Chapter 72 Allow me your leave, Alpha.
72\. Allow me your leave, Alpha.
Alpha Damien's POV
I have never felt so weak even after being the strongest in my whole life. In front of Aura, I felt as little as a thief. She hiccuped loudly. Each sob tearing me apart. She was affected by my presence and tried with all her might to avoid me around her.
I couldn't go. Even if I wished I could. Even if it meant to give her some peace and not humiliate her by having any hopes of getting back together with her.
I just couldn't... I wouldn't. Because deep down, I was aware that she craved to come to me— in my arms and back into the shelter of warm protection I had kept her cocooned all these years. Back to the mansion that's been our house all these years.
"I know I have no excuse left that can justify my irrationality. I've done the worst I could with you." She shook in Rosario's arms as my voice buzzed, going closer even if he kept his arms loose around her to make it clear that there was nothing special beholden by him.
I was glad of him, however, her whimpers sliced my heart. I wasn't feeling good about myself and how she cried just worsened my overall condition.
"I exposed you to the world after embracing you for years. I saved you yet I left you at the mercy of cruelty. It's not a doubt that I... I d-don't deserve a chance to explain myself but," I was not sure of my words.
I wanted to do it but somewhere I knew it was not happening. It was actually failing given that she was mourning in somebody else's arm. She just went through one of the scariest phases in her life as a woman, and instead of me covering her tormented skin with my touch, someone else was getting to do it.
That was the most difficult part for me as a wolf.
I can see Rosario didn't mean it. He just wanted to make her feel safe. It's just that my restless heart and guilty wolf cried at the sight of it. I wanted her to myself. Once... Even if it was for a little while as little as for two minutes, I just wished I had her to myself.
But that was not possible now, was it?
"Pl-please listen to me. Please d-don't push me away. Y-you know I didn't want it. None of us want it." I was stuttering unlike myself.
But then this was Aurora Collins, and her charm was enough to crack and open the land under my feet. Stuttering was merely a small impact I felt from her ignorance.
"I... I never realized you were preg—"
"DON'T YOU EVEN TALK ABOUT IT, ALPHA DAMIEN!" Suddenly my hands clenched at my side as I lowered my head at her angry outburst.
She ripped herself out of her French friend's arms and faced me. On her knees she stood as she glowered at me with those inflamed eyes accusing me of degrading her dignity.
She respired laboriously while her disgusted gaze grazed my face. "Don't you just go there. Y-you d-don't deserve to speak about my baby, Damien hunter."
I wished the sun blasted and its fragmented pieces fell on me, setting me ablaze just like my heart. My lashes were facing groundwards but I can feel her eyes stabbing me accusingly.
"I-it's our baby," I shouldn't have said that but I couldn't.
"NO, it's not. It's not your baby. Not your baby any more." Her voice gave away her pain.
I didn't look up yet but I can say she was hell angry. I can feel the air grow tense and suffocating for me. Her shivers were noticeable too.
"You lost your right over the baby when you believed those photographs over me. When you asked me how much I sold myself for, you insulted my unborn child. You insulted his identity and my loyalty in this relationship, Alpha Damien." At least she shouldn't have called me that, it hurt more than her coldness.
More than her disarrayed breathing pattern or trembling shoulders, her formality hurt me.
"I tolerated everything you gave me in this relationship, Alpha Damien. But not anymore because I have made up my mind." Instantly my head shot up.
I rose along with Aura as I stared into her eyes. No, please no. It couldn't be what I am hearing right now. She can't distance me from her and our baby. Please, not now.
"Y-you can be angry for all you want and as long as you wish to, Aura. Pl-please don't—"
"Since you've already called off our relationship that I am grateful about— I will respect your decision from the other night, Alpha, and start my life afresh. Allow me your leave." I shook my head in a no, pleading her to take back her words.
Alas, she turned around and walked away hugging her arms. Rosario stared between her and me. He was confused about what to do.
He had been witnessing us silently but his eyes portrayed hope. Hope for us to be back together. I sensed his nervousness when Aura started speaking— and his raw bewilderment when she acknowledged our seperation and turned away from me.
I saw in his eyes pity for me for he had prayed for her to give me a chance. He also thought I deserved it.
"I will go behind her. You don't want her or the baby hurt, do you?" He spoke shyly. "I... I w-wil take her care while you attempt again, Hunter. I'll talk to her when she's cool headed."
That was not the best thing I heard but I was glad he decided that. He was the best company for her at the moment. He understood her like nobody else. So he would be able to handle her like nobody else.
"Do not worry." Was his last statement before he ran behind her, following up with her.
His arm going around her shoulder hitched my breaths. I was sure to take her home with me. I had promised to bring Aura and our baby with me. But... I failed. I failed.
In front of me Rosario's car took her away and I could do nothing. I could do nothing except for staring down her frame longingly, praying that she'd change her mind and come back. She didn't.
Tbc…
I support Aura with her decision, don't you? He can't get his way all the time because he's an alpha. But but... Ik we wanted them to be together. Well, it's in Alpha's hands now. Let's see how he convinces her. Do vote for us, comment and follow:)