Chapter 18: Thinking too Much-1

We had a lot of fun at the Truth or Dare and the next thing happened just full of dancing and teasing. Dane just can't get over from the kiss he gave Adam and he keeps on sulking when I teased him about it. After that, we decided to do next was a Movie Marathon until midnight. My mom had a huge collection of DVDs in her room so I just grab several to watch. First on the list was The Notebook, one of the most romantic movies I had watched, then next is Kung Fu Panda, to be a little funnier to make us more alive due to the feeling of sleepiness. But the last was 50 Shades of Grey, during to the middle of the movie, almost of them are already asleep except for me and Luke. Luke and I have been sharing in one blanket through the whole movie. We are sitting next to each other, feeling awkward from the scene Anastasia and Christian are doing. With the kissing, smooching and the touching. It is really weird for the both of us. "Christian Grey is every woman's fantasy" I sigh, looking at him dreamingly "Oh so you love men dominating you?" Luke joked, with a playful smile. "Well Yeah, don't you think it's hot?" I teased, shrugging my shoulders. "He is a billionaire, so smart, possessive, and super super HOT!!!" "Don't you think those matches me?" he asked in a innocent look. "Yeah, right. You wish" I rolled my eyes and playfully slap his arm. "I'm a billionaire...I can be smart too...if I want to" he let's out a soft chuckle then turn his head to me causing our face to be inches apart "I am very, very possessive. What's mine is mine only. I don't like sharing" his voice was sensual and serious in the same time making me have shivers. I gulped at the chills he is giving me. His eyes was locked with mine, slowly going down to my nose, then to my slightly parted lips. I heard him breathing as it hit my face and I swear that my face is slightly red right now. "And I am a hundred percent sure that I am hot" he smirked teasingly. "Don't you think so?" Oh my God. My heart is beating fast like I had ran in a Marathon. But I just played a little joke at him by placing my hand on his forehead, "No...you're not that hot" I answered. Luke laughed at what I said and pricked just "That hurts my ego, my little Feisty." he slowly leans his face away from me making me feel slightly disappointed. I thought we are going to have a little flirt show here... "My little Feisty? Where did that came from?" I questioned, laughing "I am not yours, Luke. If I have to make that clear" I snorted, flipping my long brown hair behind my back. "Well, Feisty, if I remember it clearly...you aremine starting when Frank and you broke up" he told me, in a matter of factly tone. "I told you that at our first party together" Shit...palpitation. His face is so close to mine again, Shit. What is this tense going on between the two of us? Why do I always think that Luke likes me? He never told me that! He never told me he liked me...he just been a friend to me from the start who wanted me to move on from my past relationship. But why does he always makes me feel that he liked me? That I am special to him? He never fails to make me happy and never ever tried to make me sad. What does that mean to him? I hate to think that he is just using me and will leave me hanging in the end. Luke is not that type of guy... Is he? No man can ever change just for one girl. That is what I learned due to my experiences of having so many ex boyfriends. They won't change for you even how much he loves you. Just like Frank... "What are you thinking causing your smile to drop?" Luke's voice woke me up back to reality. I shook my head quickly but he didn't look pleased at my answer. "What are you worrying about, Feisty? Tell me" he shifted closer to me, with a serious yet concern look showing in his eyes. "Nothing, really" I lied and gave him a satisfying smile for him to believe him. But Luke can't be fooled quickly, he didn't take my lie but his eyes burn more on mine but after just a few seconds, they softened then he sigh "You know..." he stated, huskily "If I just can...I would like to take away all of your worries" I stared at him for a long time after he said that. Oh Luke... I stared at him and let myself drown at those dreamy hazel brown pools of his eyes. "Y-You don't have to do that for me, Luke. I can take care of myself" "I know, I just want to" he grinned, handsomely. I smiled back with the same amount of happiness in my eyes as we stare at each other. Until I noticed the closing distance between us. Luke is leaning closer to me and his eyes were now on my lips. Is he going to kiss me?! Oh my God, is he gonna kiss me!!! Just a little more and his lips are on mine and I also lean closer to him waiting for them to meet and mold with each other. I already closed my eyes and waited for the right moment until... "ACHHHOOOO!!!" Adam sneezed, causing him to wake up and sat from the couch. I immediately blush remembering what Luke and I are about to do. Shit, I am going to kiss him too! We are about to kiss if Adam didnt sneeze. This is gonna he "Sorry, guys" Adam apologized, covering his nose. "It's chilly here at my place" he changed his position and with his eyes half close, he turn to me and Luke then to the TV. "What are you guys watching? Looking for inspiration? " Luke groaned and threw a pillow at Adam "Go back to sleep, you dickhead!" he spat at him with a frown. But Adam made a teasing look as he sleep in a position looking away from us then yawned "Keep it inside your pants, my friend" "You~" "~shh, he is just half asleep" I stopped him and told him yo keep his voice down because the others are still sleeping. But Luke just muttered a curse and I can feel that he is embarrassed because he is hiding the small blush in his cheeks as he tried to look away. But so do I...I want to ran away and screen on top of a mountain to shout how embarrassed I feel that I entertain the idea of letting Luke kiss me! He is not even my boyfriend or anything! He is just a friend. Just a friend, George and I don't want to let it go far. For now... "I'm sorry" he whispered to me causing to crush my heart a little. "Forget that happened" He is sorry for about to kiss me. Why does it feels like I was stabbed in the heart? Shit, stop this thought! I do not like Luke. He is just a friend! Yes, I like Luke as a friend and nothing more... I don't want to go there anymore. To the point that I will expect something more and want more but then they will just leave me. I don't want to get hurt anymore. No one is going to hurt me. I will make sure of that. I won't let anybody or somebody hurt me again like Frank and Jane did. I am better that than. I can prove that I am not weak anymore because I am not. I finally have this motivation to keep myself on going and be stronger. And Thanks to Luke for waking me up. ~~~~~~~ The next morning, I woke up with my head leaning on something hard yet very comfy. Slowly, I opened my eyes and found out that I am leaning on Luke's shoulder! I immediately stood up and move away from him. Damn it, Why do we have to end up like this? As much as possible, I will distant myself from him and try to control myslef not to fall for him. Which is hard for me because of the things he to do to me. He always makes me happy yet he doesn't like me. This is so hard to do...