Chapter 46 Chapter Forty-Six
“I-I want to be perfect. I hope I can be everything you want.” I whisper looking into his eyes.
Reece kisses me once. Just one soft lingering kiss, that takes my breath away. He rubs my cheek gently with his thumb and pulls away looking into my eyes with an unwavering intensity. “You are already everything I want baby. Don’t worry about that.”
“What about all those girls throwing themselves at you guys earlier tonight?” I ask trying to turn away from him and hating myself for being so insecure.
“Baby. Listen.” Reece takes a deep breath. “I have slept with other girls; there is nothing I can do to change that. I honestly never thought we would find someone like you. Now that we have, I can do one thing.”
“What’s that?”
Reece smiles at me, making his dimple show. “I can promise you, that as long as you want me, want us.” He says motioning between him and his brothers. “There will not be any other girls. Only you baby.”
“You really mean that?” I ask feeling an overwhelming happiness bubble up inside me.
Reece kisses me again. “I do baby. I promise you are the only girl for me.”
I smile at him, leaning in to give him another kiss. “You make me so happy.”
“You make me happy too Lilly. I love you baby.” Reece says.
My breath catches. “I love you too.”
Reece laughs catching me off guard. “Why are you laughing?”
“I’m just happy baby. I was worried you didn’t mean what you said earlier before you fell asleep.” Reece says and I feel my face heat up.
I wasn’t sure if they even heard me earlier. I meant every word though. I do love them, which might be crazy, but some things are just meant to be, I guess. I never thought I would have one amazing boyfriend, let alone have three amazing boyfriends.
“I did mean it. I know I haven’t known you for very long, but I just don’t know how to explain it. I feel like I have known you guys my entire life.” I say looking into his beautiful dark brown eyes.
Reece’s smile widens and I love seeing him this happy. “I feel the same way baby.”
“I wish my mom, and Curtis didn’t have to come back tomorrow I like being here alone with you guys.”
Reece rubs my cheek with his thumb again and I lean into his touch. “Me too baby.”
“We are still going to spend time together and figure out our new relationship, right?” I ask, feeling hopeful.
Reece kisses my lips, then my nose, and then my cheek making me giggle. “Of course, baby. Nothing is going to get in the way of this.” He says motioning between us, and his brothers.
I smile, feeling happier than I have in my entire life. “Good.”
Reece rubs my cheek with his hand one last time before letting it drop to his lap. I put my hand on his thigh, rubbing it gently back and forth. I settle myself on the cushion between Reece and Ryder, putting my other hand on Ryder’s thigh. “Ready to watch the movie baby?” Ryder asks leaning in to kiss me on the cheek.
“Yes I am.” I say smiling at him.
Ryder turns the movie on, and I glance over at Raikin who has been quiet this whole time. Raikin smiles at me, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. I wonder what’s going through his mind. He was happy earlier. “Are you okay Raikin?” I ask genuinely concerned.
Raikin smiles at me again, but it looks forced. “Yeah, I’m okay baby. I was just thinking.”
“Thinking about what?”
“How much I am going to miss you when we go back to college after break.” Raikin says and there is a sadness in his tone that just breaks my heart.
I glance at Reece, who looks just as sad now, as if he hadn’t really thought about it before Raikin said something. I have thought about it. Hopefully things won’t change when they leave. The college is only an hour away. Ryder and I can go visit them all the time. Hopefully Reece and Raikin won’t be upset about me and Ryder spending so much time together. They said no jealousy, I hope that’s true.
I get up walking over to Raikin. “I am going to miss you guys too. More than you know. Let’s just make the most out of the time we get to spend together over break and then we will go from there.”
Raikin grabs my hand, pulling me towards him. “You’re right baby.” He smiles at me, a smile that reaches his eyes this time. I sit down on his lap putting my back against the arm of the chair, and my legs over the other arm. Raikin puts his arm behind my back rubbing soothing circles on my shoulder, and the other arm on my thighs.
“I will come visit you as much as I can.” I say leaning my head on his shoulder.
“So will I baby.” Raikin says kissing the top of my head.
We settle into a comfortable silence, watching the movie, talking a little about our favorite things to do for Christmas. Apparently after their mom died their Christmas traditions died too. Maybe we can start some new traditions together.
I still don’t have a clue what to get them for Christmas, but luckily, I still have a little over a week to figure it out. The movie was cute. I wish this town was turned into a winter wonderland the way they do in movies. Movies always make Christmas look magical.
Growing up I never really had a super great Christmas. Mom was always out with her new boyfriend or pissed off that she didn’t have a boyfriend to spend Christmas with. So, most of the time it was just me and the movies they showed on T.V., I always wanted a family I could spend Christmas with.
Now I have a family. Maybe not in the traditional since, but I love my new family. Curtis is nice, and I am incredibly thankful to him for his sons. Mom is happy, which I am glad about, I just wish it didn’t take a man to make her happy. Most importantly I am happy, and that’s all thanks to these incredible men in my life.
I want this new relationship to work. I want everything to work out when they go back to college, and we go back to school. Hopefully when we do tell people about us, everyone will be accepting of our untraditional relationship.
Oddly enough the person I am most worried about not accepting my relationship is Logan and my other guy friends. Not just because Logan and Ryder don’t get along, but because he was my first real friend here and I don’t want to lose him. I can’t help who I love, there are some things you just can’t choose.