. Early in the morning once, Savannah had sneaked out of Dylan's apartment and decided to come to the office very early. Because after yesterday night the woman heard a confession to the fact that Duke had against her, making Savannah have to go back to experiencing the same thing she had ever felt. The thing where she should think about how to feel Duke towards her, at a time when that woman's own heart had already settled on one main point as the purpose of his heart.

"Hey, it's still too early to look pressured, okay?"

A sentence that was spoken and suddenly sounded in Savannah's ear, making the woman immediately snapped out of her reverie and blinked her eyes a few times before shifting her gaze to the origin of the sound where Irina was already sitting in the chair at the desk.

"Hey, you've come?" asked Savannah with a slight smile on her lips.

"What's wrong with your face that this morning looks like that obviously depressed? Are you having a fight or a bit of a disagreement with your boyfriend?"

"Is it clear from my face that I have a lot on my mind?"

"Are you really having a fight with your boyfriend?"

“No, Irina. I'm not arguing with him. Even last night I didn't talk to him at all because he was already asleep back when I arrived at the apartment.”

"And you decide to go to the office early in the morning."

"Yes. But none of that had anything to do with Dylan.”

“Then, what made you become like this?”

“Things that are heavy and feel really bad.”

“That bad that you are willing to come to the office so early? I bet you came when the main door of the building was not yet opened, right?”

"Yes, you're right."

"Hmm..., maybe you still don't want to share your problems to me other than we haven't known each other for too long, I know trusting someone is very difficult. So..."

"Sorry, I can't at this time, Irina."

"Yes, of course. I don't mind that. I'm not angry just because you don't want to talk to me. Because if I do that, it feels like everything would be so unfair to you, right?”

“Thank you for wanting to understand,” Savannah replied curtly smile and of course made Irina who saw it smile too.

“And…, that haughty boss has come. What if I do who made coffee for him, and gave him today's schedule.”

Savannah let out a small laugh after she heard Irina's words confidently addressing Duke like that.

“If you don't mind, Irina.”

"Of course. Right now you are the one who is being seen experiencing problem, it's better to just sit in your chair to calm down before starting work hours which will start in a bit.”

“I really appreciate your understanding, Irina.”

"Of course. That's what fellow co-workers are supposed to do, right?”

Savannah's smile returned along with a nod of the head she did, and made his eyes follow the direction of the steps Irina who had already approached the table where the morning cup of coffee was usually will be made for the boss. Hours of work will soon begin, and Savannah quickly cleared the burden off her mind already so that yesterday filled his mind so much, to be able to start focusing to his work in order to maintain the professionalism that she always wanted guarded it. But when it was the woman who had just turned on the screen computer in front of her, she already found Irina who was within his sight just entered Duke's room but now it's back from there.

"Why so fast?"

“His annoying nature is back again. He wants you to read it today's schedule for him,” Irina replied while handing him the tablet brought it to Savannah.

"Why is it like that?"

"Who knows. You also experienced it yesterday, right?”

With a heavy exhale, Savannah began to move from sat down to walk to his boss's room. No forgetting the tablet containing his boss's schedule, she also brought it.

"Good morning, Sir. Your schedule today is…”

"Come here."

Savannah's greeting and words that she had not finished saying immediately interrupted by Duke who told the woman to come over the presence of the man who was sitting in his chair. Savannah, who didn't want to prolong the problem by arguing let alone refute the words of his boss, making her step approached the man. And up to Savannah which is already in near the Duke's whereabouts, the man immediately grabbed the woman's waist until Savannah fell into his lap. Duke's arms wrapped around her Savannah's waist so tight it made her start felt uncomfortable because his body could not move.

"I don't think our talk last night is over."

“Duke, don't be like this. Irina could see the thing that made her even more misunderstood the relationship between us.”

"So what?"

“Because that would make her feel suspicious.”

"Why? Does she like me?”

“Irina is far from liking you.”

"Is that true? Then I'm glad to hear it. So, I don't think so burdened because I don't have to think about other people's feelings towards me.”

"Stop it, okay?" Said Savannah who immediately wanted to stand up from her position. However, she had not had time to stand up from her position on top of the man's lap, Duke was already holding the woman's waist until Savannah became unable to move her body again.

"Daddy asked you to have dinner with him tonight," said Duke which made Savannah frown with feeling quite confused by the sentence.

“Dad..., daddy?”

"Yes. He wants to see you again, and repeat the dinner we did this together a while ago."

"What is it? Why does he want to take me out to dinner again?”

"Who knows. He just said he wanted to have dinner with you again. So, I who was sent a message like that, just wanted to convey it to you." Hearing Duke's reply, made Savannah have a moment of silent.

“Do I have the option to be able to refuse?”

"Hmm..., yes, maybe. On the condition that you speak to My dad. And explain yourself why you turned down his dinner invitation. With reasons that must be reasonable and not complicated.

“That means I have no choice but to be able to refuse.”

“Why, Savannah? All you need is to accept the invitation and it would be easier, right? ”

“Because now the situation is different, Duke. I've officially become Dylan's girlfriend, and I'm pretty sure it's dinner if I'm going to agree to it later it can be very difficult. You three, never reconcile, right?”

“You think too long and so complicated that you get scared of things you haven't done."

"Because I don't want to go through all that, Duke."

“Okay. If so, you don't have to. Then, you can refuse it.”

“How can I find a good reason to explain to your parents?"

"With me explaining that between you and I is no longer have any connection whatsoever. You've been with another man, it would never be possible for me to be able to have you in my life.”

"You always start where I want to finish, Duke."

“Because it's not the end for me, Savannah. Relations in between me and you is not over. Just the information that you're the one want to end it, not me.”

"Because that's what should have happened between us, Duke."

"No! Savannah, I beg you to listen to me. I love you. It's enough, just accept it."

"But I can't, Duke."

"Reason. Give me a reason."

Savannah immediately fell silent after hearing Duke's words which made her somehow become so mute and not whatever reason she would give him.

"There is no? I already know that you don't have any reason to can refuse my love, Savannah.”

The silence that so many women had been doing before, made Duke who want to take the opportunity they have to be with quickly immediately kissed Savannah's lips, hoping the man could give the thing that brought them both into the situation they had been through together. And whereas Savannah doesn't have the slightest intention to refused and also stopped what that man was doing to her. Even when the kiss felt deeper and also his body which began to be lifted placed on the desk by Duke, even Savannah didn't do anything at all. Until the man started Savannah felt the end of the kiss, the two's of eyes just opened and immediately met.

“I love you, Savannah. Can you just accept that?”

"What do you want?"

"Let me love you and just accept it."

“If I let it, then it's the same as I will give you one chance to get into my heart.”

“You asked, Savannah.”

“Since I have no other choice but to ask what you want, Duke. I will be selfish if between us, I'm the only one who continues say what I want."

"But that's all I want right now. That is it, Savannah.”

“If you love me, perhaps you should have a willing heart to can let me go and let me be happy together another."

"But I'm not that kind of weak guy."

“Have you tried it? At least, you can think about it first."

"No, I won't do it."

"Just try it. Why not?"

"Not in a million ways."

“So, what do you want with that stubbornness on the inside you.”

"Of course to have you in my life."

"That is it?"

"Yes. A thing that sounds so simple, right?”

"Kiss Me."

"I will do it."

"And we make love."

"I'm not going to do it, because that's not the real thing you want."

“Kiss me and we make love, Duke!” Exclaimed Savannah who was starting to get out of her mind healthy with emotions that she can not control.

“You just want to make a meaningful impression on me, and you will left me afterwards. You've done that many times to me. Don't you feel tired to do something like that, Savannah?”

"I didn't mean to give you that impression, Duke."

"Didn't mean to, but you always do. Not even you it dawned on me that I was so well versed in such a thing, didn't I?"

The words that Duke said made Savannah blush gasped due to the quite deep meaning of all the things she heard.

"I'm sorry."

"Nothing to be sorry about."

“But I will only hurt your heart more, if you continue to be determined to still love me.”

“No matter how much pain I get from you, I will never stop to want to continue to love you. One month I pondered from far away, and I keep asking myself. Am I ready for accept that pain when my heart continues to be selfish? And I've got the answer, I do, Savannah."

“Why don't you introspect to yourself to be able to stop spy on me?”

"You knew that I wouldn't do that, right? And you also already know the reason for me not doing the same thing be your question."

"Yes. Of course I know very well what kind of person you are, Duke.”

"Glad I know with you who know me so well, Savannah.”

"And..., I have to get back to work." Said the woman while lowering his own body from the top of Duke's desk.

"You haven't answered the dinner invitation yet."

“Yes, I want it. Tonight, after work ends?”

"Perfect. We will go together."

“In that case, I want to return to my desk.”

"Thank you for accepting the invitation."

Nodding her head with a smile, Savannah began walked away from the man to return to his office while calming down at each of those swift steps.

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To be continued . . .