Chapter 253 Chapter 253
Resting his forehead against hers, he listened to their combined breathing as it filled the silence in the small space. “Is Leah close?” He needed to understand.
“Mmm, for a moment yeah.” She dropped her head to press her ear against his chest, “we were, what does the doctor call it?” She rubbed her cheek over his chest, “co-conscious I think that’s it.” Lifting her face away, she looked up at him with alluring lust-filled eyes, “you sensed her?”
He had to fight not to pick her up and carry her into the bedroom with the look she was giving him, “yes, well, tasted her for a second.”
“We have a taste?”
He growled playfully, “a taste, your own unique scents, both are driving me mad right now.”
She slowly smiled at him, “your taste is better than anything I’ve had in my mouth—ever.”
Just the image that popped into his head with her words made him startle. He gripped her shoulders and pushed her back a few inches. “We need to get out of this little space and run or something.”
“Minn is good with being with your cat, but I almost want to just stay here with you, like this.”
Jesse nodded and moved her back a little further. “I want to stay here like this too, but right now the reason isn’t right—it’s called lust and my whole system is drugged with it now.” He leaned down and kissed her mouth hard for a second, “and if I don’t get out of here, I’m going to end up rushing you and I don’t want to do that.”
She licked her lips and looked up at him. “I don’t understand what that means, Jesse.” She rolled her eyes, “I do, sort of, I’ve watched movies with Aunt Tillie, but I don’t know what—how...”
“Hey,” he leaned down so she would look at him instead of his chest, “there’s no rush, we can take the time, go slow.” If it kills me, he thought, and it just might.
She nodded, not looking at all assured by what he said. “I don’t want to disappoint you. I-we’ve never cared about that before, what someone else thought of us, but with you it’s...”
“You’re not going to disappoint me.” He offered her a playful look, “in fact my cat and I are very happy you have no experience with that.”
She took a ragged breath, “yeah?”
“Yes. Just knowing I’ll be the only man you’ll ever be with makes the animal side of me very happy.” That wasn’t entirely the truth, as a man, he would enjoy killing anyone that even looked at her with sexual intent in their eyes. “So, no rush, we can take all the time you need.” He really wanted to pull her into his arms again, to feel her against him, but even his cat was issuing warnings of how bad that will be.
“All the time in the world,” she smiled, “Aunt Tillie used to say that.”
“Yes, all the time in the world.” He made a pouting face, “just maybe not years or anything, okay? I won’t survive that.”
She laughed and it hit him right in the gut. The sound vibrated through him. “Okay, run, then we’ll get the stuff brought in.” He stepped back as far as the small space would let him. “I want to show you the property.”
With a smile on her face, she took off her jacket and lay it down carefully, smoothing it out on the couch before straightening. In that small movement, he realized she’d never really had anything new in her life and he wanted to give her the world, Leah as well.
Stripping her shirt off over her head and tossed it on top of the jacket. Jesse’s breath got caught in his throat as she stood there topless in front of him. He’d seen her naked before, but not while lust was fueling his system. Clearing his throat, he stepped around her, trying to keep his eyes from staring at where his mouth wanted to be. “I’ll be outside.”
She nodded and undid her jeans, “it feels like rain, so I’ll just leave my clothes here.” She looked him up and down as if to say, ‘why aren’t you taking yours off?’
With jerky movements, he undid his boots and took them off. Pulling his shirt over his head, he tossed it in the direction of the sink. His hands went to the button on his jeans and then he paused. She stood in front of him now completely naked. As his gaze moved down over her, he realized she was tanned everywhere, with no strap lines anywhere. At that moment he decided the gate was being built away from the yard, so no one could see her if she chose to wander around without clothes. He’d never get any work done, but he didn’t care.
“Are you all right?”
Blinking, he looked back at her face. “Yeah, uh, fine, just thinking.”
She smiled, “about a run I hope,” she motioned down her body that he didn’t need attention brought back to, “I’m ready.”
His mouth dried out. “Yeah,” he croaked. He couldn’t take his jeans off in front of her. Not only was the shift going to be uncomfortable, but he didn’t want to scare her or have to explain why he was so hard it hurt.
“I’m so happy, Jesse.” She gave him a big grin and then moved fast into his arms. “I liked it at Blair’s, but it felt awkward, you know?” She pressed her cheek against his chest. “Sometimes no clothes rubbing all over you feels right.” She looked up at him and then frowned. “What’s wrong?”
“Not a damn thing.” His voice was gravelly, lust was riding him hard right now. “I have, uh, no problem if you want to walk around naked—while we’re here, but please don’t do that around others, I’d have to claw their eyes from their skull.”
She nodded, “no, I get that. It bothered me when you had no shirt on around Kobie and Shaelan.” She leaned back and smoothed her hand slowly over his chest.
He couldn’t stop the low growl as she touched him. Grasping her wrist, he stopped her from moving. “Okay, we have to go for a run now.”
She looked confused, “did I do something wrong?”
He shook his head quickly, “no. No you didn’t. I’m just,” he moved his tongue around in his mouth to create saliva so he could speak, “very turned on right now.” Her expression told him she didn’t understand, “very excited to be this close to you.”
She looked relieved, “is that it? I feel so...”
He put his finger over her lips, “don’t say it. I’m really struggling right now.” He didn’t need her to tell him she was turned on as well, he could scent that. Grasping her shoulders lightly, he pushed her a foot away from him. “I need to go outside and shift.” It was going to be painful in some areas and that’s why he usually avoided it, but he needed his cat right now, his cat that would put a stop to doing something stupid that could scare her. His cat would stop this drive to sink his teeth into her neck and mark her, right here, right now.
“Okay,” her tone cut through him like a blade. She didn’t understand.
Still holding her shoulders, he made a point of looking down at the bulge in his jeans and then back to her face. She was looking at the front of his jeans now, and he honestly couldn’t decipher what the expression in her eyes was. “As I said, very excited.”
“I’ve never,” she licked her lips and he had to bite his to not moan, “the movies didn’t show me that.”
“I know, that’s why I just need a moment to shift.”
“Are you okay? Shifting like that?” She reached a hand out to touch the bulge and he jumped back before she could.
“I’ll be fine, I’m just really turned on right now.”
“So you want me? Now?”
He clamped his teeth down on his tongue so he wouldn’t answer and say what his lust-hazy brain was thinking. He tasted blood but kept his mouth shut and nodded.
She blushed a small smile on her mouth, “okay. Do you want me to wait here or do you need help?” She reached her hand out again.
Jesse stumbled past her to the door. “I’ll be fine, just give me five minutes.”
“Okay. Give a roar when I can come out.”
He didn’t reply. He almost fell down the step getting out of there. Closing the door, he leaned his head against it and then swallowed down the blood in his mouth. Closing his eyes, he reached for his cat, he needed him right now. His cat was there, a little stunned right now. Jesse didn’t lose control, ever, he’d also never been tempted like he was right now. Pushing away from the trailer, he walked stiff legged to the end of it. Thera was there, she lifted her head and scented the air in his direction. “Don’t even start with me.” He told her and undid his jeans. Having a mate was going to test his control to its absolute limit he realized. Peeling his jeans off, he took a few deep breaths, this was going to be painful. He grit his teeth and focused to let his cat come to the surface. “Help me out.” He whispered to the animal inside, “we have to handle this the right way.”