Chapter 153 Chapter One Hundred and Fifty-Three
I take a deep breath and look him directly in the eyes. This is a much harder question than I thought it was going to be, but I'm going to be honest. I promised him I would always be honest with him.
"You know I would never lie to you Ryder, no matter what it is about. So, honestly." I pause taking another deep breath. "Yes. I wanted to have sex with him, but not for the reason you might think. It was just an in the moment thing. You know we were kissing and messing around, so I was very aroused. It had nothing to do with the way I feel about Logan, because I don't want him in that way. I only ever want to have sex with the three of you, I don't ever want anyone else in that way. I promise."
Ryder nods his head, giving me a small smile. "Thank you for being honest with me."
"I'm sorry Ryder." I whisper, feeling guilty. I hate that I did that to him, I hate that he had to wonder this whole time about something that never should have happened to begin with.
Ryder squeezes my hand. "Don't apologize baby. I just needed to know what was going through your mind that night is all. I'm glad you only want to be with me and my brothers. I only ever want to be with you." He leans over and gives me a kiss.
It's not a passionate fire igniting kiss, just the kind of kiss that lets you know exactly how much someone loves you, without them having to say a single word. When he pulls back he smiles at me.
"I love you more than anything in the world, you can always tell me anything and it will never change my mind about you baby. Don't ever forget that."
I smile. I remember the first time he told me that and it feels even better hearing it now. "You are so sweet Ryder. I hope you know that. I am so lucky to have you."
Ryder smiles. "Don't tell anyone I'm sweet. I do have a reputation to keep you know."
I roll my eyes, laughing. "Oh whatever."
He smirks. "I'm serious babe. I'm a dick remember?"
I laugh, scoffing. "Hey, in my defense you really were a dick before we got together, but now you are just my sweet fiance that I love more than you could ever imagine."
"Say it again baby." Ryder whispers, smiling at me.
"You." I kiss him. "Are my." I kiss him again. "Sweet fiance." I give him another kiss.
"That is the sweetest thing you have ever said to me."
I giggle. "Well, if you like that then I think you are going to love me calling you my husband."
Ryder kisses me again. "I already do love it baby, I can't wait until we are married. Then you will be stuck with me for the rest of your life."
I laugh. "You make it sound like some kind of threat or punishment, but it's not. I want to be stuck with you for the rest of my life."
Ryder rubs the back of my hand with his thumb. "Good, because you already are. Whether you like it or not."
We lay there for a little while longer, holding each other and staring up at the sky. "It's getting late baby, do you think we should go home?" Ryder asks.
This night has been absolutely perfect. I wish it didn't have to end, but I do my Reece and Raikin. It sucks that tonight is our last night alone in the house. Once our parents come home we will have to go back acting like normal step siblings, unless we want to tell them.
I give him a soft smile. "Yeah, we better head home."
Ryder gives me a kiss and stands up. I'll be right back, I'm just going to go let him know we are ready to head home. I sit up and look out at the water. The moon is reflecting off the small ripples in the water, magnifying it's beauty even more.
We will have to come back here sometime. Maybe all four of us can come out here together some day.
"Alright baby, we will be back at the dock in about fifteen minutes." Ryder tells me as he comes to sit beside me.
He wraps his arm around my shoulder and pulls me into his side. I lay my head on him, enjoying his warmth. We don't say much, we just watch the water while we head back to the dock, but we don't have to talk. We can just enjoy being together in the peace and quiet of nature.
Which is part of the reason everything seems so right when I am with Ryder.
Ryder starts packing everything up and I help him. It doesn’t take long. We were mostly just packing up the picnic stuff. We settle back in side by side when we are done packing everything and Ryder just holds me close to him.
Once the boat stops at the dock, Dallas comes over to the two of us. “Alright guys, we are back at the dock. I hope you guys have a wonderful night.”
“Thank you, Dallas. Tonight was perfect. I really appreciate it.” Ryder says, giving him a genuine smile.
“You are very welcome.” Dallas nods his head, giving the two of us a smile and walks off.
“You ready to go baby?” Ryder asks me and I nod my head.
“Yeah.”
Ryder stands up and holds his hand out for me. I take his hand and he helps me stand up. He grabs the picnic basket and walks over to the dock, helping me get off the boat. We walk back to the car, hand in hand.
When we get back to the car Ryder stops by the passenger door. “Well baby, what did you think of the date and be honest?”
I giggle, leaning up on my tiptoes to give him a kiss. “Our date was perfect and now I can say I have been on a boat.” I give him a playful smile.
Ryder chuckles. “Maybe next time you can say you have had sex on a boat.”