♥ Chapter 44 ♥

Aurora Evans.

Three days later.

During those days I hardly left the house or my bed, just to go to the toilet, that's all. I didn't feel up to anything, I didn't have the strength for anything, my head was so full that I could hardly stand it. I mean, it's still full, I can't get anything into my stomach, I might end up throwing up.

In the three days I spent cooped up in my room, I spent them crying, I still refuse to believe that my best friend did this to me. Why? What did she have to envy me? What did she have to envy me? Just because I'd finally found my companions? She knew me very well, she knew what I wanted most in life, I wanted to leave my parents' house and be happy with my alphas. That was my dream, my greatest wish.

I thought she was happy with my achievement, that I could leave that home where I wasn't happy. I was very stupid not to listen to my she-wolf, she always warned me, always. And I ignored it, thinking that she just didn't like Laura, that's why she kept saying she didn't trust her. But her instinct was right. And I didn't listen. And now I'm fucked! I'm looking like a complete idiot, I'm making my alphas sad and worried about me, but I can't seem to cheer up.

Tom and Alex had booked to give me a bath, because if it was up to me, I'd never get out of that bed. My parents even tried to see me, but I didn't want to see them. Am I being mean by treating them like this? Am I wrong? Maybe many people will criticize me for treating them this way, but I can't forgive them for what they did to me.

I miss being able to transform into my wolf form so much, I miss it so much. It was so nice to run around feeling the breeze in my fur, but she took that away from me, almost killed me just for fear of alpha lupus. I can understand her fear, because being abused is the worst thing in the world. It's just that she generalized it, making all lupus alphas out to be bad. Look at my situation, I was almost abused by my alpha cousin, it doesn't depend on the species, it doesn't matter if they're lupus alphas or normal alphas, anyone can commit this act.

And she only focused on the lupus, forcing me to take medication to avoid my rut, now I've lost my wolf form, my inner wolf is always weak. I find it funny that they act as if they've done nothing wrong. My head hurts so much that I had to take pain medication every eight hours to see if it would stop hurting. And the worst thing is that it hasn't stopped.

I'm emotionally exhausted, so tired, and I can only feel good when I'm in their arms, their arms are my comfort at the moment.

- Baby? - I came out of my thoughts as Tom entered the room with a tray of food. - I brought you pancakes, I know how much you like them.

- I'm not hungry, Tom. - I pulled the sheet up to my chin. - I just want to sit quietly in my corner. - He came over and put the tray on the desk.

- Please, princess. Try to eat at least a few pieces, we're very worried about your health. You haven't been eating properly these days. - I feel terrible talking to them about it.

- Right. - I sat down on the bed and he picked up the tray again and left it resting on his lap.

- I brought you some orange juice, it's good for your health. - He gave a small smile.

Now I feel even guiltier about making them worry.

- Thank you, Tom.

- You don't have to thank me, my love.

He started cutting the pancakes into small pieces.

- Open your pretty little mouth, please. - I gave him a little smile and did as he asked.

I started chewing and then swallowed.

- As always, it tastes wonderful. - He smiled and handed me the glass of juice.

- I'm very happy, my princess. - I smiled and took a few sips of the juice.

He continued to feed me until he had cleared his plate. I drank the rest of the juice, feeling very full in my stomach.

- I'm full. - I leaned against the headboard.

- I'm glad you ate it all, love. - I looked at the door to see Alex leaning against it, watching us.

I let out a sigh.

- I'm sorry for worrying you... The problem is that I don't feel like doing anything... I really am. - I said, feeling very down.

He came over to us and sat down on the bed.

- We both know that, princess. And we're not blaming you, we're just worried about your health. We feel your pain, your sadness, your anger, but it hurts us to see you like this. Not getting out of bed, not eating properly. We're very worried.

- I know, I'm sorry, Alex. I'll take a shower and go downstairs to walk around a bit, I can go outside and get some sun. - I could feel their happiness through the mark.

- We'll be very happy about that, my princess. - Tom smiled. - Then we'll wait for you downstairs.

I smiled.

- Right, I'll be downstairs soon. - They both kissed each side of my cheek.

Tom picked up the tray and they both left the room, giving me some privacy.

I let out a sigh and rubbed my face.

I really need to get moving, I can't keep getting deeper into this depression over Laura, it's painful, but I can't keep suffering like this. While I'm like this, she probably doesn't even care about me. I can't spend all my time worrying my alphas, making them sad, I need to pick myself up.

I don't want to be depressed like this, I'll try to put everything right and focus on my alphas, they both deserve my attention. I know they understand my situation and are giving me space, but I can't go on like this. Little by little I'll be able to get back to what I was before, it's going to be difficult, luckily I'm not alone.

I have my two companions.